bottles and bottles of alcohol
Flashback:
Montgomery arrives at Bryce's and stops the car right in front of the house, Mia that was still in the passenger seat turns the volume down and turns to look at her boyfriend to find him already looking at her.
"What?" She asked looking confused at him that was holding a smile.
"You look beautiful Mia" Two years after making it official Montgomery De La Cruz still had the power to make her shy and blush like a little girl.
"What has got into you?" She asked, Montgomery in the fifteen-minute drive has told her that she looked beautiful thousands of times.
"Nothing, can't I complement my girlfriend now?" He asked rhetorically. She looked down at her hands for a second before turning to look at him once again.
"I don't care about him Monty, and you should also not care," Mia told her boyfriend, for the way he was acting Mia knew he was overthinking about Zach, for no reason.
"I am not" He defended, but Mia knew better so she gave him a look that told him oh-come-on-I-know-you.
"Monty seriously-"
"Baby, I am not worried about Dempsey. You are mine why should I ever question that?"
"Good, because there is no reason for you to do such a thing" she commented before opening the door of the car and getting out. Monty doing the same thing.
That party wasn't just surprising to see you so friendly with me
But also Jessica
Your whole group was being nice for once but that didn't last though
"Mia Jensen in the house"Yelled Bryce once the noticed the girl and her boyfriend arrived.
"Hey, Bryce" Montgomery and Bryce shared a boys handshake while Mia made her way to her friends that were in the hot tub.
"Mia, Mia" Yelled someone in the hot tub.
"What sup guys"
"How long have you been here?" Asked Jessica, that was in the hot tub in her underwear, along with her boyfriend Justin and Zach and some girl by Zach's side.
"Nah, I just arrived." She informs trying to spot who was that girl by his friend's side.
"You came alone?" Asked the Dempsey boy.
"No, Monty is with me. He is by Bryce's"She said, receiving an eye roll from the same boy.
"Well, don't waste your time get in" Shouted Jessica, the girl was wasteeed.
She looked around the place and inside the hot tub before getting in. When the first contact with the water hit, Mia felt a slight shiver down her whole body, even though it was a hot tub it was not the hottest night.
Soon after Montgomery joined his girlfriend and the other couples, and the six teens started to tell jokes and have fun all together.
Meanwhile, another figure joined the party. She was requested a week before and the one that invited her almost didn't remember she did.
Mia Jensen was with her friends by the hot tub when suddenly Jessica started to shout her name.
"Hannah! Hannah Baker!" She shouted multiple times.
"Can you do me a huge favor and grab me a slice of pepperoni?"
"Sure" Responded Hannah from a distance. Mia, that was across from Jessica in the jacuzzi, kept her eyes on the new girl that arrived at the party.
"Hannah me too" Shouted Zach this time, asking for her to bring him two slices. Hannah grabbed the whole box and made her way toward the teens.
"Baker's pizza at your service" Hannah joked, giving the box to Jessica.
"Oh, my God! You are amazing." Said, Jess.
"Thank you Hannah" Thanked the kids passing down the slices for everyone, and while everyone grabbed one Mia didn't, she 'wasn't' very hungry.
"You are getting pizza grease on the water" Complained the girl by Zach's side.
"I read that pepperoni oil reduces cellulite," Jessica said turning to the unknown girl.
"I actually read the too, but it only works when it's mixed with cheese." Joined the joke, Hannah.
"And tomato sauce." They laughed.
"You have been here the whole night?" Asked Mia, making Hannah look at her for the first time since she arrived.
"No, I just got here," She said, smiling at her. The small action noticed by Montgomery, that since the prom they had months back, couldn't take the picture of Hannah having a crush on Mia.
"You want to join us?" She asked, mentioning the hot tub.
"I didn't bring any swimsuits."Commented Hannah.
"That's okay, you come in, in your underwear. I am" She said, showing her almost naked body.
"Don't be such a pussy" Laughed Mia, getting water on the girl.
It was almost like Mia's words were all Hannah needed to hear to do whatever they asked her. Mia was the person she wanted to impress, the only person she wanted attention from, but also the only person that didn't care about her at all.
Many splashes later Hannah decided to join the group, and the same reaction Mia had Hannah had as well, a slight shiver.
"So what made you come to the party Baker?" Asked Zach over the loud music.
"Let's say someone special invited me" Hannah smiled, she tried everything to cover the silly smile but didn't succeed. After Mia stopped by her house the other day, all she could think was that Mia found a safe place in her, and maybe that safe place could turn into something more.
"Who is the lucky guy?" Mia spoke, her eyes fell on Hannah and for a second she watched her face fall.
"You don't know him" She tried to end the conversation there, but again she didn't succeed.
"Then introduce us" Laughed Monty.
Mia looked at the girl and saw she was a little uncomfortable in that situation, so she quickly changed the topic.
However, when two teens are in love the way Montgomery and Mia are, with almost no clothes on and in a hotub, what can you expect to happen?
Montgomery started to kiss the girl's neck, as one of his hands fell on her waist pulling her closer to him. Mia sat on his lap while he was still kissing her neck, moving slightly in his lap, teasing, and cursing his name.
"Monty" She moaned his name in his ear only for him to hear. The boy's hand grabbed her thigh, still pressing her body to his.
Mia heard Justin and Jess saying goodbye to the group but she wasn't able to form any other words but
"Monty, room now" Once again she whispered.
He didn't waste a second, her needs were something he was perfect at giving to her. If Mia wanted something Montgomery would get it for her. Especially when it was sexual.
Montgomery got up carrying Mia in his arms while her legs were wrapped around his waist. Their body was wet yet hot, hotter than boiling water, hotter than a volcano. On their way to the pool house, Monty jokingly slapped Mia's butt making her giggle. The sound was angelic and even innocent but all the thoughts in both teens mind's were not innocent at all.
"Monty" She laughed as the taller boy threw her on the couch. He got up and stood in front of her, admiring the blonde girl in front of him. She was beautiful and angelic and he couldn't stop from wondering what she saw in him.
"God Mia you are so hot" He groaned.
"Then fuck me Montgomery" Her words slid from her lips like never before, and with Montgomery, Mia found a different kind of confidence in herself. Monty had that effect on her, since day one.
"As you wish my lady" Monty walked towards his girl on the couch, kissing every inch of her, from the back of her ear to her checks to her neck and in between her breast to her stomach and at the very top of her bottom bikini.
"Monty condom," She says moving slightly her back and hips.
"Fuck I don't have one "He curses.
"I have one in my purse, it's outside" He quickly put on a blanket covering from his waist down and went outside to pick up the condom from his girlfriend's purse.
Mia, while Monty was outside, took the opportunity to get a little more comfortable on the couch and put her hair up in a ponytail.
"Looks like we are not the only one's having fun tonight" Monty commented, walking into the house. Mia made a funny face, trying to figure out who was also doing it outside.
"Justin?" She asked.
"Nah, Bryce and the crazy chick." He laughed. Mia had to admit she couldn't picture Bryce and Hannah doing it. She didn't even know that Hannah found him attractive. But right now she didn't really care, she only had a thought in her mind and that was the boy in front of her.
End of Flashback:
Cold dark room, with not a single touch of happiness anymore. Two empty bottles of alcohol by the closet, not even hidden anymore. A messy bed with clothes all over it, a pillow with staines of makeup and tears, and a broken teenager layin down.
She couldn't believe that she was giving up, she wasn't used to that. Mia was a fighter she fought for all her life, why was giving up now?
That night kept on playing in her head, not fully, just some parts, some events, some flashbacks. She hated herself for not helping Hannah, she was there, she knew what Hannah was going to do, and she was the one who told her those things. Why didn't she stop her friend from doing that to herself?
And again the answer to all these questions seemed to be at the bottom of another alcohol bottle.
I admired you, Mia, you have been through so much yet when looking at you
You seem so pure and untouchable
What are your secrets, Mia Jensen
I believe tonight was one of them right?
Not anymore
Once I realized who was at the center of all the things that hurt me
I had my answer, but in a different way you find yours
I didn't grab bottles and bottles of alcohol
Flashback:
"What do you want Hannah?" Asked Mia from the washban.
"Can we talk?"
"There is nothing for us to talk Hannah!"
"I saw that bottle in your locker, Mia," Said Hannah after a couple of seconds of silence between the two girls.
"You are wrong," Mia said slowly turning to face Hannah, that was behind her.
"It was an alcohol bottle Mia and it was empty. I know what I saw." She explains.
"Well, you don't. You are mistaken." Lied the blond.
"How can you lie straight to my face? I was next to you, I know what I saw Mia." Hannah deadpans.
"Fine, so what if I had an alcohol bottle in my locker?" She asked with a stern look on her face.
"I thought you quit drinking alcohol." The taller girl says.
"Having a bottle in my locker doesn't mean that I was drinking Hannah."
"I am just trying to look after you. Why can't you appreciate that?"
"I don't need you to. I am fine and the bottle for your information was Bryce's, he just asked me to save" Mia's temper was in a thin line with Hannah, for some reason.
"I'm only looking after you because I care about you. That's what best friends do Mia."
"Hannah, get this into your fucking head, we aren't fucking best friends. Now leave me alone." Yelled the Jensen kid, she steped closer to Hannah, looking in her eyes. Her shoulder hitted Hannah's as she walked away, leaving Hannah alone in the school restroom.
The worst part of only having flashbacks from that night was that they didn't come in the right order, they were messy and in some parts, some details were missing. But Mia knew what she had done, and part of her was still wondering if she really regretted it.
End of Flashback:
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Walking inside the school multiporpouse room, Mia, that was looking for her boyfriend, found him practicing along side with Bryce. She stayed back, not wanting to be hit with a ball nor did she wanted to interupet their conversation. In all honestly, she wanted to hear it, she wanted to know what the two of them were talking about.
"All i'm saying is if you throw like you threw in divisions last year, we will be fine" Montgomery says, throwing a ball back with his bat.
"Yeah, I will be fine" Bryce said agreeding with Montgomery "Never be Jeff Atkins though"
"I fucking miss that dude"Monty admited reciving a weird look from Bryce.
"Really? You remmeber he had a massive crush on Mia, right?" Bryce questioned.
"I mean, who doesn't have a crush on her?" Monty pointed, Mia that stayed behind them smiled at his words "Jeff respected us. Dempsy on the other hand "Monty stoped himsel, hitting the ball again.
"He was a good dude. aahh fuck" Bryce curses, grabbing his wrist in pain.
"Shake it off man. It's just a rush"
"Nah, I fucked up my hand last night" Bryce says, taking off his glove. Mia, couldn't really see Bryce's hand, but she wondered what had happened.
"Jesus! Who'd you hit?" Montgomery asked.
"Ah, just the wall"
"You gotta watch that temper, bro" Monty laughed.
"You telling me to watch my temper is like Justin Foley telling me to lay off weed" Bryce compared, a twist in Mia's belly, at the sound of her best friend being so lost in getting high.
"Where is that guy anyway?"
"No clue"Bryce said, putting his glove back on.
"You figured your shit out? From the other night?" Monty asked, Bryce looks at him nooding.
"Yeah, yeah. We are good" He said turning back.
"Hello boys" Mia said, approaching the two, Monty's smile imidiattly grew at the sight of his girlfriend.
"Hey baby" He said grabbing her waist to pull her closer.
"I thought we were gonna have the day off" Mia spoke softly. Monty slams his hand on his face having forgotten to tell her.
"Fuck! I forgot to tell you we have practice today" He cursed.
"I noticed" she said coldly" Anyways, I just came to make sure, you were here" Mia sadly smiles.
"Mia I wouldn't lie to you" He said grabbing both sides of her face.
"Yeah, I know" she said clearing her throat "I will see you later?" she asked again her voice soft.
"I give you a call as soon as we finish here" He said, kissing the top of her head.
I got my answer by thinking about you
I thouhgt about you all the time Mia
How didn't you noticed that?
I tried to talk to you a couple of days later I recorded tape 12
The same day I saw Bryce walker for the first time after it happened
But you ignored me,like you always did, this past year
So lost in your own world, a world where you can controll everyone and everything
a fake world you live in Mia
Flashback:
Walking down the street alone, it was almost noon. Mia was on her way to Bryce's house, her bag hanging on her left shoulder. She believed the rest of her friends were already there, that's why she was walking there. It wasn't a long walk but enough for her to get irritaded .
From across the street, Hannah Baker, saw her. She saw Mia's back and immidiattly reconized her. Wanting to talk to her for days now, she figured his would be the perfect opportunity. No boyfriend, no friends, no one around to stop them from talking.
"Mia Jensen" Hannah called, Mia unsure of who t was, turned her face around.
"Hannah?" she wondered "Are you following me?" she asked.
"No, no. I just I want to talk"Hannah said, speding to get closer to the girl.
"What is it Hannah?" Mia asked stoping in her tracks.For the longest days Hannah been trying to get a hold on Mia.
"Can we go somewhere more private?" Hannah asked looking around. Mia rolled her eyes but short after nooded.
"This doesn't seem much more private" Mia spoke looking around the child's park.
"oh no one comes here. It's always empty" Hannah affirmed.
"Why am I here Hannah?" Mia asked looking at the girl.
"I went to that party because of you." Hannah started "You were the special person I was talking about" Mia's eyes open more, she was talking about Brye's party.
"Why would you say that?" Hannah chuckels at her inocence.
"Because I want you to like me Mia, why can't you see that?" Hannah asked irritaded "I went to that stupid party Mia, and you didn't even care"
"Hannah I'm sorry but when I told you to come I meant to hang out with everyone." Mia started "You were having fun with others and so was I"
"That's the thing Mia, I didn't want to hang out with the other I wanted to hang out with you" Unsure of what to say Mia stayed quiet "Something happened to me that night" Mia's turned her attention to Hannah but at the same time her phone ringed, it was Monty.
"Something happened and I haven't tol anyone about it. And I need your help Mia" But still Mia was texting Monty telling him she was gonna take a little longer.
"Fuck Mia! I'm trying to tell you something that hurted me, something that was your fault and yet you still can't even look at me for a second without texting him" Hannah yelled.
"Han I was-"
"Bryce raped me, you left me alone with a rapist Mia. You did this to me" She screamed. Mia was too schocked to speak, Hannah's words were still trying to form in her head. That couldn't be real.
"Don't joke about this " Mia said, looking disgusted at her.
"You don't belive me"
"I don't belive Bryce would do that" Mia shouted back, Hannah looked hurted at her.
"How can you defend him?" Hannah asked with tears in her eyes.
"Because it's Bryce, my friend Bryce"
"What about me?" Mia lost in what to belive say the worst thing " If this is your way to get my attention it won't work Hannah"
"No Mia, you did not. You are not the center of this problem. The world does not spin around you" Hannah yelled, steping way from her.
"So I am just suppouse to believe Bryce did that to you? "Hannah once again looked at her unbeliving this was actually happening.
"Why would I lie?"
"Beacuse that's what you do Hannah, you lie. And you fuck this up, friendships, dates just everything" Mia spoke harsly
"Fuck you Mia. You are fucking mean"
"Yeah, that's how I survived my whole life Hannah, not all of us have had the perfect picture perfect life. Something bad happened to you for the first time, cope with it like we all do. Deal with your shit alone" Mia said, unware of her words and how hard they hitted Hannah.
"That's not fair Mia. This is-"
"Fuck Hannah, If you can't deal with your own shit they fucking don't, but don't put that on me. Don't pin your stupid desicions on me. It's all on you" She started to walk away, texting Monty that she was back on her way to Bryce's house.
"I will, I fucking will disapear tonight, and that will be on you" Mia stoped walking to look back at her.
"No it won't. Being a coward it only be on you Hannah" she said before turning back to leave.
End of Flashback
That's the night that repidiatly replayed in Mia's head for weeks.It was her fault Hannah was dead, she knew that. Mia hated herself her whole entire life, but now she hated herself more than ever. Mia was a insecure, cold, mean girl.
The day came, for the last couple of days all Mia Jensen did was drink, sleep, and fuck. Monty was lost, it was the first time he was seeing his girl like this, and even though he hated to admit it he was scared.
In the past, Mia had always talked with him about everything, all the things that were bothering her but this time was different. She didn't talk, she only called him late at night crying, he would drive to her place hug her, and they would have sex for a couple of hours and then she would drink and sleep in her boyfriend's arms. However Monty seemed to be the only one seeing her like this, no one else noticed it.
White skirt, formal shirt, and small heels, Mia Jensen looked just like her mother, but much younger and well-dressed. She sat still, not moving a finger, looking straight forward with her deposition repeating in her kind over and over again.
"Good morning, miss Jensen" Started the Baker's lawyer.
"Good morning" She responded with a cold expression.
"My name is Dennis Vasquez, representing Andrew and Olivia Baker, and this is a deposition. I'll be asking questions and you must answer them truthfully unless your attorney clearly instructs you otherwise. Do you understand?"
"I do"
"There's no judge present, but this is formal legal proceeding . You are under the same legal obligation to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Do you understand?" He asked once again.
"Yes" She responded again with the same cold look on her face.
"Good. For the record please state your full name, your age, where you go to school and what year are you in."
"My name is Mia Jensen, I'm seventeen years old and I'm a junior at Liberty High"
"Im sorry, you said your name is Mia Jensen, as it been legally changed yet?" He asked
Before answering Mia cleared her throat " Yes, we have already changed it, legally"
"Okay. Where did you first met Hannah Baker?" The laywer asked.
Mia bitted her lower lip remmebering the night the two girls met " We met at a party, right before sophomore year started" Mia asnwered.
"And how well did you know Hannah Baker?"
"I didn't know her very well."She said, as her words came out of her mouth she remmebered moments from sophomore year, when the two were some kind of closer "She went on a couple of dates with a couple of my friends, throughout the years." She explained.
"You said Hannah was friends with your friends, does that mean you two were friends, as well?"
"Sure, but not close or anything, I always made that clear to her"Mia spoke remmebering all the times she had screamed in Hannah's face telling her they weren't best friends.
"Can you tell me why you think that happened?" Dennis the laywer asked.
"Because I didn't want a shadow"Mia shrugged.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Hannah followed me constantly. She thought we were best friends" Mia said, Mrs. Baker looked at the younger girl confused, she herself thought the girls were closer.
"Do you think you ever gave her that idea. Did you lead her the wrong impression?"
"No, I always told her we weren't best friends. Hannah was obessed."
"Obessed about what?"
"Me, boys, friendships. She was emotionally dependent in other people, the wrong people" Mia's eyes look around the room, falling on Mrs.Baker again.
"Are you aware of anyone bullying Hannah?" the man asked once again. She looked at her mother, that interuped Dennis, Baker's lawyer.
"Dennis, we are gonna have to object. That asks her to qualify behavior"Lainied spoke.
"Have you ever heard anyone say unkid things to Hannah?" Denis reformulated the question.
"Humm" she said looking back at her mother, aware of her not being able to do anything to help her daugher "Yes, I have heard"
I gave life one more chance
I looked for you, in every room I went in
I trusted in you to help me, if anyone could talk about being broke
it was you, Mia Jensen
But instead, of having Mia Jensen i got Millicent Jones
"What kind of things?" Dennis asked.
"Girls and boys called her a slut. She went of dates with the jocks, that's the kind of reputation you get" Mia addmited.
"Did you ever do anything to stop those comments?"
"It wouldn't change a thing"Mia started looking back at Mrs.Baker.
"But you said yourself you are very popular. Wouldn't that had helped Hannah, if you sticked by her side?"
"Hannah made her choice when she went on those dates, I warned her about the jocks, she didn't listened, she never listened"Mia said queitly.
"Do you know anything about the tapes that Hannah recorded, about what happened to her?" Mia's eyes wilden as Dennis words slip out of his mouth like honey. Her mouth slighty opens, fear crosses her eyes. The room goes quiet, Mia doesn't say a thing and the rest of the adults there just look at her terrifies look.
"No" she simply replies. However that doesn't settle right in Mrs.Baker, she knew something else was happening, a fight inside Mia Jensen.
I wish I could say I finally followed your advice
But I have always done that, haven't I?
Maybe even more than I should have
So Mia I took your advice for the last time
I couldn't deal with my own problems
So I'm not dealing with anything anymore
For the first time Mia, you gave me an actually good advice
SO Thank you Mia Jensen