LIZZIE'S POV
"Hey..."
"Hi..."
"Sorry, would you like me to go away? I can go if you wan-"
"No it's okay...or at least i think" she says looking out the window so as not to meet my gaze.
"It's just that... i didn't imagine our meeting like that, actually i didn't even think i'd ever meet you"
"Don't worry, it was who knows that the first time we met" i say wittily, trying to relieve the tension in the room.
She turns to me and i finally see her eyes, but full of tears ready to slide down her face.
"That's what pisses me off, not remembering you.
Not remembering how we met, not remembering anything about you.
I woke up and find you in this room and everyone keeps telling me i had a special relationship with you but i can't fucking remember it!
I look at you and i see a stranger, i look at you and i don't see anything they told me.
What was between us? i want to know" she asks to me.
"Trust me, it would be too much now, you would kick me out if you knew everything now" i say discouraged
"That's the problem, i should trust you but i can't"
It's all about trust.
Before i had to win back her trust, now i have to win it again, like the first time.
"I'll make you trust me again, but please don't push me away from you" instinctively i find myself holding her hand in mine, we both fix our hands on top of each other.
"How?" she asks in a weak voice
"I'll be honest with you, i'll tell you our story and make sure you remember us" i tell her while caressing the back of her hand and she seems to relax at my touch for the moment.
"Why are you doing it? I'm not special, i have nothing to give you. You're famous and i-well i'm nobody"
"You're everything to me y/n, you're everything i ever wanted and i'm sorry i realized it late, you're the most beautiful thing that has happened to me in my life" i tell her sincerely looking into her eyes.
"Did you realized it late?"
"Yes, unfortunately yes...if you're here-uhm well it's my fault actually" i see her look down and withdraw her hand from under mine.
"Oh..." she just says
"But i didn't do it on purpose, it didn't go the way you think, i swear" i explain hoping she understands
"Maybe it's better if you go now, i'd like to spend some time with the people i know"
it hurts me so much to see her detached from me, but i can't expect too much from her.
"Uhm yeah of course, i'll leave you alone with them, but uhm... well, would it be a problem if i came to visit you sometimes?"
"I don't know Elizabeth, i'm afraid of ruining the idea i've always had of you and in all honesty it's one of the things that keeps me alive, sorry but i hope you understand me" she says without meeting my gaze again , but this time i won't let her get away from me and neither will i.
"Hey can you look at me?" i tell her softly, i move a lock of her hair and she jumps as if she's scared.
"Hey i'm not here to hurt you, it's okay that you don't trust me but i promise if you let me, i'll take care of you and find a way through this.
You will remember us and if it doesn't happen, we will build a new story together, you and i" i tuck the lock of hair behind her ear and this time she seems more relaxed.
"Can you just give me some time to think about it? Everything is so strange and confusing right now" Her face looks like that of a lost puppy and god how i want to kiss her right now, reassure her with a caress, hug her tight and protect her from all the bad.
"Sure bab-uhm honey, anything you want.
I can come tomorrow, if you want of course"
Shit if i'd called her like that she would have thought I'm a psycho even if i could be wrong, i see a little hidden smile on her face.
"Yes uhm i think it's okay" just hearing this is enough for me to be happy, she wants to see me again and that's enough for me.
"Good, see you tomorrow" i see smiling at her
"See you tomorrow Liz-uhm Elizabeth" she says embarrassed while i giggle having deja vu.
The first time we met she did the same thing and it makes me smile how some things never change.
"You can call me Lizzie, even if you had another nickname for me"
"Which one" she asks curiously
"Well actually i was your little bear, you always called me that" i smile like a fool and she must have noticed.
"Oh...i guess you liked it when i called you that"
"Yes, so much. It made me feel more special and more... yours" i say this time embarrassed, i lower my gaze so as not to meet her gaze.
"Then i won't stop calling you like that, it's our thing and even if i don't remember it will stay that way forever" i look at her and for the first time this day i see her sincerely smiling at me.
Even if she's changed so much in the last period, mainly because of me, i finally see the old y/n, that i met the first time, the one that, even if i didn't know it yet at the time, i fell in love with at first sight.
"See you tomorrow Lizzie"
"See you tomorrow honey"
For the first time in weeks i walk out of that room with a smile on my face and my heart bursting with happiness.
I feel like a little girl on Christmas day unwrapping her presents and today, her waking up and smiling were the best gift i could receive.
For the first time, i see hope in us, no matter how long it takes, i will always wait for her.
Walking i remember a person who's here and who deserves to know that her daughter is fine, after all i had made her a promise and despite my many mistakes i don't want to break it, because even if i made y/n suffer i would never stop protect her.
I approach her room, hesitant about going inside the no. But she deserves to know and besides apologies to y/n, she deserves an apology too, after all, she's her mother.
I go in and find her in the same way she was the first time i came here with y/n, no change.
After seeing y/n in the same condition, i understand even more the pain she can feel seeing her mother like this.
"Hi Amelia, it's me Lizzie. I don't know if you remember me but i came here with her daughter y/n a while ago" it's so hard to talk to her without knowing if she's actually listening to me or not.
"I made her a promise that day, i would protect her daughter with all my myself, but well... i feel i owe you an apology. I haven't been so good at keeping that promise and i'm sorry because y/n doesn't deserve to suffer. Your daughter is so special miss, she changed my life, for the better of course.
I've made mistakes miss and i'm so sorry but i promise with all my heart that i'll take care of her,
so take it easy and take the time you need, i'll take care of it y/n, even though we are all waiting for you. Y/n and Emma miss you so much, they need you.
And when everything will be alright i would like to ask your daughter to be my girlfriend because i love her so much, of course i hope it's not a problem for you, and i would really like you to be there too to share this moment with us, because you're important to y/n and therefore also for me"
It would be so beautiful to be all together, happy as one family.
"She must be proud of her daughter, you raised her in the best way, she's the most beautiful person i've ever known-"
"Who are you?" a male voice says behind my back making me jump with fright.
I turn around and see a doctor, tall with a beard and gray hair.
"I'm so sorry, i'm leaving" i say grabbing my bag to hurry out of the room
"Stop, i asked you a question. Who are you?" his voice is deep and there is no emotion on his face. "Why were you talking to her?" he adds referring to y/n's mother.
"I here uhm-well i'm a friend of her daughter" i say the first thing that comes to my mind so i can leave.
"Are you friend with Emma?" he asks raising an eyebrow
"Do you know her-" i stop as soon as i read his surname on the tag attached to his medical coat and at that point my vision can only change of that man i have here in front of me.
"No, not of Emma. You have another daughter, remember mr. Y/L/n?" i say in a confident tone, his expression changes, he becomes restless and downright irritated as soon as i mention y/n.
The more i look at him, more i recognize facial features similiar to y/n's ones.
I hate to admit it but she looks like him even though she's just beautiful and an angel compared to her asshole father.
"I don't have another daughter" he says.
He's joking right?
"How can you be so mean? Jesus is your daught-"
"Who the hell are you? Are you one of her lesbian whores?"
Now that i have this man in front of me i understand why y/n hates him so much.
"And even if i am? Where's the problem? You've been rejecting your daughter for years, do you have the idea of how much she suffered because of you?" i yell at him but he's big and tall and i feel small next to him.
"Who the hell are you to lecture me, stay away from my wife, you and that other lesbian!" he says violently grabbing my arm to kick me out of the room.
"Don't touch me or you'll end up badly!" i wriggle in vain though.
He stops, brings his face close to mine, with a mischievous smile.
"Do you have any idea the power i have here huh? You don't know who i am"
Really?
"And you don't know who you're dealing with, so let go of my arm immediately before i put you behind prison bars" i say seriously and for a moment he seems taken aback, enough to let me go.
"You're really disgusting, your daughter is here, who has been fighting for weeks between life and death and you didn't give a fuck" i say in a despicable tone
"She's here?" he asks incredulously, but not worried.
"Yes, she had an accident, ask Emma"
"Emma hardly ever talks to me except when necessary" says the man approaching near his wife's bed and holding her hand.
"Why are you doing this? Don't you understand that by doing this you destroy your whole family? You could have a beautiful relationship with your daughters and your wife would be proud-"
"Don't put your mouth into things that don't concern you, who are you to give me advice on how to behave with my family?" he says raising his voice but without looking me in the eyes.
"I just want to see y/n happy, she has suffered a lot and deserves a family that loves her" i sigh leaning against the door jamb
"You don't know anything about my family, i'm not the problem.
She destroyed everything, it's her fault Amelia is here"
"No mr y/l/n it's not her fault, it's not her fault if your daughter is not like you would like, y/n she's a wonderful person and if you would only open your eyes you would realize what a beautiful daughter you have. You should be proud of her" is the first person who doesn't think so.
Anyone who meets y/n understands how special she is, she's pure light that brings into the life of everyone she meets.
"I don't want to know anything about her, she has made my life hell since my wife gave birth to her. She's not my daughter and she never will be, now go away before i call security" the man stands up and approaches me, looking into my eyes, cold eyes.
"I will always make her life hell because she deserves nothing after all she has done, so stay away from her because otherwise i'll make your life hell too" he threatens me sure of his words.
"We have already been through hell once and will do it again if need be.
I love her and i'll never leave her okay? You can threaten me all you want but i'll always stay by her side and it would be good if you did too before you regret it" i look at him one last time and then without saying anything i turn around and leave that room.
I will fight alongside y/n no matter how much i lose, because the only thing i really don't want to lose is her.
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A/N :
Hiiiii guys
Happy late Christmas!
I hope you had a great holiday
I know these are not easy and happy days for everyone, but i'm close to you and i send you all my love.
This is my little gift, i tried to give you this chapter, maybe it's not the best but who knows it could be the beginning of a peace between Lizzie and y/n right? What do you think i'm curious to know.
I don't know if i'll publish more chapters this week so i wish you a happy new year and i hope it brings you much happiness!
See you in the next chapter
Love y'll🤍