LETTING GO
Maybe i will start my new chapter here, i don't want to start my new chapter with full of negativity.
Thanking God for giving me such an amazing friends. This time i will focus to my dream. Loving myself.
"Next month na pala yung pasukan natin" sabi ni Lyka.
Nandito kami ngayon sa resort namin, dito kami magsusummer for 1month.Finally nadala ko din sila dito.
Until now Blake is still bothering me, palagi siyang pumupunta sa bahay. Kaya i decided to go here in province. I wanted some peaceful life. I don't want to see him again.
"Gosh, hindi pa ako ready" sabi ni Pat.
"Enjoy nalang kaya muna tayo dito, kaysa problemahin yang college life" sabi ko sakanila.
Nandito kami ngayon sa tapat ng init, nagsu-sun bating kami.
"Ganda talaga dito sa resort niyo Bri" sabi ni Kristy.
"When was the last time you came here?" sabi ni Saichi.
"Before graduation" sabi ko.
"Ahh yung kasama mo si Bl—" sabi ni Saichi, hindi na natuloy yung sasabihin niya nung tinakpan ni Pat yung bibig niya.
"Wag niyo ng sabihin yung pangalan niya" sabi ni Pat.
"Okay okay sorry! Chill ambaho ng kamay mo" sabi ni Saichi.
"Alam mo ba kong saan ko to hinawak kanina?" sabi ni Pat.
"S-saan?" sagot ni Saichi.
"Sa pwet ko!" sabi ni Pat.
Nagtawanan kaming lahat sa reaksyon ni Saichi.
Ilang oras na kaming babad dito. We decided to island hoping, kaysa naman magpainit init kami dito right? yas.
"What if mag i-island hoping tayo?" sabi ko at agad namang napabalikwas yung mga girls.
"Gusto ko yan!" sigaw ni Lyka.
Tumayo na ako at pumunta sa desk namin.
"Island Hoping po kami" sabi ko.
"Yes Ma'am, this way po. " sabi nung staff.
Pumunta na kami kong saan kami sasakay, manong guide us. Sumakay na kami at sumuot ng life vest.
"This is the best day!" sabi ni Pat.
"Don't ever say that Pat, the last time we said that. Something happened" sabi ko.
"Chill! Wala namang malas satin dito" sabi ni Pat.
Nagstart na yung sinasakyan namin at nauna kaming pumunta sa Hope Island. Walang tao dito, kami lang. Sobrang blue nung tubig.
"Let's take a picture!" sabi ko.
We took a picture for memories.
"Punta kaya tayo sa gitna ng dagat para makapag snorkel" sabi ni Sai.
Sumakay kami ulit at sinabihan si Manong na sa gitna kami titigil para makapagsnorkel kami.
"Here we go!" sabi namin at sabay kami nagdive.
Nakikita ko yung mga kaibigan ko na nasasayahan, yon lang sapat na saakin.
Sobrang ganda dito sa ilalim ng tubig, maraming isda. Kahit papano nabawasan yung sakit na nararamdaman ko.
Gusto gusto ko ng mawala to, sobrang bigat. I act like it's not hurt like a hell, but it is. Kailan ba ako magpapanggap na ganito lang? Maybe i really need to start and to changed everything.
Umahon na ako sa tubig, bigla umiba yung nararamdaman ko. I want to go back in our house.
"Ladies, i think. I'm not feeling well" sabi ko.
"We can go back" sabi nila.
Bumalik na kami sa resort namin at dumeristo sa bahay.
"Girl sorry for ruining this day. Bawi nalang ako bukas" sabi ko sakanila.
"No worries girl" sabi nila.
Natulog na ako at nagising nalang ako it's already 7pm in the evening. Bumaba ako at busy yung mga kaibigan ko sa paghahanda ng pagkain sa basket.
"Where are we going?" sabi ko.
"We are going to eat at the beach. Bonfire tayo." Sabi ni Pat.
"And, we already ready of stuff. Also tent is with us." Sabi ni Lyka.
"Doon tayo matutulog, atleast diba experience " sabi ni Saichi.
"Lastly, mag o-open forum tayo, listening to each others rants. We are here for you Bri" Sabi ni Kristy.
"Thankyou girls. And i'am very sorry for earlier" sabi ko at niyakap sila.
Pumunta na kami sa beach namin kong saan maglalatag kami ng tent at picnic mat sa buhangin. Hinihanda din namin yung mga pagkain, at yung bon fire nakahanda na pala, pinaghandaan talaga nila ito para saakin.
I feel so special for today.
Umupo kami at nakapalibot kami sa isa't isa.
"Bri, we did this for you." sabi ni Saichi.
"We still see you are still bothering diyan sa nararamdaman mo." sabi ni Pat.
"You can talk to us naman if ano yang nararamdaman mo, wag mong itago. Nandito kami" sabi ni Lyka.
"Its okay to cry, you can cry to us" sabi ni Kristy.
"Girls, thankyou. I don't know what to say. I just wanted to thanks all of you. Ginagawa niyo lahat para tulongan ako, kahit mismo sarili ko hindi ko alam kong paano ko tutulongan. Sobrang na drain ako sa pangyayari." sabi ko sakanila.
"It's really draining Bri, but if you let that out. Everything will be fine. You just need to let go that feeling" sabi ni Saichi.
"Masakit parin, everytime. Naaalala ko yung mga ginagawa namin. Mga masayang alala. At mas masakit pa yung naiisip ko kong paano niya ako niloko. Hindi ko alam kong anong acceptance ang gagawin ko." sabi ko sakanila.
Hindi ko napigilan yung nararamdaman ko kaya umiyak ako. Saichi when for me to hug me.
"Just cry it out. Mawawala yan" sabi ni Saichi.
"Gawin mo yung mga bagay na hindi makapaalala sakanya. Yung mga bagay na hindi mo ginagawa nung kayo pa. I know kaya mo. I'm rooting for you Bri." sabi ni Pat.
"Yes, tama si Pat. For the changed. Bagohin mo sarili mo." sabi ni Kristy.
"Para kapag nagkita kayo ulit, hindi na ikaw yung Brianna na ginusto niya or yung brianna na sinaktan niya. Dahil kapag nakikita ka niyang nasasaktan Bri. Aabusohin niya lang yung nararamdaman mo" sabi ni Lyka.
"Trust us Bri, we are really want to help you. Pati kami naawa na. " sabi ni Kristy.
"I really want to. I don't know how" sabi ko.
"We are here! We will help you" sabi ni Saichi.
"First, no one will ever mentioned the named Blake!" sabi ni Kristy.
"Right! Ngayon kain muna tayo at pagisipan natin ya mamaya" sabi ni Pat.
Kumain na kami at nag tawanan. Tama nga sila, i need to changed. The girl who's been hurt to the girl has been baddass.
Sa kalagitnaan ng aking pagkain, mayroong tumawag saakin. Ngayon ko lang nakita ang number na ito, nagiisip pa ako kong sagutin ko ito dahil baka si Blake lang ito. Pero mayroon sa sarili ko na sagutin ko .
"Excuse me girls" sabi ko sakanila at nagpakalayo ng konti.
Sinagot ko yung tawag.
"Hello?" sabi ko.
"Hi! Is this Brianna Santiago?" tanong nung nasa kabilang linya.
"Yes, ano yon?" sabi ko.
"Alright, I already saw you sa graduation pictorial niyo. I am the one and only photographer. I saw you have potential in modeling. I would like to offer you, to join our agency in USA. They are possibilities that you will become celebrity. Are you joining?" sabi nito.
I was so shocked!! Modeling?!!!
It's my fucking dream since i was a kid! Today someone's offering me to become a model!!
"Hello, yes! I really want to! " Sabi ko.
"Alright, since you will be going to college. We are offering you a scholarship. You will continue your school at USA , while you are with us. I would like to talk to your parents. And about your visa, we will ready as soon as possible " sabi nito.
"Omygad, this is for real?" sabi ko.
"Yes ma'am! We will call you again. See you soon. Goodbye" sabi nito at pinatay.
I don't know what to say!
A model huh? What a great start.
I go back to my friends and i announced them the news. We are so very happy! At the same time nalulungkot din, magkakahiwalay kami.
"That's okay, magkikita naman tayo ulit. We need Bri to change right?" sabi ni Saichi.
"Yes, All for Bri! Rooting for Bri!" pag che-cheer pa nila saakin.
I'am so happy! No one can explain how happy i am for today!
Yeah right! I'am ready to let go everything.
Ready for the changed!
Brianna Santiago, is letting go all the past experiences i've been through. And start a refreshing memories .
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