SAME THOUGHTS
Mixed feelings, guilt, shame, anger and a bit of happiness were the emotions that Carter felt at that moment.
He couldn't believe what he had done. It still seemed like an imagination to him but he knew what had happened.
He kissed his teacher.
As he laid down on his bed, his mind couldn't help but drift back to the kiss.
It was the best he had experienced. Even Becca his girlfriend never ignited him in such a way Miss Lucy's lips did. Who wouldn't feel happy about kissing a person they had been admiring for a while, but he knew it was wrong.
Carter thought of how their lips moulded into each other. It was fixed like a jigsaw. At that moment, Carter knew that he was falling but would he risk it all for her? She could lose her job, he thought.
Carter knew he couldn't continue thinking about his teacher romantically.
He stared at his phone, debating whether to call her or not to apologize, and he decided to send her a text message;
"Dear Miss Lucy, I want to apologise for my ill-mannered behaviour in your office. It would not ever repeat itself."
Meanwhile, Lucy couldn't help but trace her fingers on her lips, imagining the feel of his lips when he deepened the kiss, and she could feel herself getting aroused at the thought of it.
"Stupid," she called herself.
"He's your student. You aren't supposed to be thinking about him in such a way," but she knew she couldn't deceive herself.
She was attracted to him. She was attracted to his well-built body, his sculpted jawline and his deep voice that caused her mind to wander to vile thoughts.
Lucy hoped that he would call or text her, either one. Even though she knew it would be an apology message, she still longed for it.
Not long after, her phone beeped, notifying her that she had received a message. She curiously unlocked her phone and a smile crept up her face as the name appeared on her screen, clicking on the text, it was an apology message.
Lucy decided she had to stop thinking about Carter.
"I could lose my teaching license!" She exclaimed to herself.
This has to stop.
She decided within herself, hoping that the feeling would go away. She couldn't start getting attracted to him just because he kissed her.
She wouldn't deny that she had felt something tug in her every time she sees him. He was hot, and the most popular boy in school. Lucy knew most girls were dying to be with him and the fact that she was sure he has a girlfriend, disturbed her in a way she couldn't explain.
She rolled her eyes at the thought of him having a girlfriend, causing her to hiss.
She replied to the text, saying that he shouldn't worry about it and it wasn't much of a big deal. She further said he should not tell anyone about it.
Desperate to forget everything that has happened, she thought about Ryder. If he really meant what he said, that he wouldn't bother her again, Lucy wished that he meant and kept to his words.
In her heart, she prayed silently for Kaisha.
Kaisha, her best friend that betrayed her was legit. She picked up the knife and stabbed her in her back, not physically, with regrets. She had cut ties with Lucy even though Lucy forgave her.
Would she tag it as jealousy cause it was nothing other than that, Ryder was a thug, from the hood, downtown. He was into drugs and underground races.
There was a time Ryder used to be in love with her. He had trusted her as much as she trusted him, right from when she was in college. Kaisha had been her childhood friend and never gotten lucky with a guy, they always ended up falling out.
In college, she had a friend, he was nothing more than a friend. They were kind of close and Kaisha knew that nothing was ever gonna happen between her and Matt who had a girlfriend then.
It turned out that, Kaisha had drugged their drinks and stripped them off their clothes, knowing that they were expecting Ryder and Lucy wanted to introduce Matt to him, at that point, Matt's girlfriend showed up, so the two friends' partners thought they had sex.
Lucy was devastated but Ryder didn't break up with her. He didn't believe her explanation, and oftentimes she caught Ryder and Kaisha together but whenever she confronts him about her, she always ends up getting beaten up and he would have sex with her.
Matt lost his relationship too.
Fast forward to when Kaisha tried to do the same to someone else who was her new best friend that she wanted to help get another woman's man and she was caught.
Ryder confronted her about it but she denied but he knew the truth. Lucy had called Matt but there was nothing that could be done to rectify the truth, he had moved on.
That was six months ago.
Kaisha regretted but her conscience wouldn't let her be friends with Lucy. She prayed that Ryder would treat Kaisha good and not send her out when she gives birth to their child.
Lucy groaned, turning on her side. She switched off the table lamp and went to bed.
Days had passed since the kissing incident, but Carter hadn't been able to forget no matter how he tried.
He promised himself he would stop thinking about it, but all his line of thoughts had been directed towards Lucy.
Carter had been fantasizing about the two of them together, how it would feel to have her body smashed against his, the feeling of her hands working magic on his dick, of how he will worship her body and make her his woman. He was losing focus gradually but he didn't care, as long as it doesn't affect his grades.
Becca, his girlfriend didn't appeal to him anymore which makes him wonder why he had been with her in the first place. The sex wasn't great as he feels himself not getting hard whenever they were doing foreplay, even when he managed to get hard and had sex, he couldn't stop thinking about Lucy.
Whenever Becca would kiss him, he would imagine it was Lucy instead. He sleeps without thinking about the kiss. "I am so fucked" he thought to himself. The frustrating part was that he couldn't kiss her again even though he wanted to or could he?
He was in his room, Becca laying beside him, she was talking but Carter had zoned out.
"Babe, are you listening to me at all?" Becca asked, sitting up and folding her arms.
"You were saying?" Carter asked.
Becca's mouth dropped open, "what the fuck were you thinking? Do you have someone else?"
"Yes."
"No, I don't. Why would you ask that?"
"Cause I don't understand you anymore?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You're not the same with me, Carter. You've changed, our sex is now boring. You barely call and it takes you hours to reply to my text, you don't listen to me when I talk, we don't even go on dates like we used to do," Becca explained in detail, tears welling up in her eyes.
Carter didn't say anything, his expression appeared to be stunned.
"Are you tongue-tied?" Becca chided him for not answering her.
"It's not what you think, Becca. Chill!"
"For what?" She cried out.
"I've been down like I'm not feeling us anymore." Carter blurted out, moving back and resting against the dashboard of the board.
"So you've been lying to me all this while?" Becca cried out, again.
"I don't know, I'm sorry," Carter said, dryly.
"I see!" Becca said nodding her head, hands on her waist. She lurched at him, hitting him with the pillows, and punching him. Carter got a hold of her hands and shouted for her to stop hitting him and pushing him off her.
"I'm sorry, Becca. You have to leave now."
She shot him a dagger look, breathing heavily, her chest rising up and down. Becca scoffed, without saying a word, she stood up from the floor and left.
Carter groaned and ran his fingers through his hair, knowing Becca, it won't be long before everyone hears about the break-up.
He didn't feel bad for what transpired between them rather he was happy that she wasn't in the picture, all he has to do is getting close to Miss Lucy.
After all, women like attention and to be cared for.
Today, Carter decided that he would ignore every call and text from his friends at school. He won't say anything about him and Becca's fallout.
Carter wasn't sure whether Becca really liked him even though she wants to be around him. He's the hottest guy in school and his clique was the most popular, the basketball lead team.
Carter thought it was just because of that she was with him.
He knew how flirty Becca was with other guys at school and how she had had sex with two players from his basketball team differently in the boy's locker room.
For him, Becca has a banging body and a pretty face. She was one of the cheerleaders who was good at what she does and has good grades. She wasn't a bully, she and her clique were just a bunch of flirts, and her body had attracted him like a magnet and had pulled him to her.
So it was fair for both of them that they have the same interests in being together.
As the time continues to tick by day, Carter was surprised that everyone knows about the break-up but little was said about it, which means, Becca didn't say anything about the argument and fight.
He credited her for that.
Carter picked up his phone and texted Becca to apologize to her and he wished they looked past what happened between them and remain friends. Becca had replied to him saying she was fine with that.
Carter let out the breath he was holding in and laid back on his bed, giving way for his thought to wander to Miss Lucy.
She was an embodiment of a goddess, a symbol of Aphrodite reincarnation. Her voice and laughter were something he wants to keep hearing all the time.
Being the youngest teacher, he felt gross thinking about the male teachers that wants to be with her including the married ones that were simply for her. Carter sneered at the lion mantle on his reading table.
He wanted to see her. He contemplated texting to get her address or calling her instead and hoping she would agree for him to come over to her house. After all, it was Saturday evening, and no one would see him on the way.
Carter picked up his phone and dialled her number, waiting for her to pick up.
"Hello, Carter!" Lucy said on the other end of the phone, chuckling.
Carter felt something in the bottom of his stomach somersaulting.
"Hi, Miss Lucy."
"Lucy." She corrected him, "We're not at school."
"Okay. Are you home?" Carter asked, nervously rubbing his hand on his Jeans.
"Why'd you ask?"
"Nothing. I wanted to show up...ehm, maybe a movie or something. We are friends, are we not?"
"Yes, we are friends but I'm kinda busy. Probably some other time," Lucy answered. She didn't know why she lied.
"Okay, have a great evening," Carter said dropping the call.
Lucy, still holding the phone to her ear, wanted to see him too, she had the chance but she threw it away by lying.
Lucy bit her lower lips and dialled his number.
"Do you still want to come over for the movie?" She asked immediately he answered his phone.
"Yes!"
"Great! I'll text you the address." She said and hung up.
Carter cheered and threw a punch in the air, tonight was going to be fun, he smiled and whistled a song as he started getting ready to leave for Lucy's house.
Thank you for reading. Have a great day/night.❤️