*@ I;ve gotten to the point wherere I can no longer give a shit about where there chapter turned out, or this book for tha matter. Fuck I'm tired. I just realised i took a sleeping pill 20 mintues ago and now it's beginning to work Im so dobey... night guys!* \
Chapter 10:
Felix's P.O.V
Jake and I sat down at the table a bowl of cereal in front of us each. It was fruit loops, one of my favourites, but I didn't want to eat right now. The thought of food made me want to be sick. Jake looked at me with a sad look on his face,
"Please Felix? Just this one time today, and you don't have to eat anything else if you don't want to." I frowned biting my lip. He was giving me an easy way; eat just this once and no more for the day. I nodded sadly before picking up the spoon, and moving it to my mouth and eating it. I almost moaned at the childish sugary flavour and began piling more and more into my mouth until there was nothing left.
I put the spoon down and looked at Jake who was smiling so widely it could light up all of Bremin. I blushed biting down on my lip, nervous from the look on his face. Why does he look so happy? I did what he asked— so why is he looking at me so oddly,
"Jake? Are you okay?" Jake nodded his smile growing, as he reached over and grabbed one of my hands in his.
"Felix, I'm so proud of you. I know it seems stupid, but I am so glad you did this for me. I just— I get worried about you so much, and I don't want to hurt you, but I'm scared I will, and I'm scared I will scare you off, and it will break me. But mostly I don't want you to hurt yourself. You have so many scars it scares me that they can build up so quickly. And I guess— I just love you and don't ever want to give you up or see you hurt." I felt tears running down my face at his speech, or confession, or whatever it was. I bit my lip biting down hard trying to stop the tears. Jake looked at me with tears in his own eyes as he used the hand he was holding and pulled me to the couch in the living room.
"Felix, I am so sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry." I nodded smiling as his arms wrapped around me pulling me close. I then wrapped my arms around his neck and held myself closer, my crying now ceased,
"Jake don't be sorry. These are happy tears— I just, I don't know how to respond to what you just said. No one has said that to me before— no one has said a lot of things to me before, and I guess you saying them makes me feel better." Jake nodded staring at me oddly again; I furrowed my brows and asked,
"Why are you looking at me oddly?" Jake shrugged,
"I don't know, but for some reason, I like what you look like when you cry." I furrowed my brows at his words,
"I look like a freak—" I muttered bluntly confused as hell. Jake laughed lightly his chest shaking with the movement,
"Yeah— but you're my freak." His words made my heart melt and move so I was half sitting on him. It was actually quite comfortable and I leant up, pecking him on the lips before sitting my head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.
I didn't think anything could ruin this moment, and I think I just jinxed myself. A bang began on my front door, and with that came the screaming of my ex-best friend— great, I turned to Jake who was looking at me with an odd expression making me shrug,
"I literally have no fucking clue as to why she is here," I said explaining I was confused as he was. Jake nodded and stood up and began for the door, my eyes widened and I grabbed his hand,
"What are you doing?" Jake sighed,
"I'm getting her to leave us alone." I nodded and stood up after him, to go with him, but he stopped me,
"Felix, I don't want her near you." I rolled my eyes,
"Yeah, and you forget you're shirtless." Jake's eyes widened and he quickly moved from the door,
"Right— yeah— you can get it." I rolled my eyes tapping his chest as I walked past,
"That's what I thought, now just wait in here. I might need your help." Jake nodded and stood just behind the door as I opened it. Ellen was standing there furiously banging on the screen door which I was so glad was there. She stopped banging when she saw me,
"Well it took you long enough," I rolled my eyes,
"Well, I was busy Ellen. Now, what do you want?" I just wanted to get this over and done with, but Ellen had other ideas,
"How about you let me in and we can talk about it?" My eyes widened and I shook my head, taking a step back,
"No thanks, I think that's a bad idea." Ellen frowned and was mad again,
"Well, why not! It's not like your house is messy, your Mum is a neat freak and I highly doubt you have anyone around, you are a loner." I sighed, how could she have forgotten?
"What do you want to talk about Ellen?" Ellen frowned crossing her arms,
"I want to talk about how you are with that jock and not Me." my eyes widened again and looked at her like she was crazy,
"That's what you want to talk about, my relationship?!" Ellen scoffed,
"Please, you are not in a relationship with that thing. If you say you aren't with him, I will forgive you and then we can be together," I growled at her,
"Look, Ellen, we never were and we never will be in a relationship. I am with Jake and I love him, so don't ever come over here and say shit like this." Ellen gasped but then smirked,
"If you love him, why isn't he here with you?" I bit my lip not wanting her to know he was here, but Jake had other ideas, as he came around from the door and wrapped his arms around my waist, pressing a kiss to my neck smirking,
"Hey Babe, you all good?" He then looked up to the door and saw Ellen standing there,
"Oh Ellen, hi what are you doing here?" Ellen frowned and glared at Felix,
"No reason, I was just leaving." Jake's smirk grew,
"Good— Felix and I were having alone time." With his words he pressed another kiss to my neck where there was a hickey growing, and bit down on it again, which forced me to groan lightly and grip on Jake's hand hard, not wanting to make my sounds any louder,
"Look, Ellen, I think it may be best if you leave," Jake muttered while his mouth was still on my neck, sending shivers through my body. Jake then slammed the door shut, and dragged me back to the couch and pushed me on it, climbing on top of me, attaching his lips to my neck, biting and sucking, making me groan and roll around in attempts to get away.
"Jake, stop!" I called out playfully, which made Jake pull away with a pout on his face,
"But why?" I rolled my eyes pushing him off of me and getting up,
"Because we shouldn't just yet— we discussed this-this morning, we can't do anything like that. It's too soon, you know that " Jake nodded again sitting up on the couch,
"Right, sorry but I don't really have much self-control around you." His words caused me to blush and get and walk away. I pulled my pants up properly having fallen down when Jake pulled me onto the couch, and walk into the backyard, out to my room.
I bent down and picked up Jake's shirt, needing it so I don't lose my own self-control around him. I then turned around and walked right back out of my room and into the house where Jake was looking through Mum's photo album,
"What are you doing?" I blurted out; scaring Jake which caused him to slam the book shut and look at me,
"I was just looking at some photos of you. I didn't know you were so cute before you turned Goth." I growled at him and walked over snatching the book from his hands, and putting it back where it belonged, before dragging Jake to the couch and pushing him down and throwing his shirt at him,
"Get it on before I become mad, I am not cute. Never have been never will be, got it?" Jake shrugged as he slid the shirt on and wandered over to me,
"How about we watch a movie?" I bit my lip and nodded,
"You go pick a movie, I'm going to go get blankets, now don't pick anything scary I don't care if it's the middle of the day I don't—" I was cut off by Jake pecking my lips, effectively silencing me.
"I'm going to go get the blankets." I then quickly turned around and ran to the cupboard pulling out a couple of blankets and dumping them on the floor in front of the couch as Jake came back over from the T.V unit and had put in a movie. But it turns out it wasn't a movie, but the first season of Criminal Minds, one of my favourite T.V shows. I laughed and sat down on the couch, pulling the blankets up.
"Really Jake— Criminal Minds?" Jake nodded and a wide smile on his face, "Well I never got to watch it, so I'm stealing this afternoon to ditch you for Gideon and Hotch." I laughed louder than last time at Jake's words,
"Really, well can Hotch or Gideon do this?" and I leant forward connecting my lips to his. Jake groaned and grabbing neck with one hand and the other went and gripped my hip. I groaned in return and pulled away, "Well?" Jake growled,
"Shut up and kiss me." I smiled and did as he asked. We then spent the rest of our time kissing and watching Criminal Minds, having the house to ourselves for the day.
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Sadly once again it was Monday and time for school. Jake went home late Sunday afternoon, thankfully he wasn't in trouble with his Mum, but she was in trouble with him. Something about too much work— I don't really remember much of the argument.
I rolled off my couch still in my clothes from yesterday, which was a pair of black pants and a red shirt. I have no clue why I was wearing the shirt, but I guess I changed it because Jake got spaghetti sauce all over my other one. How he did that I have no clue, turns out trying to feed someone else is harder than it looks when it comes to spaghetti.
I groaned my body protesting as I walked over to my dresser and pulled out a black long sleeve shirt, sliding off the red shirt and putting the new one on, then grabbing a black shirt which had something that looked like a giant rose or something. I groaned as I put it on, then finally I covered it with my school shirt which I left open and put on a pair of black skinny jeans and my shoes. I then chucked on a couple of necklaces and bracelets before walking out of my room and walking into the house where Mum and Dad were arguing again. What they were arguing about I have no clue, and have no intention of getting involved.
I quickly muttered a goodbye before grabbing my bag and running out the door. As soon as I was out of the house and down the street, I pulled out my phone and earphones, putting them in and began blasting Falling in Reverse, Don't mess with Ouija Boards.
The walk to school was always short, but today was different. It seemed I arrived at school quicker than normal, where everyone was there and was now staring at me like I was some freak show on display. Oh— right they know about Jake and me now— shit! I groaned hiking my bag over my shoulder better and began running away from the crowd and into an abandoned classroom. I slid the door shut and sat down against it, banging my head as I went,
"How could I be so stupid and forget about something so big?" I said to myself. I wanted to kick myself, why did I let Jake and I go public so soon? What if something happens and we fight again and people decide to be jerks about it? What happens if people decide to bully Jake and throw him off his place in the school social ladder? I groaned when banging started on the door I was leaning against, causing me to jump and stand up. I looked out the window where I saw Jake. I sighed in relief and pulled open the door, dragging him in before closing and locking the door.
"Felix, are you okay?" Instead of answering, I pushed my lips onto Jake, kissing him like I haven't seen in weeks instead of hours. Jake groaned before wrapping an arm around my waist and the other went up to grab my neck, pulling me closer if it were possible. My arms wrapped around Jake's neck pulled him down harder on me. Jake lost his balance and it caused us to stumble into a table, where Jake suddenly lifted me up sitting me on it.
"Felix— really?" I smirked and nodded, wrapping my legs around his waist holding him closer to me yet again. Jake groaned again, one of his hands sneaking down to grab the bottom of my shirt, squeezing it in his hand. One of my hands sneaked up and grabbed the back of Jake's head, clinging onto his hair pulling on it, causing Jake to groan forcing my mouth open with his tongue, then began exploring. I groaned throwing my head back, which allowed Jake to attack my neck, swooping in and attaching his teeth to the hickey he gave me the other day. I gasped and finally forced Jake away, and I began catching my breath,
"Hi—" I said, not really knowing what to say after— whatever just happened.
"Hi there, that was nice as hell." I blushed and looked down,
"Seriously, did you have to go and do that?" Jake laughed and nodded. I rested my head on his shoulder when Jake tensed up. This confused me to all hell, why was he tensing up like that?
"Are you okay Jake?" Jake nodded stiffly and answered,
"We have an audience of teenage girls staring at us creepily—" I gasped and turned around, but was stopped half way when I noticed my legs were still wrapped around Jake's waist. I blushed dropping my legs and turning around to see a bunch of red-faced girls staring in at us, and one or two of them had blood noses— creepy.
"Jake— when did they show up?" I turned back to Jake, who was shrugging, not taking his eyes from the girls outside,
"Do even know who they are?" Jake shook his head,
"Thankfully no I don't, and quite frankly I don't want to know them." I nodded in agreement glad that this room was sound proof. Jake pulled me into a hug, which I instantly melted into wrapping my own arms around him. Then the bell rang causing Jake and me to jump apart. We were in silence for a moment, before we looked at each other and burst out laughing.
"Come on Felix, we better get to class before Bates eats us for lunch." I bit my lip and laughed at what he said,
"Wow Jake, you have a pretty creative imagination." Jake shrugged cutely, wrapping his arm around my shoulder, leaving me space to wrap my own around his waist. I then leant my head onto his shoulder as we walked out of the room; the gaggle of girls that were there had now disappeared and seemed to be well— gone. For which I was grateful that we could walk to class in peace. Jake leant down and kissed my cheek.
"I'm just going to get my book for class; I'll meet you at your locker okay?" I nodded as Jake pulled away from me and began walking towards his locker, which thankfully was just down the hall. I pulled up to my locker, where there were dozens of notes stuck on all over the place.
Some of them were nice like 'U and Jake are so perf 2gether' and 'if he hurts u I will hurt him. ', but there were others which read, 'Stay away from Riles, Freak!' and 'Faggy freak' I groaned and opened my locker, quickly grabbing my books and closing it again. I pulled out my phone and noticed there was only a minute until the start of class. Shit, I'm gonna have to go without Jake.
I then pulled out my earphones and plugged them into my phone and put them in before playing Saving Abel, Addicted as I walked to class. As I listened to the first few lines of the song, I tried not to blush as it made me think about Saturday morning. Well— we didn't have sex we just made out— a lot and almost went further than that.
I groaned shaking the thought from my head as I walked into class just as the bell rung, and went and sat in my usual seat, which sadly, was behind one of the girls who had a nose bleed outside of the classroom Jake and I was in, which meant the girl was staring intently at me.
"I'm Hannah," I looked back to the girl with a confused look on my face,
"What?" the girl sighed and turned around to face me,
"I'm Hannah; I think you and Jake together are really cute. It's a bit of a bummer that he used to bully you." I took the girl with her curly brown hair, held up in two piggy tails and barely reached her shoulders, while her face was covered by big black nerdy glasses, hiding her eyes. She didn't look too bad,
"Well I'm Felix and I am pretty sure you already knew that." Hannah laughed and nodded, but as I looked into her eyes, I saw sadness and pain, something I was accustomed to seeing in the mirror. What happened to her? I bit my lip to hold in the question and moved on,
"So what's with your obsession with Jake and Me?" Hannah shrugged,
"It's not an obsession, I just find the two of you together really cute. There are some really mean people here, and I knew Jake truly wasn't a bad guy, so I guess I'm just glad that he won't bully us anymore." I looked at her confused,
"What do you mean?" Hannah sighed and began her story,
"So about three months ago, Jake had pretty much stopped bullying everyone. He was closed off and didn't come to school for a few days, then suddenly he was back, and almost back to normal, but he didn't hit anyone not even Mike, and he brings stuffed unicorns to school, and although those unicorns are pretty cool, bringing them is like signing a death sentence." I nodded and listened as she continued,
"Then he just teased and called everyone names, he barely hung out with Trent and Dylan and he began talking to different people." I furrowed my brow and thought for a moment,
"About three months ago is when Jake said he started to have feelings for me." Hannah gasped and grabbed my hand,
"So you were the reason he stopped bullying us?" I nodded slowly,
"Must be— what happened?" I asked and Hannah continued,
"Well because he had stopped bullying us, everyone thought it was the right time to begin expressing ourselves. I left my group of 'friends' although there were only three of us, but then joined a new group. They're really cool and different, and I think you might enjoy them." I frowned and tried to think of a group like that but I just couldn't.
"What group do you hang out with?" Hannah laughed and was about to continue when the final bell rang and class began. Hannah turned around in her seat and began writing when a note was passed onto my lap,
'I'll tell you the rest later, lover boy has gone home.' I frowned and looked up from the letter to see Jake wasn't in the classroom. Great— just great.