I thought all night about Harry leaving my room the other day, I really wanted to remember what I had told him. I needed to. He's become a whole different person since and I'm not the only one who's noticed that. We're all worried for him but of course they don't know all the details like I do...they don't know he's acting like that because of me.
"Y/n ?" I slowly opened my eyes. "You have to hurry. It's a school day." My eyes were now fully open. I found Hermione and Ginny still in pyjamas doing their bed. "You're the ones telling me that but neither of you are even ready." I said after ascertainment. "Well. It was a last minute thing but Ginny and I have a date today." "A date? What about school ?" "We can skip school once. It won't kill us. Ron really wanted to go out and it doesn't happen a lot so I took the opportunity and accepted the date. Then Dean and Ginny decided to join in. So we're spending the whole day together." "Uhm...okay. Have fun then. But what should I tell the teacher ?" "Just make something up on the moment, don't worry." Hermione answered careless. "What have you done to Hermione ?" I joked. "I must say I don't even recognise myself...but I like that new me." "Enough talking. We should all get ready now." Ginny spoke up.
We all got dressed and headed out. The girls joined Ron and Dean, and I made my way to the Great Hall. The Gryffindor table looked so empty without them four. Luna was talking with Neville so I sat alone because I didn't want to interrupt them. Fred and George weren't there and Harry...he entered the room and sat as far as possible from me. I took a deep breath and approached him. "Har-" I was cut off by a bunch of little Gryffindor girls who had just sat next to Harry and in front of him. They were all giggling and asking Harry lots of questions like "Oh Harry, will you go on a date with me ?" or "Woow Harry you're so strong. I didn't know you were that hot." Harry looked up from his meal. He gave me a death stare and played along with the girls. I sat back down where I was and kept eating my food angrily. Why is he acting like that ? I had already made mistakes with him before, that's what makes us humans. But this time I don't even remember what I did but he truly is mad. This look he gave me was full of hatred and it scared me. I desperately needed to find out what happened that night.
I decided to skip the first class because I wasn't in the mood and I headed to the library. I pushed the door open and made my way to the back of the room. I picked up the first book I found and sat on the floor in one of the aisle. I read the first lines :
I scowl with frustration at myself in the mirror. Damn my hair – it just won't behave, and damn Katherine Kavanagh for being ill and subjecting me to this ordeal. I should be studying for my final exams, which are next week, yet here I am trying to brush my hair into submission.
But then I was interrupted by two whispering voices in the aisle next to mine. I got up and kept the book with me...I thought it wouldn't be such of a bad reading for later. I approached the voices trying not to make any noise.
"What do you want again ?" Matteo said to Harry. "You know what I want. I told you multiple times but you still don't listen to me." Harry whispered even tho we could hear in his voice that he wanted to shout at Matteo. "You know I can't do that. I can't stay away from her." he answered. Harry hadn't the time to fight back as I found both their looks on me after I dropped the book I was holding. I picked it up and hurried back to my aisle. I saw Harry leaving the library but I couldn't find Matteo.
"Looking for something?" I heard as I was looking all over the room. I turned around and saw Matteo looking at me from the other aisle. He had taken off the books from the shelf so he could see through. "How long have you been listening?" he asked. I wasn't able to answer as I couldn't stop looking at him into the eyes. It was like he was absorbing me. He said he couldn't stay away from someone. Who's that ? Lav's not there anymore. "So you heard that. Well I didn't know you would get jealous so easily, babe." He said smirking. How stupid I am to always forget he can read through my mind. And...babe...I love the way it sounds in his mouth. Then again, I remembered he probably heard that as well. I looked away from him and picked up my things. "We're not done here...babe." He smirked. "I- I have to go." I finally spoke up. Fortunately he didn't chase after me...but maybe I wanted him to. No, I didn't want him to...right ?
That weird feeling was growing again in my stomach. I ignored it as much as I could and headed to my second period. I sat next to Luna and stared at Harry the whole class. He was sitting next to a random Hufflepuff girl. She didn't stop laughing and touching his arm every second. It's not like it was annoying me but just a bit, like why would someone be so touchy, She is annoying, it has nothing to do with Harry.
"Are you okay, y/n ?" Luna asked me when the teacher dismissed us. "Sure. Why wouldn't I. The question is, are You okay ?" I answered. "Of course I am okay. But, I saw you looking at Harry the whole class. Is there something wrong between you two?" she seemed worried. "He's really pissed at me. But I don't know why. And now he's acting like this bad boy and all the girls are at his feet." "You're jealous I see. Have you talked to him?" "I'm not jealous." was I ? Could I possibly be jealous ? Why would I ? "Do you think I like him ?" I eventually asked Luna. "You definitely are confused about how you feel. You have to talk to both of them." "Both of them ? Harry and who?" "You know who, y/n." I took a deep breath and decided I'd go talk to them after dinner. "Just listen to your heart, okay ?" "I will." I said. Luna gave me a smile before leaving the classroom and I looked over at Harry. He got up and looked at me, careless. The girl who was sitting next to him took him by the arm and they left together. I left as well and skipped the rest of the class. I had good grades enough to grant me one more break from school.
I went back to my dorm and lay down on my bed. I closed my eyes for a sec to clear my head then took the book from earlier and read further. I finally reached the last page of the book. It was amazing. I loved it. Anastasia is so lucky to have a guy like Christian. I wish I could live something similar to her story. I put the book down and looked outside. It was dark now, I didn't see the time passing by while reading. I checked the time. I had to go to dinner...not for actual dinner...but to talk to them afterwards. I was pretty scared to have this conversation with Harry since he let out his dark side. But I had to.
I reached the Great Hall at the same time as Hermione and Ginny. "Hey y/n. How was your day ?" Hermione asked very happy. "It was a good regular day. How was your double date ?" "Amazing ! We had so much fun." Ginny jumped in excitement. "Let's talk about it around the table please. I'm craving for chicken wings." Ron said pushing us inside. We sat down at the table and the girls told me all about their dates. They seemed to really have had a great day. "I'm so happy for you guys, you both look very happy." I smiled. "We are. And we can't wait to have a triple date with you now." They giggled. "Yeah sure." I laughed.
After dinner I made my way to the Astronomy tower. I knew at least one of them would be there. But when I reached the top I didn't expect them both to be there. This time I didn't hide. I approached them and said "Perfect. Both of you are here. It'll make it easier." Harry saw me and was about to leave but I stopped him with my mind. It had been a while since I haven't used black magic, but I still haven't forgotten what Matteo taught me. Harry looked at me as if he wanted to hurt me. I had never seen such hatred in his eyes. He seemed angry and....broken ?
"Let me go, y/n !" Harry shouted at me. "No ! I want to have this talk now !" I shouted back. "Where the fuck did you learn to that ?" he said. I looked over at Matteo then back at him. "Of course he's the one who taught you black magic. I'm such a fool." "I'm a proud teacher, y/n. You've improved a lot." Matteo smirked. "Shut the fuck up ! Both of you. I want to have a serious talk now. It's enough secrets. Tell me why you fought that day." "What day ? You know we fight a lot Potter and I." "You know damn well what day I mean. The one you both came back covered in blood." "Ooh that one. Well it was about nothing." Matteo answered as Harry remained silent. "Don't play the fool with me, Matt. Tell me the truth. All of it." "You really want the truth ?" He looked over at Harry then came closer to me. I looked up at him as I felt my heart beating faster. He came even closer and put his hand behind my neck putting a lock of my hair behind my ear. I couldn't look away from him and I couldn't control my breath anymore. He leaned closer to me and whispered to my ear "Y/n, the truth is..." he stopped. The sound of his voice and then the silence made me lose it. My mind wasn't able to stop Harry anymore. He ran up to us and punched Matteo in the face. He fell on the floor and Harry hopped on him to beat him even more. I tried to stop him but in vain. "Harry ! Please, stop it !" I shouted again. I then tried to grab Harry's arm but instead I received a punch from him. I fell on the floor and felt the blood running down from my nose. "You hurt her, you asshole !" Matteo pushed Harry away and came to me. "Are you okay, y/n?" he asked. I didn't respond, I looked at Harry. The hatred was gone, now his eyes were full of fear and guilt. I saw him running away but I hadn't the force to run after him as I could feel my head getting dizzy. "I'll have to take you to my dorm to get you cleaned up, is that alright?" I looked back at Matteo and nodded. He put my head on his lap and we apparated to his dorm.
He sat me down on a chair and went into the bathroom. I looked around the room. It was really empty. He had a room for his own...no roommates. I wonder if it's better or if I did great to have roommates. He came back with the first aid kit and said "I personally think I did the right choice. I wouldn't bear having a roommate. But it's good you have, because you have best friends now." "But, don't you want best friends ?" "I don't need friends. They are just annoying people that need your help more than your friendship." "That's mean. I thought we were friends." I pouted. "Y/n. We're way more than just friends." he smirked. I bit my lip as I maintained eye contact with him. "Don't bite your lip, y/n. Or I won't be able to control myself anymore." I looked away "Uhm...so, is my nose broken or something?" I changed the subject. "Your nose is alright. I'll just clean up all the blood and put a band aid on the wound." "Thank you, Matt."
When he was done, we got up from the chairs but I saw he tensed up while getting up, as if he was in pain. "Are you hurt?" I asked. "I'm okay, don't worry." Then I saw blood spilling on his t-shirt. "Matt, you're bleeding." "I'm alright, don't worry." "No, you're not. Let me help you." I came closer to him. "I'm gonna take your shirt off, okay ?" I said. "Wow, you don't waste time, huh ?" he giggled. "Shut up. I just want to heal you." I took off his shirt and tried my best not to look too long at his abs. "Okay, that looks pretty bad. Do you have any ointment ?" "Yeah, in the bathroom. The drawer on the left under the sink." I went into the bathroom to get it and looked around before getting out. I saw his hair conditioner and his razor, it's weird but just by seeing that I felt a little closer to him. "You got it?" He asked. "Yup." I applied the ointment on his wound then put on a bandage. "How did you get this? Was it with Harry ?" "No, it's not from Harry. He just might have touched it earlier so it opened the wound again." "Why do you always get hurt ?" "Why do you care?" "Because I care about you, you idiot. Why would I be there then ?" "Would you do that for Harry as well ?" "You know I would." I answered. He got up from the chair and lay down on his bed with a book. I looked at him then got out of his dorm.
I made my way back to the Gryffindor common room and found the girls in front of the fireplace with their boyfriends. "Hey y/n, what happened to your face ?" They all gathered around me. "Nothing serious, don't worry. I just crashed into a tree with my broomstick. Dumb, right ?" "Super dumb, yeah." Ron laughed and sat back on the couch. "You're not gonna make me believe that. You can fly on a broomstick like no one. I doubt that you would hurt yourself like that." Hermione said. "I agree with her for once. We're worried about you, y/n." "Well, sorry girls. I'm not the best at everything so yeah I just crashed into a tree, like shit." I went away. But I turned around as soon as I realised my words. "Girls, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. Thank you for taking care of me. I love you both so much." I hugged them. "That's alright, y/n. It's all forgotten. We love you too." Ginny said. "Now go get some rest, we'll be there in a minute, or more. Love you." Hermione kissed me on the forehead and I made my way to the dorm. I opened the door and saw him pacing in front of my bed. He stopped as soon as he saw me and his eyes became teary. So did mine. I thought I had lost him forever. "Harry..."