Hello,
This part is continuation kinda of last one. You'll understand things better.
There are mentions about Sourav Ganguly and not in nice way, of course this is just fiction not absolute truth
Also I've changed fonts for dialogues they are as follows: Virat, MS, Anushka, Sourav Ganguly
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MSD'S POV:
Cheeku is hiding something I know it and its the gut feeling I can't ignore these days. I had gut feeling he'll take some huge step and he did by giving up his t20 captaincy. It's high time i had to meet him so i did. I decided to surprise him just few hours after latest BCCI meeting that I had received timings from Ro. I was at Kohli mansion playing with my princess she's so precious it physically hurts to stay away from her. At times i wanna buy house in this building only and stay close to her so even Ziva and Sakshi can stop eating my head, but again we're settled there in Ranchi pcan't move now.
Me and Anushka were chatting about random things after Vami slept, in some time we heard knock on front door, and Nush whisper yelled taking her phone out, "BHAIYA! Aap Jaao! Aap kholo door I'll record his reaction! Go go!"
I laughed knowing how Sakshi does same when roles are reversed, I love how similar we all think and behave.I went and opened the door, initially Virat was engrossed in his phone so didn't notice me till i opened the door completely.
"Hi nush baby! Bell band hain so Vami soi hain kya?-" he stopped in mid sentence looking up from his phone finally, thats when I decided to speak.
"Hello to you too mr Cheeku! Phone ke baar ki duniya mein aapka swagat hain"
I hardly managed to hold my laughter looking at his expressions ans anu didn't even hide her amusement as she started laughing real hard.
Once he sobered up he gasped and said "MAHI BHAI" jumping in my arms. I'll never get used to the happiness he shows when he's around me and love he has for our hugs.
Once we all settled down, we spent few hours of normal random masti we three always do and a video call where certain someones (read as Ziva and Sakshi) kept whining for wanting to meet Vami too qnd I kept teasing them. Ofcourse why won't I! She's with her bade papa and she loves me the most.
Once it was evening Anushka took Vami for feeding and making her sleep, handing over remaining few jobs to nanny she left for some work. So after that me and cheeku we're alone in my room (it's guest room but i live here the most.)
Virat's POV:
Once we were in the room it was just me and Mahi bhai I made him sit on the chair and sat down keeping my head on his lap, he involuntarily started running his hand through my hair, the comfort and safety this feeling has, i cant explain how much i longed for this.
Usually keeping head on his shoulder is enough but I can't handle things more without his warmth. This is longest I've kept things from him, since we got close and more like brothers. Most of my problems were known to him, and his I used to force out of him, when i knew they're killing his strength from inside.
It's been almost 18 months I still haven't spoken a word about things to him. It hurts at same time I'll keep continuing this. I know he'll hurt more if he knows the truth or worse he'll not believe me and leave- Even thought of him leaving terrifies me to death so i hugged him tighter.
MSD'S POV:
I could feel him thinking and it was confirmed when he tightened his hug. I slowly starred, "Cheeku, tujhey mujh par bharosa hain?"
On my question he got his head up from my lap and said, "YE kaisa sawal hain ? Of course hain bhai"
I smiled at his sincerity and Cupped his face as I continued, "Toh baat kar na mujhsey bache. Kya hua hain bata na apne mahi bhai ko. Mere hote hue tu sab kuch akele kyun seh raha hain?"
"K-kya batau bhai. Kuch nahi hua hain-" I heard him struggle. I sighed i don't understand why has he picked up my worst trait of going through things alone out of all other traits.
"Dekh bacha, i know you very well and i know when you're lying and when not. If you think i forgot what you said admist your breakdown few months back then you're wrong. I know someone's hurting you, I know kuch toh hua hain. And you're probably hiding to protect them, me or protect our bond. I didn't push you as I felt you'll finally tell me something or at least give me a hint. But mere bhai ne mera worst trait uthaya hain and bada talent hasil kiya hain baatein chupane mein aur topics change karne mein. Not anymore abp nahin. I can clearly see tu kitna exhausted hain toh ab tu mujhey bata kya hua hain."
Hearing my words I saw his eyes started watering he broke the hug and started looking at his hand. I gave him some time to compose himself and kept patting his head. After few moments I heard a sob, immediately getting on my knees I hugged him and let him cry on my shoulder. I kept quiet didn't say a word, just patted his back as he needed this outburst.
After what felt ages he spoke, "B-bhai aa-aap k-kyun nahi ho team mein. A-aa-aap ke bina k-kuch thik nahi la-lagta. M-mujhse y-ye sab akele nahi hoga! im sorry. S-sab mujhey k-koste hain b-bhaiya s-sab. U-unko lagta h-hain M-mujhey farak nahi padta... par Dard hota hain bohot dard hota hain. I-I'm so helpless bha-i sab sab dark hain kuch nahi samaj raha- aisa ky-kya karu ke t-theyll hurt me less"
Rage was only thing i felt Hearing his words, the moment i get names, those people better start counting their days. I slowly patted his head too, I could feel him getting less jittery but he was still crying.
"Pata hain bhai, ye pressure- ye ye sab ke bavajut mein acha karsata hun! Abhi bhi cricket baaki hain mujhemein b-but dar lagta hain bhai. Ab-ab na darr lagta hain- pata nahi konsa match mera aakhri ho- ye mujhse mera cricket chin lenge- aapko bhi chin lenge sab kuch khatam hoga- mein akela ho jaunga- kuch nahi rahega- aadha toh khatam hua bhai- khatam hua- apne sopa hua sab kho diya maine! I'm sorry bhai I'm sorry- aapne kya sochke mujhey captaincy di thi and Meine kya karke rakhdiya hain I'm sorry" I felt tears form in my eyes.
This is when I decided to intervain, "Shh shh shh Bache shant hoja, koi mujhey ya cricket ko tujhse durr nahi kar sakta kabhi nahi. Hum do chize teri zindagi se permanently judi hui hain..hum nahi jaa rahe kahi bhi, kabhi bhi! Aur Kuch khatam nahi hua Bache! Kuch nahi khoya tune! Kyun soch raha hain tu aise shant hoja cheeku shaant hoja shhh"
Slowly he calmed down,he was still sobbing on my shoulders but it was less as compared to previous few minutes that sounds like an improvement.
Slowly I tried asking "Bacha hum bed pein baithe?" He sniffed and nodded yes
Once I made him sit on the bed I told him I'll get him some water and handed him a glass of water after few moments. I let him drink and then catch some breath. After few moments I asked him, "Tell me the names cheeku" getting straight to the point.
I could feel Virat stiffen besides me. I sighed and took glass from his hand placing it ok the side table.
Virat's POV:
Why can't bhai understand I can't tell him the names! I'll l stay quiet so he'll probably ask me different question. But it seems I underestimated bhai as next thing he did was to turn me towards him, taking my hands in his he tried convincing me.
"Dekh Bache, apney aap ko meri jagah rakh ke soch ek baar, soch agar koi almost ek saal se tere Rahuliya, ya Miyan, ya Jassi, Rishu, Shub, Ish, Harsh, ya tere ICT ya RCB ke kisibhi bacheko bully karra ho and tu uske baare mein kuch bhi na kar pata toh kaise lagta?"
I gulped another lump forming in my throat cause he's right ; come one he's mahi bhai he's always right!
"Mujhey tujhse matlab hain cheeku baaki kisise nahi bas-" I chuckled humorlessly at that cause when he knows the names he'll say he has nothing to do with me, and why not, mein unke jagah hota toh mein bhi vahi karta. Hearing me chuckle mahi bhai raised his eye brow as if asking me "you doubt?"
"Nahi nahi bhai I trust you bas umm logoke naam mat puchona... hurt hoga and mein nahi chahta koi bhi hurt ho mere vajah se" I quickly clarified.
"Unka hurt hona ussi din se final tha jis din sey they started taunting you. Aur mein ussi din se hurt ho raha hun jis dinse meine tere aakhon mein dard dekha hain. Tera Dard mera Dard hain. Ab tu mujheu naam bata raha hain ya mein bcci office Jaake sabki class lu?"
He threatened and knowing him I know he can do it.
So i started telling him names of some selectors and just paused, thinking he won't notice there's one more. He just stare at me saying,"Tu mujhey jitna buddhu bananae ki koshish kar raha hain na mein utna banne nahi vala. Ye sab logoke words se tu itna affect nahi hota toh ab baakiyon ke naam bata chal"
I just tried to convince him not to make me say the name but he kept pushing.
MSD'S POV:
The way cheeku is going I'm praying he doesn't say that one name so for my satisfaction I kept pushing him when he finally whispered, "Sou-D-dada bhi"
I just kept staring at him, this is my worst nightmare.. why would Dada do something like that? And how? Mere Bache ne aisa konsa crime kiya hain? Iska kya matlab hua?
Misunderstanding my silence cheeku rushed, "Par mein thik hun bhai! I'm okay! Mein jhoot nahi bol raha trust me and I'm sorry! Galti meri thi! I'm sorry! Mein kisise kuch nahi kahunga! Bas mujhey chodke mat Jaao! Please please please bhai"
His confession hit me like truck and I clarified myself, "CHEEKU! shaant hoja! Dikh raha hain kitna thik hain tu! Aur I trust you bache! Mein kahi nahi ja raha tujhe chodke"
He hugged me tight Hearing my words and I hugged him back.
After few moments I asked him, "Umm cheeku bache can you tell me like abhi tere mein strength hain kya iss sabke baare mein aur baat karne ki?"
I could feel him gulp when he slowly said, "Dheere dheere batau?"
"Ha bache!! Aaram se koi rush nahi hain hum dono yahi hain. Tu time le achese" I agreed and he hummed in affirmation.
After sometime he made me sit by the headboard and laid down on my lap again. I ran my fingers through his hair slowly again massaging his head. I tried my best to focus on cheeku right now not thinking of anything especially the names he told me, otherwise I woukd get lost in my thoughts and miss my bacha trying to tell me something.
After few minutes I heard Virat's soft and broken voice as he started, "Umm bhai vo kaha se shuru karu?"
That one question filled me with dread. How long was everything going on for??? I focused back on him and said, "Jahase tera man kare Bache"
Virat's POV:
I dont understand how is he being so caring towards me even when i took da- Saurav sir's name. Sighing I decided to tell him the truth as much as i knew he can handle. Because currently Mahi bhai is hiding his hurt from me, I hate this situation so much.
I confessed , "Sourav sir.... umm starting mein when he came na he was nice you know? It felt too nice everything. Suddenly bcci meetings felt safe and the after few months when I started getting out of form he umm i dont know bhai something shifted. Pehle I thought its just for my good, and it probably always was but after few months... like after worldcup......"
I sighed I don't know how to tell him this, how do I tell him someone he idolised and loved so much made me feel disgusted. I looked at him and his eyes had so many questions so I continued.
"I don't really know why he started saying all that par um maybe he was upset bhai that's it and maybe vo sad the and probably he wanted to win the trophy for you and of course for ummm the country and we failed and so umm"
"So he started bullying you the very second you lost your first worldcup semifinals? Wow ok aage" I sighed hearing his tone. He was angry and I don't like this.
"N-not bullying me bhai-" I whispered.
"Acha? Kya kya bola unhone jara batana toh" he retorted.
I remember Sir saying all those words
'YOU dont deserve this opportunity honestly! I told mahi to not favour you so much! Par nahi usko bada vishwas tha cheeku pein! YE silah diya tune? Ha? Na batting aati hain, na feilding na captainship! Tu team mein hain par what is your input Virat Kohli? Bas hasi mazak aur gaaliya dena? Where the damn results?'
I felt myself getting lost in that day.
Mahi bhai sighed and said, "I'm sorry cheeku, mat bata tu bas apne saath jo hua vo bata de unki baatein kitni chubh sakthi hain I know very well I've seen it and heard it, mat yaad kar vo sab, I'm sorry"
I came back to present, I quickly held onto bhai's hand telling myself 'Bhai hain yaha, hum safe hain! No one can hurt us'
I dint know how but bhai slowly whispered exactly same reassurances to me, "I'm here bache. You're safe! I'll never let anyone hurt you! Ever! Come back to me bache! Come back to mahi bhai!"
MSD'S POV:
Hearing Cheeku take his name instead of calling him Dad- sigh I don't know if even i can call him that now, that made me doubt this is more than just his scoldings and that this is even more than bullying.
The way Virat is lost in the moment right now just confirmed my doubt. With my words I could slowly feel virat come back to me. I was about to tell him 'Lets talk about this some other day' when he himself started again.
"Trust me ahi bhai it was not that bad. Vo jo bhi bolte the na vo sab mein already sunn chuka tha bhai either media se, twitter pein ya aas paas ke comments se ya khudhi se. P-par vo humesha aap sabko bich laate the. Aapko pata hain na I can handle everything but someone telling me my teammates regret me as their teammate let alone captain" I took shuddering breath.
Dada will pay for this. Ab tak mahi kp dekha hain ab mahi bhai ko dekhenge.
I started caressing his hair indicating him to continue which he understood. "Pata hain bohot darr lagta tha... match se jyaada unn meetings ka darr tha bhai.. aur jab Asia cup aur t20 worldcup meinse we unmm you know kya hua tha... tab- nahi hoga bhai uss time ka just- unke words mere wickets se jyaada chubte the bhai"
I could feel him getting worked up so I reassured him, "Shh Bache, vo galat the you hear me? Whatever he said was absolutely wrong! Koi sachai nahi hain ussmein. We all are very VERY lucky to have you! And i know na mere bache ne kitni mehnat aur koshishe ki hain!"
He looked at me and gave me small smile which i returned and kissed his forehead. He continued, "Aapke saath sab sahi lagta hain bhai sach mein! Aapke bina itne din sab suna suna tha. Par Aapke cheeku ne haar nahi mani! Mein ladhta raha sabke liye! Meiney unhe ek bhi baar kisibhi bache ko kuch bhi bolne nahi diya! Aur na hi Ro ko! Sabko protect kiya bhai! Jaise aap karte the Hume! Are you proud of me??"
His question was my last straw as I broke down into tears.
Virat's POV:
I waited for bhai to answer when I felt him shudder, I looked at him to find him crying! OMG no! I quickly got up from his lap.
"Bhai bhai kya hua? Aap ro mat na please! Kyun ro rahe ho bhai!" I wiped his tears thinking he might stop crying, but he didn't instead he hugged me tight.
I tried again, "Please na bhai! Mat ro na aap! Aapke aasun bohot kimti hain! Aise mat waste karo na please! Shaant ho jao bhaiya" I slowly patted his back.
After some time I felt him calm down so I tried to break the hug but he refused to leave me.
"C-cheeku itna sab hua, ITNA sab aur tu sabmein akela tha..." He spoke eith heavy voice.
It broke my heart so I reassured him, "Nahi bhai aisa Kuch nhi hain! Aap the na mere sath! Anu bhi thi! Humari vami thi! Baki bhi the sab the saathmein!"
"Kya faayda? Hum cricket valomeinse koi tujhey protect nahi kar paya-" he tightened the hug saying so.
"Bhai-" I tried ti make him understand when he interrupted me, "Please yaar Virat Please zhuti tasalli mat de please"
His pleading voice made me sigh because now there's no end to his care for me whatsoever. Not that i ever wanted it to stop, nothing beats his warmth and care and protection.
We kept hugging each other for god knows how much time and then he broke the hug. Bhai kept looking at my hands I could feel him thinking so I pressed my hand in his trying my best to convey my thoughts to him. I know he's blaming himself I have no idea why the thinks he should be able to find and solve all of my problems without me communicating them to homp at same time i understand because I would think same if I was in his place.
"I'm sorry" he finally spoke and before I can say anything he continued, "Aur please ye mat bol I don't need to apologize, because I do! I didn't push you enough to talk with me, I couldn't protect you despite of knowing that you were hurting, I didn't fight enough for you, aur I was not there when you needed me the most! I'm so so so sorry please please ho sake toh maaf karde I'm extremely sorry!"
He tried to look at me and then deafeatedly continued, "Mein tujhse nazarein bhi nahi mila paa raha, I'm so sorry! How can you still be here with me? Aur Anushka? Usney bhi mujhe tujhse milne diya, Vami se milne diya- i dont deserve you I'm sorry! Mein kuch bhi karunga par Please mujhey durr mat bhej tujhse! I'm selfish, Please mere saath reh please! I beg y-"
Bhai was already in tears by the end and I started tearing up hearing his words too. The moment he started begging I broke down.
"Kya bol rahe ho bhai! Kyun! Please bhai nahi nahi aise mat bolo na! I am sorry! Meine aapko sab batana chahiye tha... bas mein darr gaya tha bhai! Aapki sachmein koi galti nahi hain! Kasam se aapne koi galti nahi ki hain! Nothing was in anyone's control and I chose to keep this from you! I promise mein naraz nahi hun! Aap ko kaise pata chalta agar mein na batata kuch toh? Antaryaami nahi ho aap bhai! Aap kyun kos rahe ho khud ko! Na mein naaraz hun Na hi nushkie!" I tried to make him understand but apparently bhai was not convinced.
"Nai nai cheeku yahi toh jhut hain! Sab control mein tha! Tune mujhe kuch nahi bataya because ye Saurav Ganguly the! Mere dada the! Koi aur hota toh tujhe apne bhai se darne ki jaroorat hi nahi hoti! Sab meri galti hain! Mujhey tujhey unse introduce karana hi nahi chahiye tha! I'm sorry fuck mein- i can't even explain how angry and disgusted i am right now! YE? Ye hain itni sportsmanship? Ye hain inka professionalism? Chi!"
I got surprised hearing his words he was too angry and there was no point in denying that whatever he said was true so I sighed and held his hand.
"Bhai dekho jo hua vo jaane dete hain, abhi he's not behaving vaise he's better-"
"Aur ye kab tak thik rahega? Aaj thik the kal ka kya? Chal kal thik honge toh parso ka? Parso thik hue toh next week? Next month? Next year? Aaj tu hain kal koi Aur hoga!" Bhai interrupted me.
Whatever he said did make lot of sense so I didn't try to say anything else. I let him express his views on all this. But what he said next took me by surprise.
"Cheeku meri kasam kha ke ek sach bata-". I gasped at his request and suspiciously nodded 'ok'.
"Tune captaincyse unke vajah se resign kiya?" He asked.
I froze at his question. This was not easy question to answer, so that's exactly what I decided to honestly tell mahi bhai.
"Umm bhai ye- vo- ok dekho I'll be honest iska sidha sidha koi jawab nahi hain- mein nahi janta how should i express this-"
I tried to find the words as bhai patiently waited for me.After sometime I found a way to put this situation in correct way and to explain him everything without angering him about Sourav sir more.
"Acha see Sir didn't even once i promise you, never told me to give up mu captaincy or anything. Kabhi nahi. Infact kitne bar he tried to protect me and defend me when selectors suggested diff captain. Par ye jo meetings ka stress tha na vo kabhi kabhi matches mein bhi dimaag mein aata tha, and you know how i feel when i cant concentrate achese. So directly he didn't say or do anything bas unke ghusse ke stress se I used to get disturbed in feild so to avoid compromising my batsmen self i let my captainself go. Kyunki i know how dependent team gets on me to score with bat, cant compromise anymore with that."
MSD'S POV:
Hearing Cheeku's explanation i realised two things, one that I'm proud of my boy. He understood what his team needs, what his own self needs when it comes to this game. And two my very respected dada pressurised him and probably the reason why he defended Virat was cause he knew me, Yuvi, sonu, all of us will understand what he's doing with Cheeku in those meetings behind our backs. I kept my second realisation to myself but didn't hesitate to express my first.
"I'm proud of you beta! I'm so so so so so proud of you! You realised what your team and what batsman Virat Kohli needs and didn't hesitate to implement that. Your dedication to this game makes you the person you are bacha! Whenever i think i can't be more proud of you, you surprise me and make me so much more proud!"
Virat's eyes shined with my words, his face started blooming with happiness as he gave me his typical 'Mahi bhai's Cheeku' smile. He cutely giggled and thanked me for my words.
After some time I realised I had to address certain things he said and he has in his mind, so that he remembers no one can ever be as proud of him as I am always and that HE matters, nothing else does.
"Vee bache listen to what I'm going to say very carefully okay?" I asked to gain his attention and he nodded yes in response.
"Zindagimeim kuch bhi ho, koi bhi tere saamne khada ho. Koi bhi i mean KOI BHI. I would always stand by YOUR side. Mein Tere saath TERE liye ladunga HUMESHA. Aur ussike saath i need you to stand up and fight for Yourself too! You said you fought for everyone right? But what about you bacha? Who will fight for you? Tujhe Yaad hain what you told me once when I took the blame and refused to fight for myself?" I enquired.
Virat didn't answer, I assume he knew what he said but I'll remind him, because right now it seems he forgot his own words.
"Mein batata hun, tune kaha tha 'Bhai mein aapke liye humesha ladhta rahunga, sabse aur agar jaroorat padhe toh aapse bhi. Par mere ye sab karne ka kya faayda agar aap khush apne liye ladhna nahi chahte ho toh? Aapko meri fikar ho toh aap apni kadar karna sikhlo' yaad aaya kuch?"
When I didn't get any response from him I continued, "Exactly, tujhe khudko bhi ye words apply hote hain! Sabke liye ladh Cheeku mein mana nahi kar raha aur na hi ye Keh raha hun ke tu akela hoga kisi bhi ladhai mein, par bache khudke liye ladhne lag! Mein Tere saath hu Tere har ek fight mein! Duniya mein kisise, kahi bhi darne ke jaroorat nahi hain! Samja? Mein tujhe sabke upar trust karunga aur agar kabhi galti hui tujhse ya mujhse phir bhi hum vo ek saath solve karenge! Samja?"
Virat nodded smiling sheepishly at me, "Mein try karunga bhai pakka!"
I patted his head as encouragement and questioned, "Aur ha mere life mein 3 best decisions hain kon konse pata hain?" Virat cutely gave me confused look.
I chuckled at his look elaborating my point, "Cricket, Sakshi that is meri family aur Tu. Tum tinose judi har ek cheez har ek decision Meine bada soch samajhke liya hain. Meine jab bola tha na you'll get your team win more games than what I did? I meant it. Aur shaayad Teri memory weak hain meri nahi, toh mein teresa bada hun umar mein. Kyunki statistically tu merese jyaada jheeta hain. Aur you are Fucking best literally BESTEST captain!!"
I could see him ready to argue so I warned him, "Do NOT argue on this" on which he pouted.
"Unn sabko ye dikhta hain ke Meine trophy laayi hain Par ek trophy bas ek, uske alava har trophy lana possible tune kiya hain, ye unko accept nhi karna. Koi na koi tarike se you've helped us to get till finals and win those games. Aur jo mindset tune change kiya hain hun sabka, vo unn sab AC mein baithne vaale ko kya hi pata. Meri Baat humesha yaad rakhna as captain, vice captain, teammate, brother, as senior, junior, colleague, friend, bestfriend, you fucking nail every role in all of our lives!"
By the time I ended my speech, virat had happy tears in his eyes. He quickly hugged me thanking me.
"Thank you bhai I- I love you so much"
"I love you more bache! I'll always protect you! Tu meri life mein kitna important hain ye tu bhi nahi samaj sakta, tere bina sab adhoora lagta hain. Mein tujhe bacha avai hi nahi bolta, ti hain mera bacha! Mein humesha hun tere saath okay?" I reassured him.
Virat sniffed and snuggled more into our hug as I patted his head. I'm not gonna forgive or forget what those people did with him. They'll pay but without Virat knowing anything about it.
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I have some more plot for this, I dont know if I'll post that yet, if I complete that plot I'll post :)
Till then bye .