"I wonder; how is it that we have been dating
each other for, what, two months now again,
and we still haven't kissed?"
We're sitting right next to each other
at the window sill at my place
It's the end of summer
My face is facing theirs
The windows are opened wide
And we're rolling cigarettes while the sun is slowly setting
They smile at me
With this little smirk on their face they always do
"Well, that's a good question"
"I don't understand"
"The thing is,
The first time we met,
And then again,
It was me who kissed you first.
So basically,
all I've been doing recently
Is waiting for you
To finally kiss me already -"
So I kissed them, gently
And we made out
And we remembered the passion between us
With this hauntingly beautiful music in the background
This is a new beginning,
I can really feel it in my bones
Feels like finally returning home again
Time stands still while it's slowly turning dark outside
It became pretty clear to us that we wouldn't be able to take this slow this time,
even though we promised to
We both wanted this so badly
We were so gentle with each other
-
And now it's gone
And I'm sitting at the window sill,
all alone now
Not the end of summer but cold january
Smoking cigarettes on my own
While the sun is setting
With "Swinging Party" by Lorde playing in the background
And I can't stop myself from breaking into tears,
I can't hold it back this time
Because this might be one of the fondest memories I have of you
But now it's been a month since we seperated
And I am breaking apart
These were all the beautiful memories we could make till our time was over
It shouldn't be that way
We belong to each other
I wish you were here with me
I wish you treated me better
And that I made more memories with you
I'm not strong enough for this.
[30.01.23, 17:10]