LIZZIE'S POV
"Is everything okay Lizzie?" asks the little one
"Uhm yes honey, but i've something to tell you..."
My legs are shaking and i can hardly keep a smile that slowly becomes as big as my whole face.
"This is a double lucky day little one, i think there is someone who's waiting for us" and here, this is even more beautiful, the realization in his eyes and in his smile.
"Y/n did she wake up?" he asks incredulously with shining eyes
"Yes honey, she woke up" i say in a shaky voice while a tear rolls down my face
"Why are you crying Lizzie?" the little one asks me extending his little hand to wipe away my tears.
"Because i'm happy, this are tears of happiness"
"Now you can get married" he says and i let out a laugh at his childish naivety.
"First she has to forgive me but with your bracelet she'll do it for sure, right?" i say and he nods
"Come on let's go to her" i say starting the car to go to the hospital.
Throughout the journey i keep thinking that i'll see her beautiful eyes again, even if i don't know if she will reject me, but it doesn't matter, what matters now is that she is awake.
Time will fix everything.
Before rushing to her room we decide to buy her a bouquet of flowers that Julian holds tight in his hands.
Arrived in front of her door i take a deep breath and knock, my heart beating very fast and my hand shake.
"Everything will be fine Lizzie" the little one says to me holding my hand and i smile at him tenderly.
I decide to let Julian in first, i don't want to spoil their moment, he's been waiting so long for this.
"Oh my god little bear you're here, come here!"
Her voice,
after a long time my ears can hear the melody of her voice again.
My heart stops beating for a second hearing that nickname, but then i remember that she calls Julian that too.
I miss, i miss so much being called that by her.
I swear this doesn't seem real.
"I missed you so much Y/n" says the little one
"Me too little bear, come on hug me"
I look out a little to see the scene, i can't see her face but i see her hugging the little one and i smile at all that tenderness.
"Is that for me?" she asks pointing the flowers
"Yes-"
"Wait is your mom with you? Why doesn't she come in and say hello?" She turns towards the door and i immediately hide.
Why am i so afraid of being seen by her?
"Tessa come here don't be shy" she says jokingly
I breathe and then with small steps i walk towards her.
The first person i see is Emma, i smile at her but she lowers her head instead.
Ok...that's weird... I thought she was happy.
Then i meet Cassie's gaze but she turns away.
Hailee instead glares at me, well, nothing strange here after all.
But why do they all avoid my gaze?
Until i get close to her bed and our eyes meet, after so long.
Here, her beautiful eyes, god i'd missed them, i'd missed her.
Neither of us speaks and i don't know if i should take that as a positive sign, after all she hasn't kicked me out yet.
"Oh...this is definitely not Tessa" she says analyzing me
"Hey..." i say with a hint of a shy smile
"Me and Lizzie bought you these flowers and look we made you a bracelet!" says the little one handing the bracelet to y/n who looks at him confused.
"Sorry little bear but i'm so confused right now" she affirms
What is going on?
"Lizzie listen i have to tell you something" Emma says from behind my back
"Yeah Emma i think i need an explanation too...so what is this? A sort of surprise? What is Elizabeth Olsen doing in my room and then why are you calling her Lizzie?"
Why the hell does she call me like that like she doesn't know me?
"Sorry i'm so rude, i'm y/n" she reaches out her hand to introduce herself to me.
I look at Emma and Cassie for an explanation but then i turn back to her, asking a question i never wanted to have an answer to.
"Y-you don't know me?"
"Uhm yes, i mean you're my favorite actress" she smiles innocently without even understanding the seriousness of the situation and in the meantime i feel like I'm dying inside of me.
"So you know my sister? Because if so, i should punish her for never telling me"
Why doesn't she remember me?
Why do i look like a stranger in her eyes?
"What the hell is going on Emma?" i ask angrily, turning to her.
She breathes deeply and then looks at me
"S-she doesn't remember you Lizzie...i'm so sorry"
Please, it's not real, this is not real.
It's a bad dream, just a bad dream.
"W-what?" i ask with a faint voice while my eyes fill with tears.
"I'm so sorry i-i don't know what to say-"
"May i know what's going on? God i'm not understanding anything! I just woke up and my head is exploding" says y/n getting nervous
"Sorry sis you're right, all this is too much for you" Emma says taking her hand to caress it.
I feel short of breath, my legs give way to unbearable pain.
"Hey boo, you know when i told you earlier that Elizabeth Olsen is our teacher? Well i wasn't joke" says Cassie
Why does she remember everyone but not me?
"Oh...s-so you are my teacher?" she asks me and i nod, speachless.
"Well actually there was something more between you, something beyond the teacher-student relationship" adds Emma.
"It's true Lee?" she asks to Hailee.
She remembers every fucking person including Hailee but not me.
This is too much to hear.
"Yes Y/n, it's true" she replies in cold tones and looking at me with so much hatred.
Y/n looks at me and in her eyes i see the sorrow and confusion she's feeling right now.
"I-i'm sorry i can't remember-i would like to but-i-" she bursts into tears and i do the same and for the umpteenth time since i've known her i run away from that pain, i don't want she sees me in these conditions.
After all this time, after waiting for her with the fear that she won't wake up, everything is lost, i'm nothing to her, i'm nobody to the person i love.
I'm the stranger to my lover's heart.
I collapse to the ground, hug my knees bringing them to my chest and let myself go to despair.
How is it possible that it happened?
Why does fate keep playing tricks on us?
Why can't we be happy together?
I know i was wrong with her, i made her suffer and i was punished for it, but do i really deserve all of this? I saw her in that bed for weeks and i felt terrible, i saw the love of my life about to die, isn't that enough?
Isn't all that we've been through enough?
"Lizzie..." a female voice calls to me, i raise my head quickly wiping away my tears and see Emma standing in front of me
"You don't have to pretend you're fine, i know it's terribly hard for you" she says, kneeling at my level
"Why Emma? Why me? How is it possible that she forgot about me" i ask sobbing
"I'm so sorry but sadly it can happen"
"How is that possible?"
"Sometimes brain can play nasty tricks on"
"Shit Emma don't tell me phrases made like this! Hell she remember Hailee do you understand? She remember her and not me!" i scream in despair, some in the hospital turn to look at me but i don't care.
"Lizzie you have to calm down, in these conditions you won't solve anything, please" she says caressing my arm to calm me down.
"Come on breathe with me" she adds and i do as she tells me trying to return to normal breathing.
"Good, you're doing well" she encourages me
"S-sorry i didn't want to get angry with you" i apologize wiping my tears
"It's okay Lizzie, don't worry"
"P-please, tell me that at least there is a logical reason for all this" i ask to her
"More or less yes, but i told you the brain can sometimes play tricks.
Sometimes, following a traumatic event such as an accident, brain decide to erase events or people from our memory that made us feel bad or were intense to facilitate the rehabilitation process.
What there has been between you and my sister in recent months has been decidedly... intense and her brain has decided to erase you from her memory to make everything easier for her" she explains and as crazy as it is, it makes sense.
I made her life hell, not remembering me her life would definitely be better...or at least i think.
Does she really not need me?
"Is there a chance she can remember me?"
"Maybe yes, especially if we're going to help her, but Lizzie i also have to tell you that things like this can vary from person to person and it's not always the same for everyone.
It may or may not take time, as well as she may or may not remember you but in any case you must be aware of it and have a lot of patience with her.
It's not easy to know that a person has had such importance in her life when in her eyes you're a total stranger or at least just an actress that she love.
I know it's not easy for you either and i don't force you to stay but i know that whatever she tells you you will stay by her side because you love her, and if so then it's time to fight, do everything to make her remember you and if she doesn't, then make some new memories, make her fall in love with you again. This is not an ending point Lizzie, this is a starting point for you two" she's right, i've fought for her up until now and it certainly won't be now that i'm giving up.
I will never give up on her.
"Do you want to talk to her?" she asks
"Do you think that's a good idea?"
"You will have to do it sooner or later" it hurts me to think that i'll have to start over with her but at the same time i'll make sure that everything will be different, now i'm aware of how i feel about her and i won't let her suffer again.
But what if she doesn't fall in love with me again?
What will i do without her?
I can't force her to love me.
If her brain doesn't want me, what does tell me that her heart doesn't want me too?
"Come on, let's go to her" tells me Emma and i following her with heavy steps.
We get to her door and i just want to run away and cry, but i've to be strong.
"Wait, i'll let everyone out so you have some privacy" says Emma.
I lean over to look at her room, i see Hailee kissing her head and saying something that makes her laugh, my stomach twists, my eyes wouldn't want to see this.
I see Cassie come out of the room and without saying anything she hugs me tightly.
"Let her know she can trust you" she just says and i nod
"I'll take Julian home" she adds
"Thanks Cassie" i say with tears in my eyes
Then Hailee comes out and once again looks at me badly.
"You should let her go, you don't deserve her"
"I know Hailee, but i love her and i'm not giving up" i say and she sighs then walks away.
Little Julian takes care of making my smile for a moment, i pick him up and hug him.
"Hey little one, i'm sorry the bracelet didn't work"
" Don't worry Lizzie i'm not sad" he says smiling at me
"Really?" i ask incredulously
"Yes, the heart doesn't lie Lizzie" that sentence destabilizes me but i try to ignore it for now.
I hug him once again and then let him go.
"Is it a problem for you?"
"No it's okay"
"Okay I'll let her in then" Emma says to y/n
Come on Lizzie, you can do this.
I'm hanging on fine
I'm trying to make sense of it all
Trying to understand.
I never wonder what it's like losing what you cannot be without, but now is the only thing i can ask to myself.
I'll try
I'll overcome
I'll remember our memories for both of us
We've come too far to let go
I don't her let go
"Hey..."
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A/N:
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