It's the first day of the new year
And still I wonder if the end is near
Maybe life is just a game
And I'm not that good of a player
'Cause I keep losing to her.
People in my life come and go
It feels like everyone moves on
And I am the one who stays still.
Still stuck to the memories.
Still stuck to the thoughts.
Still stuck to the people.
I say I'll put myself first
I'll do believe I'm worth
I'll try to make everything work
But I end up putting me as last.
I'm scared to let go of my past.
I wish I could scream
Wish I could cry
But I'm stuck into this scheme
And can't seem to get out of it.
I want to trust
I want to believe
I want to love, again
And again and again
I want to love me
Like you love me
And I'm sorry I can't show it
But I'm scared to relive the pain, again
And again and again
I want to love, again
Will you wait for me until then?