Li Guan almost fled in embarrassment.
A pool of water, a sword, nothing else. Li Guan took everything away and left everything behind.
But Lin Huaisheng didn't care about him.
Li Guan also took Yan Yan away. After the panic, Li Guan would vent all his depression on Yan Yan. No matter how badly Yan Yan was injured in Jingci Temple back then, he shouldn't still have such a strong smell of blood on his body today, unless he was still injured continuously. Then it's dog eat dog.
So far, Lin Huaisheng is almost sure that Li Guan, Yan Yan and Shi Xiu are in the same group, and Li Guan has the highest status among the three, and the other two either cooperate with him or take orders from him.
There is no one else in the hall. Only then did Lin Huaisheng get up from the bathtub, and slowly took away the clothes hanging on the screen. He dressed slowly, carefully taking care of every part of his body. The scars were covered, and his face was rosy from the hot water. He looked fine.
Li Guan couldn't accept Lin Huaisheng's sick appearance and demonized it, but Lin Huaisheng had actually come into contact with this type of people. They also have the desire and cherishment of life, but they can't restrain their behaviors that hurt themselves. They are caught between paralysis and sobriety, which is even more painful than Lin Huaisheng's performance. What's more, the reason why Lin Huaisheng is so bold these days is because he doesn't feel pain himself. Self-injury is a last resort, and Lin Huaisheng has achieved his goal, so he will not do it again.
Thinking of this, Lin Huaisheng sighed.
It's better not to block the pain, otherwise he will feel that he is too crazy.
...
Tonight, the lights in the temple are turned off very early. It didn't wait for the people who came and went all the time to pay attention, and it seemed to be so cold. But there are more people outside it, maids and guards, all kinds of people, etc., they can't enter this palace, so they surround it instead to make it precious.
Everything was quiet, the palace lanterns under the eaves swayed gently with the breeze, and after a few breaths of light, a shadow slipped in silently.
He stood quietly by the bed, clearly dark and curtained, but he seemed to see the person he wanted to see without hindrance. Or maybe he just watched. Unlike in the past, his silence is no longer waiting for an opportunity, and he can also be a companion during the long night.
Lin Huaisheng's voice came out from the bed curtain.
"You're here."
Hei Ying was startled, never expecting that Lin Huaisheng would wake up, and seemed to be waiting for him. But in the next second, Lin Huaisheng guessed what was on his mind and fulfilled his thoughts.
"I've been waiting for you for many days."
It was already very dark at this time, otherwise the shadow would not come. So he thought for the first time, how could Lin Huaisheng stay up so late and how could he not sleep well.
He still didn't speak, but Lin Huaisheng seemed to be talking to his heart tonight.
Hearing the rustling sound, Lin Huaisheng slowly sat up inside.
"I've been waking up at night lately, with my eyes open, but I can't see anything, but I can't sleep either."
Lin Huaisheng spoke ordinary words, as if he was a close friend who had an appointment in the middle of the night and still came to see each other. But they are not. Heiying understood that Lin Huaisheng was just sick, terminally ill, he couldn't sleep well all night, and he didn't have the strength to kill him again. He himself is enough to kill himself, and so was Lin Qishu in the past.
Lin Huaisheng moved a little to the side of the bed, the shadow outside the tent didn't speak, but he seemed to have a lot to say.
"Come up."
"I want to talk to you."
The black shadow was silent for a moment, and took off his boots and socks politely. He opened the curtain and climbed onto the couch, lay down, occupying only a little space on the outside, while Lin Huaisheng folded his hands on his abdomen, sleeping in the same regular position. There was a wide distance between the two, and the shadow was a little cramped. When he heard Lin Huaisheng turn sideways to face him, he became even more nervous.
He felt ashamed to look at Lin Huaisheng now, not because he didn't want to look at him, but because he didn't want Lin Huaisheng to see him. And of course Lin Huaisheng couldn't see him, which made Soi Ying quietly heave a sigh of relief.
The next moment, Lin Huaisheng stretched out his hand.
His touch could almost be called a random groping, the first moment was the shoulder, the second moment was the bridge of the nose, the black shadow almost passively let Lin Huaisheng move on him. He used to think that he was the person who knew Lin Huaisheng best in the world, speculated about Lin Huaisheng's life with malicious intent, and thought that spying was waiting for verification. Then Lin Huaisheng made him stumble a lot, and made him understand that he was not worthy of arrogantly speculating on others. So it was Lin Huaisheng's turn to act.
"What do you want to tell me?"
Black Shadow said, his voice becoming hoarse than before. Hearing this, Lin Huaisheng withdrew his hand. Soi Ying felt lost, he said he wanted to save himself, but it seemed that he shouldn't.
Lin Huaisheng said: "I remember that you wanted to kill me."
Heiying opened his mouth to explain, wanting to say that he doesn't want to or won't now, and Lin Qishu's killing intent is even more false, the last page of that autograph letter was faked by him, this No one in the world wants Lin Huaisheng's life anymore.
Before I could say all this, Lin Huaisheng had already said, "I know that you forged my sister's letter."
"I've thought about it a lot, and I don't know if I've figured it out... You can forge my sister's letter, which means that you are at least by my sister's side. After staying for a long time, getting along with her day and night...not from the old man of the palace, but from the six years when my sister was in Jingci nunnery?"
Hei Ying paused for breath. Lin Huaisheng almost revealed his identity, but after Soi Ying waited for a long time, Lin Huaisheng never said the last sentence.
Lin Huaisheng returned to the lying position again, and he looked at the top of Babu's bed: "Maybe you want to kill me because of my sister... I don't want to guess anymore."
"You can do one thing for me. After this life, I will give it to you."
But Soi Ying didn't want to kill Lin Huaisheng anymore.
Among them, Lin Huaisheng took the initiative to approach and go back at the Chu River Han border, so Soi Ying hurriedly wanted to follow suit. He wanted to cross the border and explain to Lin Huaisheng, even if he could explain this matter clearly.
But as soon as he approached, Lin Huaisheng suddenly gasped violently as if he couldn't bear it. He coughed and struggled to get up, but the black shadow rushed to help him.
Soi Ying was startled, then withdrew his hand in panic. He got out of bed in a hurry, with the hem of his clothes skipping over Lin Huaisheng's back, he went to the table and poured a glass of water, squatted beside the bed and carefully fed Lin Huaisheng. Lin Huaisheng managed to calm down his breathing, and slowly sat up under the quilt. The distance between them became farther again, but this time the black shadow did not approach him again.
Lin Huaisheng said: "Scared you?"
The black shadow immediately shook his head, and suddenly he was completely led by Lin Huaisheng's emotions, he completely forgot that Lin Huaisheng couldn't see him so darkly.
He said again, "No."
He understood that Lin Huaisheng was nauseated by the stinking blood all over his body. After understanding, the uncomfortable feeling in his heart finally overwhelmed all the wounds on his body. Those whippings did not train him into a docile dog, but Lin Huaisheng tamed him.
He wanted to leave, and stayed far away from Lin Huaisheng, feeling that if he stayed, he would not only pollute Lin Huaisheng's mouth and nose, but also pollute his eyes. The blood on his body is just a simple laughing stock, tearing out his dirty inside. When Lin Huaisheng saw him, he might throw up like this at a glance.
Lin Huaisheng's voice made him have nowhere to escape.
"You're hurt."
Lin Huaisheng moved closer to the bed, seemingly wanting to touch him again, the black shadow laughed at his delusion in his heart, but that little hope made him freeze in place again.
He understood Lin Huaisheng's intentions best, he was a good dog who didn't need to be instructed. Lin Huaisheng also stroked the top of his head like a dog, ruffled his hair with bad intentions, and then smoothed his long hair.
"Did I stab your wound last time? Or did you get hurt again."
As he approached, Lin Huaisheng felt a little nauseous again. He covered his mouth, giving the black shadow a trace of decency.
Soi Ying looked at him with nostalgia, unable to tell him the reason. He lied to Li Guan, and Li Guan was furious, which made him suffer a lot. He got up from the bloody water, staggered back, changed his clothes and changed his skin, he tried his best to tidy himself up before coming to see Lin Huaisheng. You shouldn't say these things, it's too filthy. But this was also disloyalty, so Soi Ying stepped back a few steps to punish himself for not being able to get Lin Huaisheng's touch again.
Lin Huaisheng was not completely invisible, as the shadow moved, he could vaguely see the opponent's shadow. He knew that the opponent was tall, but he still wanted to say to his face that the opponent was tall.
"You are really tall."
"Much taller than me... When I asked my brother-in-law to arrest you before, I said you were about the same height as him, so I caught you based on this. Later, Dali Temple reported that no one was found, and I still I thought I remembered it wrong, but looking at it now, I can see that Dali Temple was not carefully searched."
Hearing this, Lin Huaisheng laughed at Hei Ying.
His voice was hoarse and ugly, but he was really happy in his heart. He just wanted to take a sneak peek, but he didn't expect that there would be a lively Lin Huaisheng waiting for him who would laugh with him. He couldn't kill Lin Huaisheng at all, but he turned around and killed his former self.
Lin Huaisheng sighed, the short-lived joy was easily destroyed by him. It reminds people that he was not happy.
"Maybe I guessed wrong again, you are not someone around my sister at all."
"But you didn't kill my sister, right?"
Between the poison and the silver needle, the silver needle kills instantly when it enters the brain, how can the poison be possible? into the body. It was the poison that killed Lin Qishu, and the silver needle was nothing but confusing the public from beginning to end. Then the purpose of the other party's doing so is worth investigating.
With vague letter paper and confusing motives, my sister walked the last part of her life alone. Lin Huaisheng had a bold conjecture, which can be proved everywhere. If this is the case, Lin Huaisheng feels sad.
Lin Huaisheng stretched out his hand towards the shadow under the bed.
"If you make a deal with me just to kill me, my bargaining chip is myself, do you dare to accept it?"
The man didn't want to kill Lin Huaisheng, but even if it was to save him, Sombra couldn't refuse Lin Huaisheng.
Lin Huaisheng handed Heiying a note.
"You hand it over to Jiang Sheyan for me, and ask him, 'Is there something else you're hiding from me'."
Lin Huaisheng smiled.
"I'll wait for you to come back."
...
When Lin Huaisheng woke up, Li Guan was already sitting by his bed. Dressed in beautiful clothes and jade crowns, he tried to use his best posture to cover up his embarrassment and the fact that every time he was pinched by Lin Huaisheng, he would roll back to Lin Huaisheng's side in the end. He is like an unwilling gambler at the gambling table. He bets on affection and sincerity. If he loses all, he desperately wants to turn the tables. If he wants to win back at least his capital, he will never leave the gambling table.
Li Guan's lips were tightly pressed into a line: "You have slept for a long time."
His tone was very hard, which was enough to calm down the affection.
This is unavoidable, Lin Huaisheng's health is not good now, and he stayed up for so long at night, maybe he couldn't hold back and fell asleep before the shadow left. Lin Huaisheng didn't answer him.
But he shouldn't, Li Guan is worried about gains and losses and thinks more.
"Watch... Huaisheng."
But Lin Huaisheng skipped him, he had enough sleep and got down to business.
The young body, energetic and beautiful, dazzled Li Guan's eyes. It seems that after Li Guan knew his true gender, Lin Huaisheng didn't bother to cover it up. Li Guan closed his eyes in a panic, and realized after a while that he should cover Lin Huaisheng. When Li Guan was still looking for clothes and shoes but couldn't figure it out, Lin Huaisheng had almost finished dressing. But he was wearing a skirt, which Li Guan could not accept.
He turned Lin Huaisheng around angrily: "You, how can you dress like this?"
But Lin Huaisheng didn't care at all.
"But in this world, I have been shown as a daughter since I was born. Lin Huai of Xijing Palace has lived for eighteen years and has never learned how to be a man."
Li Guan's eyes turned red when he heard this, he couldn't accept that Lin Huaisheng didn't care, he even hated all Lin's family members for Lin Huaisheng.
"How could they treat you like this...!"
"But they let me live."
"My cousin has never seen the altar under my house..." Lin Huaisheng ignored Li Guan's pouting lips, he said slowly, Little by little, "Wen Renyue told me that the platform was specially built for me, and the blood-stained clothes looked like a terrible curse, but they believed that this way could save my life. For this reason, I pity Even though my elder sister is already in such pain, she still sheds a whole bowl of blood every year, in order to continue this ceremony."
"Thinking about it this way, I have let down my parents and sister. I don't really want to live anymore."
Li Guan couldn't listen anymore No, Lin Huaisheng's every word is like a blunt knife cutting flesh, Li Guan doesn't think about anything, nothing compares, he just wants Lin Huaisheng to live well.
He desperately told Lin Huaisheng: "I vented my anger on you, I taught that person... Shengsheng, you can wear whatever you want, I don't care about you, you change back, just like before, Shengsheng..." Li Guan spoke incoherently , said a lot of repetitive meaningless words, but as he said, he only wanted Lin Huaisheng to be what he was.
He has always been clumsy in front of Lin Huaisheng, and now he is also clumsy in dressing up, he just empties out the treasure box on the table and hands all the gold hairpins and pearls to Lin Huaisheng. Every time Lin Huaisheng picked something, Li Guan's heart seemed to be able to calm down a little bit. Gradually, his hands stopped shaking.
"That's not enough." Lin Huaisheng dressed himself up, took the string of Buddhist beads given to him by Shixiu, and put it on his wrist, "There are so many lives in the palace, and I haven't avenged this revenge."
Li Guan finally understood Shixiu . Why let him send Lin Huaisheng away. He is casual and arrogant, and with the same interest, he has captured a proud and fragile life, and wants to have an addiction to feeding it. He thought it would be so easy to take care of a person, but his blood and affection were unintentionally poured out, and he was hollowed out accordingly, and his filthy flesh and blood turned to attach to the person he loved. Affection makes him enlightened, makes him sublimate, makes him a saint without a teacher, but pollutes his lover. Li Guan couldn't bear the consequences at all.
Li Guan's face was pale, he understood, but it was too late, he could not let Lin Huaisheng go.
He thought that Lin Huaisheng could not live without him, but now he would die without Lin Huaisheng.
He is finished.
Lin Huaisheng tugged at Li Guan's sleeve.
"Cousin, there is still one thing we haven't done."
"It's agreed to ask Master Shixiu to pray for my sister, let's go now."
Lin Huaisheng was so sincere, Li Guan couldn't help it, and so did Shixiu. He said that he just followed Shixiu, studying devoutly, and mourning for his sister. At the end of the day, his face was pale, but his eyes were so bright that it seemed that there was a fire in his body, which would either burn others to death or burn himself to death.
When the time came, Shi Xiu had to go to the emperor to give him a lecture as usual.
Lin Huaisheng thoughtfully said: "Master Shixiu will go first, and I will write the scriptures again, and I will go back after copying and burning."
Shixiu did not leave for a long time. Lin Huaisheng felt his gaze, but he didn't stop writing. He only asked, "Master Shixiu isn't leaving?"
He said to Lin Huaisheng, "Give me the Buddha beads."
Lin Huaisheng did as he said, and the vermilion Buddha beads bracelet returned to its original owner. Shi Xiu twirled the beads with one hand, and put the other on the top of Lin Huaisheng's head, as if he was being enlightened. As the beads turn, each one is full of compassion. Some compassion is empty, Shi Xiu twisted it with his hand, and the beads were separated into two halves, revealing the mystery.
...
Lin Huaisheng returned very late.
The palace was dark, but he didn't want anyone to follow him in, and he seemed to be going to sleep with his clothes on. There was the sound of splashing water in the room, and someone was taking a bath.
Lin Huaisheng didn't disturb him, but the other party heard Lin Huaisheng came back, splashed on his body a few times, wrung out his wet hair and stepped out.
Lin Huaisheng was sitting by the bed when he heard a series of wet soft sounds. A cat that had played wild enough outside came back. Lin Huaisheng likes gentle and clean people, so he licked his dirty hair clean before entering the door, so that Lin Huaisheng would not retch him.
Lin Huaisheng touched Hei Ying's cold cheek. He took a cold shower in the dark.
"Are you injured again?"
Soi Ying didn't speak.
He completed what Lin Huaisheng asked him to do, but Dali Temple and Jiang Sheyan would not allow him to come and go freely, he fought all the way, and when he entered the palace, he had to avoid Li Guan's men. All of this hurt him. Maybe Lin Huaisheng hoped that he would die halfway, but he made Lin Huaisheng feel sorry for him. He wanted to do what Lin Huaisheng told him to do well, and he could ask for a little leftovers when he came back.
"I did what you asked me to do."
"Thank you."
Lin Huaisheng thanked him sincerely.
Lin Huaisheng stretched out his hand, probably trying to pull him, but he touched Soi Ying's face. The fingers of Lin Huaisheng's right hand rested on this face, he stroked, and finally touched Heiying's lips, and then moved his fingers apart, pulling out a smile with Heiying.
he said suddenly.
"Today your outline is a little different from before, and your stature has also become shorter."
"But this place doesn't seem to change."
As he spoke, his middle finger accidentally fell into a small trap on his face. But Lin Huaisheng laughed.
"Yanyan, you have a dimple on the left side of your cheek, do you remember it yourself?"