April 27th
Atlanta, Georgia 📍
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(I didn't proof read🫣)
"Ka'mari make sure you put food in that bowl for benji"I yelled
It's 7:10am and my goal is to be out the house by 7:50 so I can drop Mari off then make it to my therapy session at 9:30 but you know how morning traffic be
"Mora can Alexa come over after school"Mari asked
"Yea I'll text her uncle to let him know"I told her
"And no crocs"I said , I heard her smack her lips
"Why"She asked
"You got all them shoes in there but wanna wear crocs every day"I told her then my phone started ringing
"You have a collect call from Darius smith please press one to accept all charges"
"Hey babygirl"Pops said
"Hey pops"I said
"What y'all doing"He asked
"Finna get ready to head out ,LETS GO KA'MARI"I yelled
"Don't be yelling at my princess"He said
"Yo princess take years to get ready"I said
"Umm i wonder where she get it from"He said
"Not me"I say
"I talked to trey yesterday he told me you been ignoring him"He said
"Yes because what he did was fucked up excuse my language"I said
"What happened"He asked
"I'll tell you when we come see you Thursday"I started my car
"Princess"He called out
"Yes da"Mari responded
"I heard you got a puppy for your birthday"He said
"I did and his name benji"She said
"You been taking good care of him"He asked
"Yes sir"She said
"How them grades looking"He asked
"I'm passing"She said
"That's what I like to hear"He said
"How you been holding up pops"I asked
"I been out the way trynna keep it like that cause court coming up"He said
"Good I'm ready for you to come home" I said pulling up to Mari school
"Bye da I love you and don't forget to text Alexa uncle I love you sissy "Mari said
"We love you too have a good day"I said
"You gon be a good mother"I heard my dad say
"FTK"I said
"What tha mean"He asked
"Nothing old man"I said
"Where you headed now" He asked
"To therapy then after that imma go visit Jay I haven't did that in a while" I said
"You have one minute left"
"I hope you have a good session and I love you tell my son that too"He said
"I love you too and I will"I said then hung up
I walked in the building go to the front desk
"How may I help you"
"I had a appointment with Dr.Johnson at 9:30"I told her
"Ok ma'am take the elevator to the 5th floor I'm going to let her know you're on your way up"She said
"Ok thank you"I said then I got on the elevators going to the 5th floor
"Hi I'm Dr.Johnson or Kelly whatever you want to call me"She held her hand out
"Hi I'm Paris"I shook her hand
"Ok Paris let's get started"She sat down
"So I'm just going to ask a couple of questions you don't have to answer right away you can take your time"She said, I nodded
"How old are you"she asked
"19"I responded
"Siblings?"She asked
"I have a little sister and my brother passed"I said
"Im sorry for your loss"She said
"What about parents"She asked
"My pops in prison and my mom in my life but not active in my life"I said
"I just know your a daddy's girl"She smiled
"Most definitely my pops is my life"I said
" same here I be having to kick my pops out my house they can get annoying"She said. I laughed
"Very annoying"I chuckled
"On a scale of 1-10 how is your mental health"She asked
"Umm a 4"I responded,She nodded
"Who is trey to you"She asks
"He's like a brother to me been knowing him since I was 8" I said
"I'm going read the message he sent me about you"She grabbed her computer
"It say "wassup I'm Trey I looked up the best therapist in Atlanta area and you came up I have a sister her and I'm worried about her, her past isn't great she has trauma and she won't talk to nobody about it I'm hoping she'll open up to you and you can help her" how do you feel about that"She asked
"I don't know"i said truthfully
"Ok let me ask you this, how did you feel when you found out he booked a session"She asked
"I was pissed"I said
"Why"She asked
"Because I can help myself nobody put me in this position but myself"I said
"You blame yourself for your trauma"She said, I nodded
"So I'm going to give you homework"She said getting up walking to her desk
"I want you to right in this journal every time you have a breakdown , I also want you to come up with 3 affirmations to say everyday to yourself"She said
"I see my younger self in you , raising a sibling by myself having a mom but her not being here they way I needed her to be and you won't admit it but that hurts you I see the hurt in your eyes, I won't give up on you Paris I'll be here every step of the way but you have to want to get better for yourself and your sister"She said while i cried
"Thank you"was all I could say
"I'll give you my number whenever you need to vent or help even cry anything you call me"She said writing her number in the journal she gave me
"I really appreciate it" I said wiping my face
"No problem"She stood up opening her arms for a hug and I instantly accepted it
"I'll see you in 2 weeks ok"She said. I nodded
"Have a good day Paris"She said
"You too Kelly"then I left
I sat in my car thinking about that lady she seem mad familiar she look like somebody I just can't put my finger on it, my thoughts was interrupted by my phone ringing when I looked at it was Trey
"Wassup mama how was the session"He asked
"It was good"I replied
"Ight make sure you eat"He said then I hung up but a few minutes later I got a text from Rodney
Rodney🤮
Wassup ma
You straight
Yep
Imma pull up lata
No tf you not
I'm a man of my word
You should know that doe
A few minutes later i got out the car walking to Jay grave
"Hey bubba I ain talked to you in a minute and I'm sorry for that I just been busy"I said
"I miss you so much bruh I just don't know anymore its like every day life gets harder and harder im so tired Jay"I cried
"I went to my first therapy session today and at the end she told me you gotta get better for yourself and your sister and that broke me on the inside because I never once tried to check on Mari to see how she feel or how she doing I gotta get better but it's hard" I cried
"Me and trey got into it 2 days ago because he was planning on killing Nicole without telling me I was mad but at the same time my heart not letting me feel bad for her at all does that make me a bad person"I said
"Lemme lighten up the mood a little"I chuckled
"So I been thinking about starting my own business the name would be ShotsbyA&G or photosbyAmora I don't yet but I really wanna invest in that"I said dusting off his headstone
"Pops got to court next month and we get to go this time im hoping they give him parole or sum he said he loves you "i said
"Last but not least your baby sister ka'mari that little girl is everything you could ask for I wish you was here to meet her you'll spoil her like trey and pops do , I tell her about you and show her pictures of you she be like why jay head so big"I laughed
"But that's all bubba I'll come back to visit you soon I love you" I said then walked off getting in my car then I got a message
Unknown
Go to Nicole house look
N her closet on the top shelf
It's a box that have info
You NEED TO KNOW
You know what I'm not even finna act shocked I'm over it Atp
When I made to my house it was 1pm so I got a good a hour and a half to nap before I get Mari from school . When I got off the elevator I seen Rodney standing by my door
"Bye Rodney"I said unlocking my door
"You been crying"He followed me
"Do nique know your here"I looked back at him
"That bitch not my girl"He said
"Nahh but can you leave I don't want you here"I walked in my closet to put on sum comfortable
"Why was you crying" I heard him say
"I went to visit my brother and got emotional" I walked out my closet grabbing my phone to text Chris
Chris🤡
Can Alexa come over
after school with Mari?
Yea text me whenever
she ready to get
picked up
Okay!
"Who you texting"king said
"Damn I forgot yo ass was here and none of your business"I said
"What we finna do"He said
"You finna dip and I'm finna take a nap so come on so I can walk you out"I said
"Ian leaving"He said getting undressed laying in my bed and I just stood there in shock
"Close yo mouth fa my dick be in it"he smirked
"Stay on that side of the bed and don't touch me im not playing with you" I said laying down and king immediately pulled me to him
"Don't say shit go to sleep"He said and I smiled closing my eyes
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Mhmmmm who is unknown?
Was the session good?
HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎉🎉🥳🥳🥳
I already fuck up but 2024 my year Fashoo🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Lmaoooo
See yalll next chapter ☺️