Before you start reading: this chapter contains possibly triggering content revolving around an ED.
I know that's a very sensitive topic for some so I want you to have this warning. If you feel uncomfortable reading, please skip this chapter.
Also, please never ever forget that your author thinks you are beautiful, oh so beautiful, just the way that you are. I love you all and if you ever need anything, I'm only a message away. Lots of love 🤍
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"Y/N, maybe you should sit down," Yeji said as she and the girls worriedly watched you.
"I-I'm fine." You said as Yeji and Lia kept you steady as you dizzily swayed on your feet.
Your eyes were closed as the room spun around you, causing you to feel nauseous and unbearably dizzy.
You tried to put your best foot forward despite how terrible you felt because of how much is going on for you and the girls.
But there's a huge secret you've been keeping from your members and from everyone else, a secret that is beginning to get the best of you.
"You're not fine! Sit down before you pass out." Ryujin said with a panicked tone in her voice.
Yeji and Lia gently sat you on the floor and the girls all watched on in fear.
"What's going on? Are you sick?" Chaeryeong asked as she stepped closer to you.
It was easy for the girls to all see how much weight you've lost but they just figured it's due to practicing so much and being so busy.
Moving around so much is, of course, going to make you lose some weight.
But this was much more than losing weight from being so insanely busy.
They've seen certain things but never put two and two together.
Until now.
"I need to lay down." You said and laid back on the floor of the practice room.
Your shirt was riding up your body, exposing just how small you'd become.
It was scary, causing all of their hearts to sink deep into their chests.
Yuna noticed something that she hadn't seen before now.
You've been painting your nails for a while now, due to different comebacks and photoshoots.
But also to hide what was happening to your nails.
The polish had come off today, only different spots of your nails covered in a little paint.
This allowed the girls to see how dry and brittle they were, a couple of them almost looking as if they might fall off.
Your hair was dry, parts of it falling out, but not enough to be noticeable to the girls and the public.
And with all of this, along with how weak you were, the girls began to piece it all together.
"When is the last time that you ate, Y/N?" Lia asked.
You opened your eyes and saw the girls all gazing at you with fear on their faces.
You shrugged your shoulders, unable to remember it.
"You haven't been eating, have you?" Chaeryeong asked.
You shook your head.
"For a while?" Ryujin asked.
You nodded slowly, confirming their worst fears.
"I'm calling an ambulance. You need to go to the hospital." Yeji said as she anxiously got up and rushed across the room to grab her phone.
She quickly called for an ambulance, panicking and pacing as they all realized that you've been making yourself sick.
Because you haven't been eating.
Help came soon after and during the whole time that they spoke to you, Lia's hand was wrapped in yours.
"How long has it been since you've last eaten, Y/N?" One of the medics asked as the other started to listen to your heartbeat and your breathing.
"I don't remember."
The other medic announced that your heartbeat was irregular and your blood pressure was unstable.
They loaded you into the back of the ambulance and before they closed the doors, you panicked and looked at Lia as the girls stood outside in fear.
"Lia, please come with me," you pleaded.
They allowed Lia to get into the back with you and you reached for her hand as the doors closed and the girls swore they'd be right behind you.
It was scary.
Not just for you but for everyone.
News quickly leaked that you had been hospitalized and people dig into different things to get the answer, sharing with the whole world that it was all because you'd been starving yourself.
The girls stood by your side as you confessed to everything, crying as they realized just how bad things have gotten for you.
"Why did you start this?" Lia questioned.
"People online constantly talk about us. They're looking at us, watching and judging our every move. It's been so hard to deal with the comments about my body. I'm tired of it all."
"It's alright, y/n. We understand." Yeji said as she squeezed your hand.
"Do you need to take some time off? Or leave the group?" Yuna asked. "It's a hard choice to make but if you feel it's what's best-"
"No." You said. "No, I just need some help."
"We're here," Lia said. "Right here. We'll help you and be here for you through everything."
You were all teary-eyed as they all carefully hugged you, giving you a huge and comforting group hug.
"We love you so much, Y/N." Chaeryeong sniffled.
"We're not a group. We're sisters. We're family. We will always have your back through thick and thin." Ryujin said, lips brushing against your head.
"Please take care of yourself. If you feel like it's getting too much, talk to us. We're here for you. We need you to take care of yourself the way you take care of us." Lia pleaded.
"We love you lots," Yeji said.
"Love you all more." You said.
The doctor came back in, causing all of the girls to pull away from you.
Everyone except Lia.
"Well, I have good news. You'll recover. You came in just in time. A few days from now, your prognosis wouldn't be as good."
"So we won't lose her?" Yuna asked with hope in her eyes.
"Nope." The doctor confirmed. "I think she's going to live another hundred years." The doctor said, sorta jokingly, and everyone giggled. "But it's going to be a long journey to recovery. It's not going to be easy. Are you prepared for everything that you'll have to do to heal?"
You looked at the girls and they all placed their hands on yours and each other's, wordlessly telling you that whatever that consisted of, they'll be right there with you.
"Yes." You answered. "I won't be alone."
"Good." The doctor smiled. "The best thing you can have right now is a good support system."
"Trust me. I've got that." You said as Lia moved her hand to your shoulder, brushing it across your skin.
"That's great. I'll be back in a few minutes." The doctor said, stepping out for a few.
"We're in this together, Y/N," Yuna promised.
"We've got you," Lia assured, a bright smile pulling at her lips.
You put your head on her shoulder, thanking your lucky stars that you'll be alright soon and through it all, you've got the girls right there by your side.