There's nothing I can do but wait
And trust
And at first it felt so scary being this powerless
Giving away all the control
It still is in a way
But now I surrender
(- Or at least I try to -)
to the universe,
To the unknown,
To the wonders and clarity time will show me eventually.
Time always brings clarity.
And clarity is what I need so bad right now;
and it starts to rise within myself aswell.
I just have to make sure that I don't abandon myself or shrink my needs again, when the time comes,
but that I can gently, firmly stand my ground.
Like a solid,
beautiful tree
Unfazed by the stormy winds around me,
As I am strong enough to withstand it all.
I am safe,
as long as I am alive
and as long as I got me.
Nothing can truly bring me down.
And there's also friends who will catch me when I need support;
when I fall
And rise again
So really, nothing bad can happen to me.
I will wait for time to unravel it's mysteries
and whatever will come my way,
will pass through me gently.
It will all be good in the end,
I just know it.
I have to trust the process of getting there,
However my circumstances might change in the future.
Just firmly,
gently
standing my ground,
As I'm neither shrinking
nor exploding.
I put faith and trust in the universe,
In the clarity time will bring for you and for me.
Clarity will never be bad,
Even though it hurts to know sometimes,
Clarity has never been a bad thing.
I just have to trust.
[28.12.22]