drinking.
it's fun right? yeah, no. maybe in the moment. feeling the liquid burn your dry throat, losing all care in the world and control of your movements. my dream. but the after is truly heartless. hangovers, a version of hell. am I still going to drink, obviously.
my thick blankets are sprawled over the floor as it became too hot for my body to handle. the small dorm room was lit up with colored fairy lights hung around our ceilings as ash and I lay on our beds.
we are awoken from our daze, when our door slams open.
"get the fuck up, you alcoholic losers.", matt yells, "boy, do we have something to tell you!"
i groan, "i regret giving you three keys to our room. worst choice in my whole entire life."
ash lifeless body mumbles, "amen to that sister."
a heavy weight is thrown on top of me, "get off you elephant."
my eyes open to see julie staring down at me, "take that back before i kick you out of my room."
my vision becomes dark again, not wanting to look at his stupid face.
"you can't kick her out of her own room, jules.", connie sighs, joining ash on her bed, "how are you doing my sweet girls?"
we both grumble a quiet response, loud enough for them to understand our mood.
"maybe you shouldn't have stayed out for four days?", her voice soothes us as she rubs ash's back, "you both look dreadfully tired."
"dreadfully, that's a big word.", matt pulls me up to make room for both him and julie to sit. my body immediately falls onto the boys lap.
"i know you guys are tired but we need to tell you what happened.", julie pouts, like a cute baby wanting some candy. how could i say no to that adorable face.
"i'll take that silence as a sign you're listening.", she inhales deeply, "ok, so it all started last night when the ducks planned a revenge prank on varsity. russ remembered the ants, the dean had in his office. we figured out a time to break in and take them. charlie had found some tubes in the science building so we put together a little project. we sent the ant's all the way into the boy's dorms. well after, dwayne tied their doors shut. you should have seen their faces. the way they fell out of the room, itching themselves."
"don't forget about dwayne chasing cole on a horse, tying him up.", connie giggles, "oh, look at their cute little smiles."
"so they are alive!", matt taunts.
all ash does is throw one her pillows at him, hitting me in the face, "adam got all the athletic ability, didn't he?"
"shut up."
"shut up both of you! anyways so, they challenged us to an unsupervised scrimmage at dawn. charlie, being the head ass he is accepted, and then we played them. it was obvious they were cheating and attempting to pick fights. but you should have seen who started the massive fight, charlie and adam. it was over you too! char said something that really pissed off adam and pushed him. not to mention, your brother heard and jumped him too. also, tj played super bad. like the worst, i've seen."
my head perked up from the pillow known as matthew riley. i wonder what charlie said about me that could make tristian and adam so mad. especially since adam is so level headed. my mind hopped between both boys when i realized that tristian has never had a bad game. he was gifted at the sport and that only fired his fuel to get better, to be the best.
connie interrupts, "can i say the rest? orion broke us up and gave the whole group a big talk. it lead to charlie and fulton quitting and pracically dropping out of school!"
wow, the one day i miss, shit actually happens.
"do you know what charlie said?", i ask, taking an interest in the conversation.
"not exactly, we were on the opposite of the ice when it happened. i could ask?"
a quick gentle knock is heard at the door, "i'll get it."
ash rises from the bed, making her way across the hard wood floor.
"that's how you're supposed to enter a room that you don't live in.", i say pointedly, looking at my three friends.
matt chuckles, shaking my body while connie scoffs, "don't blame me, natty. it was all matt. i wanted to knock like the respectful person i am."
"yeah right.", matt taunts once again.
"julie, back me up?"
i turn to look at the brunette girl besides me to see her holding hands over her ears singing.
"why do you want to see nat?", ash questions.
a voice that gave my heart butterflies answers, "i need to talk to her about thursday. i was going to at school but she wasn't there."
matt immediately stands up, coming into view of adam and ash. almost shielding me from the boy i desperately wanted to see but as never wanted to see again.
"what do you wanna talk about?", he quizzes, "life, school, sports?"
"i know you're in there, rose.", my heart flutters at his voice, "please just five minutes!"
"hockey, soccer, baseball, football? heck, i'd even talk about golf with you!"
"you know i don't trust you, but never said anything because ash is your twin and the girls back there seemed to think your special. i never thought that, couldn't you tell?"
"you don't understand, matthew!"
"no, i don't understand! what's going on, adam?", ash snaps, begging to be filled in.
i don't know what to fill her in on, there was nothing going on with adam and i.
"i do understand! who's shoulder did she cry on after things went down! mine, not yours, not ashs or julies or connies. not even her brothers. i was there for her."
"you weren't there! matthew, ash, please just a few minutes. i'll do anything!"
connie had moved over to my bed to comfort me and julie was there holding me back from seeing him.
"you broke her heart, banks!"
"i didn't try to!"
"you still did and for that, you need to leave."
"it was a mistake! i just want to talk to her! explain what happened. natalia, please come out, i just want to apologize."
"no! i said fucking no banks. take a god damn hint!"
"i'm not talking to you, matthew. this doesn't involve you. this is between me and natalia.
"you, adam banks, are nothing but a brainless idiot. who doesn't know how to treat people you care about with respect and it's finally time for you to be told that. if you were to disappear off the face of the earth tomorrow, i would be turning catholic again, thanking the god for blessing us."
"matt!", ash yells, pushing him to the side, "that's my brother!"
"think before you speak.", connie sighs, hugging me into her side.
"what are you gonna do?", julie whispers.
"i should talk to him."
"i swear to god if you walk out of this door with him."
"what are you gonna do matt? you're my best friend and i'm thankful for you. but i should at least let him explain."
he rolls his eyes, "don't come crying to me when he breaks your heart. i'm out."
matt storms out of the room, attempting to shove adam out of the way. but failing causing me to smile.
"ten minutes, adam, you have ten minutes then i want her back for an explanation from her.", ash sighs, giving me a quick kiss on the cheek, "if she's not back by then, i'm releasing the hounds behind me."
the two girls on my bed wave, "hey banks."
"hey jules and connie! how are you guys doing?"
"could be better."
"i'm enjoying this drama scene, it's like straight out of a movie.", connie slaps julie on the back of the head.
"let's go adam."
it's time to face the feelings i've been pushing aside for months.
great!
note:
this scene was inspired by gilmore girls. where queen paris yells at logan for cheating on rory.