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2:28 am
itoshi sae
you haven't been answering
my messages, what's wrong.
4:44 am
[y/n] <3
hey sorry
i wasn't really in the best
state of mind and i didn't want
to accidentally take anything out
on you or say something i shouldn't
itoshi saw
what's wrong.
[y/n] <3
i've just been kinda all over the
place ngl
ig i never realized how difficult
it is to be in a ldr
like it makes me feel like shit
knowing that all of my friends,
classmates, wtv get to see their s/o
but i can't
we barely even call anymore
whenever i ask you're too busy or
at practice or something
all i want is to be important to you
enough to have at least 5 minutes
of your attention instead of having
a conversation that barely even
lasts 2
i miss how we used to be in the
beginning, and even before
we started dating
now you answer late, or not at
all, don't answer my calls, and
don't even make time to talk
you put in more effort for anything
else but our relationship
but maybe i'm just being selfish
itoshi sae
i'm sorry you think that's what
i've been doing. yes, i have been
putting in more effort for things
like soccer. but that's because it's
my career. we don't live in the same
country, it's hard to keep up with
everything. i don't forget about you.
i just spend my time working to
reach the top, it's my job.
[y/n] <3
and i get it
you're busy, i'm busy
we both have completely
separate lives, but i wanna be
apart of yours instead of being
left in the dark all the time
itoshi sae
i don't really know what to say
right now. it sounds like you don't
understand where i'm coming from.
[y/n] <3
sae what are you talking about
i DO understand
i've understood this whole time
but the moment i finally open up you
turn it around and make me the
problem
itoshi sae
no one is to blame but the problem
itself.
[y/n] <3
yet you don't even want to try
to fix things, instead just defending
yourself like your life depends on it
itoshi sae
because i'm not in the wrong. i can't
control how you feel.
[y/n] <3
but you can control your actions
itoshi sae
but i'm not doing anything wrong.
do you not understand how
important my career is to me?
[y/n] <3
i do understand
and i know how hard you worked
to get to where you are today
but you put in no effort into
our relationship now, i'd rather be
last priority than none at all
itoshi sae
yeah ok.
[y/n] <3
ykw i'll talk to you later
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author's note;
happy valentines day mfs