Dear diary,
It's the first time, ever since I'd been adopted by Kanae-san and Shinobu-san, that I have truly felt lonely. I do have Kaburamaru with me, and he is wonderful company. But it has been a really long time since I interacted with a fellow human being. Tanjiro, Inosuke, and Zenitsu with Nezuko in tow, usually come by for their monthly check-up- but they usually stay for only a day, then they immediately leave.
I dearly miss having them around me- Kanae-san and Shinobu-san. They gave me a purpose after my worthless life with my parents. You see, I was supposed to be sold as a slave, but those two sisters bought me from my parents, and here I am, having been an accomplished Demon Slayer and doctor.
Even now, I can vividly see the memory of Kanae-san giving me that brass coin, telling me to use it for my every decision until I find someone I can open up to. I can even hear Shinobu-san fussing over me as she attempts to prise words out of my reclusive past self. There were so many things I wanted to say to them- so many things I forced myself not to say because of my reclusive nature. Now, I wished I had just slapped my past self and forced my mouth open so I could tell them both how much I loved them, how much I cried after seeing them die in front of my eyes, how much I miss them, how much I would give up just to hear their voices.
Though I continue living, breathing, eating, sleeping as I usually would, I still feel that empty void those two sisters filled in my heart. With them, I truly felt I belonged in this cruel world which forsook me. Will I ever find someone to fill in this void that has been left vacant, or will I be forced to live it out until my last breath?
Your dearest friend,
Kanao.