Gulf's pov....
Before starting my career as an actor I knew that I have to sacrifice a lot of things...
I was just 16 since I started pushing myself to become an actor...I got a few roles in Commercial and being an introvert and simple kid I was happy with this but things changed when I got a big role in a web series...
I knew that I couldn't carry on my current relationship with my gf because our relationship wasn't that strong and I have definitely lost the sparks between us...
Hopefully when I told my gf she agreed and mutually broke up... We weren't even that much close... It's just because she was beautiful and I was too so we both were together...
Eventually my life changed when my new series got really good viewership not only in our country but internationally... I was beyond happy because everything was beyond expectations for me,I thought I would gain few followers and this will help me to get few more roles atleast smaller one but happiness was on its peak when I got to know that I will act in second season too.....
I got a lot of commercial adds, magazine shoots, events invites, fashion show invites and even brand presenter.. People started recognising me and moreover now even I can really call myself a celebrity that makes my parents proud...
I use to go out in events for fan meetings,I use to meet my fans and it was like I won a lottery because this isn't I expected from life and then someone told me that the soon you get fame the sooner it will fade away that's why always work hard never take things for granted...be hard on yourself because at the end your success will speak up for you and I decided to do the same...I didn't wanted to stop now...I wanted to be best version of myself...
I knew that doing only acting isn't enough so I wanted to sing and dance but wasn't confident about those but then my co-actor helped me a lot... He was Mew suppasit... I always use to envy him because somehow he has everything... A handsome personality... A strong fanbase, knows how to sing dance, was a producer and moreover he was intelligent so I just wanted to be like him...
Slowly in this journey we got closer... I never knew or we can say as a guy I never realised that this guy has feeling for me... At first It didn't effected me but slowly It was kinda wierd so I told him not to touch me...
After few days...
Today we hadour event like Others day and as always I woke up and greeted my mom and the got ready for my event...
I got ready and sitting down beside my car first we took p'bass and the headed to the designated
Area...
Finally reaching there Mew wasn't present so I waited for him for sometime and finally walked on the stage together...
We played some games and while doing that we were together standing on the stage and suddenly my hands went on his chest and jokingly I didn't pulled out my hand but it hurted when he pulled out my hand and fixed it into a 🤟 pose...I again touched his abdomen to test if he's really uncomfortable with my touch and it really happened again when he shrugged my hands from his chest unlike earlier when he use to pull my body into him to hug me...
I don't know why I m craving for his touch when I m the one who rejected him again and again,why I want to touch him when he's totally not comfortable with it...
Walking back stage in our makeup I held his hands and pouted while looking at him...
"You didn't wanted me touch you so let's stay away" he said being little bit annoyed and then I pulled him closer into a kiss and sucked his lips...he pulled me up in his lap and we began to kiss eachother roughly while he was rubbing my ass...we heard a knock but instead of opening the door he closed it and stripped off my shirt...
Placing me down on the couch,he looked at me and bend down to whisper something...
"We are boyfriends now... don't blame me after this" he said and made love with me..it was painful at first but was great...I looked at his face and kissed his nose because until now I knew that I have feelings for this guy not as a friend but as a couple real couple....
And now everything was like a rainbow...
I mean everything was so perfect, filled with coloura, I had a lot of fan... I had a handsome caring loving boyfriend and moreover I was working with him day and night...
He was Caring,wise and moreover protective and with whom I never felt uncomfortable...there are only few people who can actually make me comfortable and Mew suppasit was one of those..he was so protective of me that sometimes even my momma couldn't beat him...
After our first series we became closer because of our projects and other works together we use to spend most of the time with eachother...
We went to a add where he has to pick out papers from my cheeks and pushing me down the guy intentionally kissed me and then with this small gestures I realised that I m. Actually very blessed to have this clingy baby....I was beyond happy...
We were the happiest couple anyone can imagine... We use to cuddle, spend time and he was a great boyfriend who was so much clingy and expressive... As I already said I wasn't an expressive guy so it was impossible for me to express myself...But he was the one who could understand my comfort zone and discomfort so quickly.. but I took that for granted...
After our second season series shoot we both have to work on different projects and as he was already experienced so he could maintain it but for me it was so much tiring and hard to maintain everything...
One day I came back from work and saw his missed calls... I literally felt guilty because whole day I couldn't talk to him...
"Hello" I said and he replied back but in a sleepy voice..
"I m sorry Bubba please don't be Angry" I said trying to make up with me...
"It's ok Baby... Anyways sleep it's too late now" he said and hanging up the call I placed it aside and fell asleep...
Days went to weeks and due to my busy schedule i couldn't even talk to him and during that period he was feeling too alone he even himself told me that but I ignored this because I thought he will be ok with all this unless one day he texted me...
"Gulf I want break up" that text really broke my heart but still I didn't wanted any fight so I called him instantly, he received it and spoke in a heavy voice...
"Why do you want to break up Mew?" I asked trying hard not to cry because he has right to complain...
"See please don't hatee but we both don't have time for eachother... Gulf you are busy and I understand it's because you have your own career and I have my own so can we separate our paths...? " He asked
" You really don't want to give any second chance to this relationship? " I asked
" Yes... I m now out of age, I want to be happy with someone who can give me time... I m sorry,we will remain friends" and that was the last time he called me...
Even after that I made many efforts but from his side I only got 0 response... Because somehow he was right too... No one can wait for us for whole life... He wants someone who can love him,give him time and cherish him and I definitely can't do that...
I wished him on my birthday saying 'I love you' and he did commented 'I love you too"' but when it was my birthday he didn't even texted me... And now I knew that he has no feelings left for me... I decided not to make a big deal out of it because eventually we all are human and we can move on.. maybe we ain't together because we don't deserve eachother... I slowly stopped liking his pictures, tagging him or even mentioning him because somehow when fans were mentioning me he was getting so annoyed with that so let me not get associate with him...
And my blood boils when I did a little search and Saw Mew has followed the guy name Art who use to be his enemy in past and has did terrible things with him...
"Promise me you won't forgive or follow him?" I said and Touching my finger he promised me that...
I called him and after 8 calls he finally picked up the call And the next sentence really broke my heart..
"Gulf could you not call me now... My partner really don't want me to get shipped with you... Try to understand" I understood and immediately hang up the call because if I were on Mew's partners place I would do the same....I don't want any of my partner's exes to get in touch me them so it's kind of thing that I can understand...
Eventually from that day people are crazily shipping him with everyone and eventually I moved on from him too because somehow I always wanted to be a star... Whenever it hurts I just post things and a lot of people bless me with their warm words...
I always wanted to be famous and get love and now there are thousands of people who love me... I only focus on giving my best and hopefully by God grace I got two webseries to work in and a lot of projects...
With P'Mew it was the one of the bestest days of my life and he will be always be special in my heart and I just want him to get love from his significant one because at the end that guy has suffered a lot and all I want now is only happiness and lots of love for him which somehow I can't gibe it to him..maybe we were just soulmates who weren't destined to be together but I m happy that he's happy... I m definitely not waiting for anyone to come because I literally don't have time... I want to make myself a good and wonderful person that people admire me for the person who I m...
Love isn't only about staying together, it's about sacrifice, it's about time it's about priorities and it's sometimes about right one with wrong time.. and moreover Love isn't only about partners,we can love people,we can love our family, nature kids and everyone because this is life and nothing is bigger than this...
A/N-: This is just a one-shot I wanted to publish from a lot of days and now it's finally here.. 🥶
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