" Gotou-san, I love you."
Huh?
What?
I feel his arms wrapping themselves around me as he pulls me closer to his chest. He presses my head to it, so I could hear his heartbeat.
Ba-dum!
Ba-dum!
Ba-dum!
" Do you hear it?" he whispers to my ear. I feel my face heat up from the airiness of his voice.
" It beats for you and only you." He murmurs.
" A-Akihiko-kun..." I didn't know what to say. No, wasn't this what I've been waiting for all this time? He says he loves me. I should say it back, let him know that his feelings are reciprocated.
But the words are caught in my throat.
" You don't have to say you love me." He suddenly says.
But why wouldn't you want me to?
" You know," His tone was shakey, but the following words were filled with his honest feelings. " I didn't think I'd fall in love. Much less, with you."
" Yet somehow, I did."
"..."
" ' How did I fall in love with you? ' That's the question that rang through my head, the question that beat me senseless ever since I realized how I've fallen for you."
"..."
" Maybe it was the way you speak, or the way you look at me with those beautiful blue eyes, or maybe it's when you smile....or..."
I feel his arms weaken.
" Maybe...it's all of that." He released a chuckle.
" And then the next question came," He pulls away from me and our eyes met. " ' Would I ever be good enough for you?' now that's the question that's been poisoning me."
You are good enough-- no, even more than that. So why would you think otherwise?
" I couldn't say these words to you because I was scared...that I'd mess up. I don't always doubt myself when it comes to everything else, but with you, I can't help but panic every single time I'm this close to spilling my feelings out."
"..."
" But I realized, that it doesn't matter. I shouldn't be afraid to admit it. I shouldn't be afraid to tell you the one thing I want you to know."
" A-Akihiko-kun--"
" Gotou-san, I love you."
His words echoed through my very soul. Like a ray of light had just been shone upon me, I felt sensitive all over and I could barely keep up with my own breath. My heart was ready to burst right out of me! So this is what it's like....to be in a romance scene just like those manga I've read.
It feels so nice...but...
" Did I do good?"
Everything crashes down.
" Was it too much?"
I could barely keep putting on this fake smile.
" Should I redo? Is there anything that could be worded a little better or maybe even simplify things a little--"
" It'll do."
" Huh?"
I give him my most sincerest ( broken ) smile.
" You did good, Akihiko-kun."
Those words were never meant for me.
It was only for a moment, just a moment.
Where he saw me as Gotou-san.
But really, I'm not.
It's not me.
As much as I'd love to continue pretending to be her, I couldn't. His heart never belonged to me.
" Thank you for helping me out, Mayafumi-san."
" It's no problem!"
His heart doesn't beat for Mayafumi Akemi.
~~~ April Fools!~~~
You probably expected it right? Like just from the title alone, everything feels off.
That's why I opted to take it into another direction! An angsty one!
There were many ways how I wanted this fake chapter to go. Much worse options, really.
Still, I apologize to my own oc ( Mayafumi ) to be suffering this fate even if it's just a fake chapter! Hehe~
This could've definitely gone the worst route. I was thinking of making " Gotou-san" turn out to be either Bocchi's mom or.....Futari.
But I didn't find the cruelty within me to break Bocchi's heart like that. ( Or maybe I do )
But anyways, with this chapter I also have something good to announce just to make sure u didn't waste your time--
I'm going to try updating daily starting tomorrow!
Exam weeks are done, and I have at least a week vacation from school. So I can start rapid publishing chapters again like I used to!
Hopefully you all look forward to it!
So until then, I'll see you~!