C H A P T E R N I N E T E E N
Riki realized on the way to school that he forgot his camera in Kaya's room. He needed it to record the lessons for her.
It's okay if he comes late for once at school, he thought. So he came back at the hospital, and started to run toward Kaya's room when he heard how it was loud from there.
He's now front of her room and he can see her on her bed with the doctors trying to reach her heart to beat again.
His heart hurt to see her this way, he dropped his school bag on the floor, and started to have teary eyes.
He came closer to the bed without saying anything, doctors were just doing her job but she wasn't waking up.
"Riki you can't be here!"
But he didn't care about what Arin is saying, he just held Kaya's hand.
"Kaya, it's me, it's Riki. I'm here."
"I came back for you."
"Please live Kaya."
He started to cry as Arin used again the defibrillator.
"Kaya please, i beg you to stay alive."
"I still beg you to stay alive."
"You're that girl i love, i need you to live."
Riki kept holding her hand and cried, he never liked crying in front of people but this time didn't matter. It's Kaya. Kaya is dying.
"You told me it doesn't hurt when i'm with you."
"I'm here now."
"I'm here to make your heart beat."
"Don't leave me."
"I heard you last night."
"I heard you, you can love me, but you can't leave me."
"Please."
He cried and cried, tears couldn't stop to fall down his cheeks. Arin used once again the defibrillator.
Riki are you next to me?
I feel my heart is full of love again.
Are you looking at me dying?
Or are you trying to save me?
Are you filling my heart with love to save me?
I needed you and you came.
I can't hear you.
But my heart feel you here.
I don't want to die,
i'm sorry if i'm dying front of your eyes.
Heaven looked nice.
I could stay there.
But Heaven is special in your arms.
If i wake up please tell me you won't leave me.
If i wake up, please tell me you're gonna kiss me.
Tell me you're gonna hold my hand again.
Tell me you always will fill my heart with love so it can't stop beating.
Please Riki, i don't want to die.
Help me..
I want to open my eyes but i can't..
Maybe i'm just dying and it's too late.
You can't save me.
You can't fill my heart with love it's already dead.
I want to tell Jay i love him so much.
My big brother who always protected me.
My dad who never failed to give me so much love to fill the emptiness my mom left behind her.
And Rosea, my best friend. She always was there for me.
I'm glad now she's happy with Jungwon.
He is a great boy for her.
Oh even if i hate teacher Jina i wanna thanks her,
cause i got closer with Riki thanks to her.
I'm glad she picked Riki and I to do our project together.
The midori hospital.
Midori..
He chose it.
I loved it.
I always have loved all his ideas.
"She's back.. her heartbeats are back." Said Arin.
She dropped the defibrillator and Riki bursted into tears no matter how many people were in the room.
Doctor Kim asked everyone to leave to let the boy cry alone holding Kaya's hand.
"Thank you.. i think she needed you Riki."
He wasn't able to say something he was just crying of happiness that she's alive. He cried and cried.
"Why didn't she tell me her heart was going that bad?"
Arin looked at the boy with a tiny smile on her face and patted his shoulder.
"Cause she forgets all her problems with you, and all her pain."
He kissed her hand, he gave her hands three kisses and he hoped she would open her eyes.
"How bad it is?" He asked trying to calm down.
"Sometimes her heart stop beating without no warning and it's dangerous, she can die at any moment."
That made him so sad that he kept crying again, Arin felt bad she had to leave the room so he just can be alone with Kaya.
He cried his head down, Riki never cried for a girl but that girl, she was the most precious girl to him.
"Don't cry." He heard his weak voice.
He raised his head on her as soon as he heard her awake, and he hugged her. He leaned down on her bed to hug her and cried in her neck.
"It's the second time, don't do that again."
I rarely was scared in my life, Kaya.
I'm born in a rich family, i get everything i want,
so i never was scared to not get something.
This time i was scared to not get you back alive.
I can't get you with money like all the rest.
I can't buy my love's life.
I wish it was possible so you can stay alive.
If you leave me i won't get any other girl.
I just want you, you and you.
Kaya don't scare me this way,
it's painful.
I'm glad you're awake.
I can't wait till the day you can leave the hospital,
so i can bring you back to the Ferris wheel.
And do what i want to do.
I can't wait for you to get better so i can confess,
i'm confident now,
I know you love me back.