C H A P T E R E I G H T E E N
6 am.
Riki woke up early, it is a Monday he has school. And he doesn't like to be late so he tried to wake up without waking up Kaya.
Soon Doctor Arin will come to check Kaya so he better leave before, especially leaving her bed.
Riki left.
30 minutes later Doctor Kim came to check Kaya. She was still sleeping, as she didn't want to wake her up she just gonna check her without waking her up.
Arin noticed her monitor was off, "why is it not on?" she mumbled to herself panicking.
Doctor shook Kaya's body but she didn't wake up, she tried to feel her pulse. She felt one but it was so low.
"Why is her monitor unplugged?! She's gonna die I need help!" Arin shouted so a bunch of doctor came in.
Arin turned on the heartbeat monitor and her heartbeats were going too slow.
"We're loosing her, come on!"
She took the defibrillator and charged it to 200, hit her chest but it was still going too slow, almost no heartbeat at all.
"She's dying, Kaya is dying!" Arin shouted again.
Maybe it's my time, i'm dying after i confessed my love to Riki.
Even tho he didn't hear me.
It's my time i did what i needed to do.
I've had a last great birthday.
I've met my family one last time.
I had a family hug.
I held Riki tight this night.
He gave me my last bouquet flowers.
It's my time.
I'm gonna meet my mom.
I had great last weeks.
I was pretty for my last day, i wore makeup.
I wore the dress Riki got me for my birthday.
He held my hand.
I felt loved.
I had a great life.
Great friends.
A great lover.
Even tho he never was my love.
I suffered in silence.
I only don't suffer when i'm with Riki, cause all i feel with him is love.
I need him but he left this morning.
And the pain came back.
I'm dying.
My mom isn't here to ask me to wake up this time.
That means it's really my time.
Riki please don't be sad, we had great time together.
Now love another girl that can love you back.
That girl will be lucky.
I'm jealous i can't be your future wife.
Our time was too short.
I'm sorry.
I should have noticed you three years ago.
I remember when you passed the door the first you arrived in the same class as me.
I will never forget that blond young boy that passed the door.
Riki keep your hair dark now, it makes you even prettier.
Don't blame yourself cause you left this morning.
I'm glad i spent my last hours with you.
Our love is better than in the books.
It's better than my expectations.
I just wished to kiss you at least once.
But i didn't.
Your pretty lips,
the prettiest lips i've ever seen.
They look so soft.
I should have kiss you last night but i couldn't.
You have really pretty eyes and really soft hair.
I did a video on your phone last time.
I hope you will see that video.
I already knew i love you.
I'm not sad.
I'm happy i'm leaving after i confessed my love to you in the night.
You just didn't hear but i did Riki.
I did it.
Believe me i love you back.
That girl you love, loves you back.
I thought you love another girl when you told me you love someone.
But it's me.
You spend all your time with me.
How could you have time for another girl.
We're not just friends.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I wanna scream it but i can't.
Riki.. no please help me to stay alive i want to stay with you,
I changed my mind,
i want to stay alive i didn't kiss you yet.
You're gonna suffer in both way..
Arin told me you're gonna suffer anyway,
cause you love me.
I remember what she told me now.
You love me and no matter if i'm your girlfriend or not,
you love me.
So my death is gonna make you suffer anyways.
I didn't kiss you yet.
And you don't know that i love you back yet.
You will be sad if you never know if the girl love you back or not.
You need to know.
I can't leave like that.
I changed my mind,
it's not my time.
It can't be my time.
I want to live for you.
You begged me to stay alive at the KaKi place.
I'm selfish if i die,
just because i suffer..
I can't make you suffer.
I know what it's like to have pain in the heart,
i can't give you that,
I will live.
I will live for you Riki.