LIZZIE'S POV
"My god Liz you really didn't sleep all night to do this?"
"Yup" i say smiling while i finish writing the last note
"I'm sure she'll like the idea and maybe she'll remember me" i affirm satisfied with my work.
It took me a lot of time and especially a lot of love to do it and i really hope she appreciates it.
"You're fall in love with her sis" MK teases me on the other part of the phone.
"I am MK, i'm so in love with that girl" i put the last note in the paper box i made and close everything.
Tonight i'd the brilliant idea of creating a box with questions or keywords inside that she'll take out of the box every day and to which i'll answer, so that we can slowly rebuild our story hoping that in this way she can remember everything.
I've decided to be honest with her so i'll also tell her about everything i've done to her, but hopefully she'll pick those notes as late as possible.
"She really fucked your heart huh? But i'm happy though, really. I haven't see you so happy in a long time"
It's nice to know that my family supports my love for y/n and more importantly that they love her too.
"She makes me happy and even if things are difficult now i know that sooner or later everything will go right"
"It will be lil sis, even if she doesn't remember she still loves you, heart never forgets" MK is right, her brain may have forgotten about me, but not her heart, part of me wants to believe that deep inside she still loves me.
"Nooow move your ass and go to her you've already made me vomit enough with all your sweetness" she says making me giggle.
"You're so romantic MK"
"No i just don't act like a teenager in love" she specifies
"Ah-ah very funny"
"See you at Christmas idiot?"
"Yup, see you at Christmas" i hang up and get everything ready to go to y/n.
Maybe it's true, i'm acting like a teenager in love but it's been a long time since i felt like this.
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I walk to her room with a smile on my face, can't wait to see her again.
I knock on her door waiting for her answer
"Come in" is so strange to hear her voice again after so long.
I walk in and find her so busy finding something interesting on TV that she doesn't notice me.
What makes me smile even more and find her hugging the big teddy bear i brought her, god she's so cute.
"Good morning honey" i say
She turns to me and looks at me confused
"Sorry, were you expecting someone else?" i ask her
"Uhm no, it's just-sorry- it's still so weird seeing you here" she explains embarassed.
"Don't be embarrassed, i'm happy to be here with you" i tell her smiling and finally a little smile appears on her face which brightens my day.
"So...i see you like it" I say referring to the teddy bear
"It's yours?" she asks
"Yes, but technically you gave it to me. You won it at the Funfair" i tell her, remembering that day, what was supposed to be our day.
"Did we go to the funfair together?" she asks while i take off my coat
"Yes, and it was the best day of my life. You made it the best day of my life" i see her make a strange face, as if for a moment she remembered that day, especially what happened later at my house.
"Do you remember anything?" i ask her a little worried that she might get angry or kick me away. She looks at me, but remains quiet for a few seconds just staring at me.
"No, no i don't remember anything" she says, even if the tone in which she says it's so strange
"And then what did we do? I want you to tell me about that day" she asks
"Time to time honey, i'll tell you everything, but in little steps" i hope she understands.
She nods and turns away to look at the window.
"What is that?" she asks, referring to the box i brought.
"Oh uhm it's for you"
"For me?" she asks turning on my side to look me
"Yes, i thought of a nicer way to tell you our story" i take the box and go to sit next to her while she looks at me carefully.
"Here, in here there are questions or words that refer to moments we shared, every day you will take out one of these notes and i'll give you answers about it, what do you think?" i ask, hoping i haven't exaggerated.
"Did you really do all this for me?" she says looking at the details of the box
"Y/n i'd do anything for you" i say and that's when our eyes meet and it's like it's the first time, like time has stopped since the first time we met.
I see a sparkle in her eyes that i know too well, the one that used to be in her gaze when she looked at me.
It was all so clear, all in front of me but i was too blind to notice.
I instinctively smile without even realizing it.
"What? Why are you smiling?" she asks
"Nothing, I'm just happy. I've missed you so much"
"I wish i missed you too but i don't remember anything i might miss" she says lowering her head
"Hey i'm here to remember for both of us, it's all inside my heart and i know that somewhere it's inside you too, we'll make sure you remember okay?" she nods but i keep perceiving something in her face that upsets her.
"Perfect so let's get started, come let me help you sit up" i say trying to help her but i see the panic in her eyes
"I can do it on my own" she says
"Come on, i help y-" i freeze as i move her blanket away.
I see next to her some food that hasn't been touched. I turn to her nightstand and see her empty lunch tray and connect everything in and she seems to notice.
"If you want to lecture me, just don't do it, i don't need it" she says in a cold tone
"I don't want to lecture you, but why? Why did you do that?" i ask to her
"The food sucks here" she says, but i know she's lying
"Please tell me the truth" i ask her gently
"I wasn't hungry" she says this time, but without meeting my eyes.
"Can you look at me? Please" i try to use the calmest tone possible.
She turns to look at me and i see her eyes hold back the tears
"You don't need to lie to me honey" i try to touch her hand but she withdraws it immediately, as if she doesn't want me to touch her.
"Hey...i know it's hard but-"
"What are you referring to? I'm fine" she says frowning
"Honey i know everything that's why there's no need to lie to me" i explain, she looks at me surprised, she probably didn't expect me to know.
"Great, you'll think i'm sick" she says with a dark sarcasm
"No, i don't think so. I've seen my sister go through the same thing but she's fine now and so will you-"
"For God's sake don't give me motivational speeches i hate them" she says rolling her eyes.
If i continue this way she'll continue to be grumpy towards me and will never trust me.
"You know what? You're right, the food here really sucks" i say getting up and picking it up from her bed to put it on the tray while her confused gaze analyzes my movements
"How about i go get something? What do you like? Pizza? Pasta? Sushi?"
"Elizabeth..." she begs me
I approach her kneeling at her bed
"How about if i buy something and we can eat it here together? Just you and me and maybe a good movie, i'll also give you the chance to watch an Avengers movie so you'll have a double me" i tell her ironically and for the first time i hear her laugh and my heart can only melt at what is music to my ears.
"Fine, but only because i want a double you" she says making me smile
"I'm never enough for you huh?"
"No, no i don't think so" and again our gazes are lost in each other.
"I'll be right back, i promise" i get up and leave a little kiss on her head, but i only realize what i've done when i'm out of her room.
Shit, i hope i haven't exaggerated.
After buying some food i go back to her room but i'm stopped by voices coming from there.
I recognize hers, obviously annoyed while she screams and talks loudly but then i recognize the other too.
Shit.
I'm going inside right away to figure out what's going on.
"What the fuck do you want from me? You made my life hell!" she yells
"Look at you, you're disgusting. You did it on purpose, didn't you? So you can stay here?" he says
"What the hell is your head telling you! I don't need to get into an accident to be near my mother, i have every right!"
"You have no rights in this family" i decide to intervene before the situation escalates more.
"Mr. y/l/n, i think you should get out of here" i say, they both turn towards me.
"Do you know each other? Did you tell him to come here?" she accuses me.
No no no fuck.
"No, i mean-i-" i start to panic
"What Elizabeth? Shit i thought i could trust you!" she yells at me and for a moment i feel like we're reliving our fight.
"Hey honey wait" i say running to her
"Don't come close"
"Look at me" i place a hand on her blanket but she fidgets at my touch
"Don't touch me"
She scares of me?
"I'm not here to hurt you much less to tell you lies, let me give you some explanations" hoping she listens to me
"Please" i beg her again, but nothing, she doesn't turn to me
"You really suck" i hear that man says.
I look at him badly, i get up and go towards him.
"Are you sure it's really us here that sucks? Have you ever looked in the mirror?" i tell him
"I'm not the one being depraved here" he says
"At least i'm here for her, at least i try to fix what you caused and i do it because i care about her, what do you do instead huh? You just babble"
"Don't joke with me, i've already told you what would happen" he threatens me
"I don't give a fuck what you want to do, ruin my life i don't care, but i don't leave her, understand?" i say pointing my finger at his chest
"Did you seriously touch me?" he says
"Oh sorry my lord, i didn't know you were untouchable" i say sarcastically
"You're more problematic than her" he says, referring to y/n
"Me problematic? What the fuck about-"
"Elizabeth..." i hear her calling me so I turn to her side
"Forget it, it's not worth it"
"But-"
"No but, it's okay, really" she doesn't seem angry with me anymore, in fact she seems quite.
I nod at her and then turn back to her father
"Go away and don't approach her anymore or you'll end up badly" he doesn't say anything except look at us badly and then he leaves without even saying goodbye
"You should say goodbye asshole" i whisper
I see y/n staring into space.
"Hey i'm sorry" i say walking closer to her again.
She struggles to hold back her tears, her lips tremble but she doesn't want to look at me
"I don't want to see your beautiful eyes cry for him, anyone would feel lucky to have a daughter like you"
"Why do you know each other?" she asks out of the blue
"Uhm we met a few days ago in your mom's room" i start to tell her and she finally looks at me
"Have you been to her?" she asks and i nod
"Sorry, maybe i should have asked you before but well i felt i owed her an apology. You see one day you took me to her to introduce me and i promised her i would take care of you but as you can see i don't think i kept that promise and beyond that to apologize to you i had to apologize to her too" i explain but she stares at me without saying anything, with no expression on her face
"Are you angry with me?" i ask her
"No, i'm not angry with you, i just don't understand why you do all this for me"
Should i tell her that i love her? I mean, i would like to do it but i don't know if it's the case
"Because i care about you, in a way i couldn't do it with someone else" no, that's not the answer i wanted to give her but i don't want to run with her, I want her to trust me, i want to rebuild everything together with her.
"Maybe you should go home, you have a husband at home and you've done enough for me already"
Why is she so cold to me now?
Emma had told me that changing her mood was part of the process, but i thought it was going well between us.
"No one is waiting for me at home, Robbie and i broke up" i explain
"Really? Why?" she asks incredulously
"Well there was nothing left between us and i was tired of fighting for something that no longer made sense. Above all, it didn't make sense to be with someone if my heart belongs to someone else so i left him" my heart belongs only to her.
Again, she says nothing.
I see that she has many thoughts on her mind but it's as if she doesn't want to share them with me, i don't know if it's because she sees me as a stranger or simply because she doesn't trust me.
"He did that?" She asks but she must have understood that i don't understand what she is referring to looking my expression.
"You have red marks on your neck" she specifies
Shit i didn't think it still visible so much.
"Yes, but he didn't hurt me, don't worry"
"But he's still an asshole" she says
"Yes, yes he is, but it's over now" once again i see her lost in thought.
At this point i think it's normal and part of the process.
After a bit, she moves to her bed leaving a space beside her.
"Uhm are you coming?" she asks
"Sorry?" i ask confused
"Weren't we supposed to watch a movie together?"
"Oh uhm yeah sure" i say
"Do you want me to come there?" i add
"Yes, if you want of course, i mean, it's uncomfortable to be sit all the time" she says scratching her head shyly.
She has to stop being so cute or she's going to think i'm a psycho for all the times she sees me smile for her.
I make room in her bed, careful to leave the right space and even less to touch her, i don't want her to think she's some sort of maniac.
I see her hesitating to do something
"Everything okay?" i ask her
"Uhm yes, but here-if it's not weird- can i lay my head on you?" i bite my lip trying to hold back a smile
"Of course you can, come on come here" i say spreading my arm to make room for her, she rests her head on my shoulder and wraps her arm around my waist.
God how i've missed all of this, i didn't think i'd ever experience this feeling again.
We start watching the movie, hug each other like old times and i couldn't ask for anything better.
"Can you do it more often what you did before?" she asks out of the blue
"What?" i ask not understanding
"Give me kisses on the head, i like it" she replies becoming embarrassed and blushing.
In response i approach and leave a kiss on her forehead and i see her close her eyes relaxing.
"Yes, i promise"
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A/N:
Hiiiiiii guys
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!🎆
I hope you're all well and that you had a nice New Year's Eve.
I wish you a year full of surprises and especially a lot of happiness.
I wish you to fulfill your dreams and goals and find your place in the world.
But let's go back to the story, what do you think of the chapter?
Things are starting to get a little better right?
Let me know in the comments.
See you in the next chapter
Love y'll🤍