(Mattheos Pov)
February 29th
"Happy birthday Mattheo!" Said Sierra jumping on the bed.
"Are you excited for your party?"
"I am." I said.
She lied on top of me and ran her fingers through my hair.
Draco came and sat next to us.
"Happy birthday mate." He said dapping me up.
"Thanks man." I said.
I was 17.
(Draco's Pov)
Classes ended and it was time to get ready for Mattheos party.
"You almost done in the washroom?" Asked Mattheo.
Sierra didn't respond.
We opened the door and she was standing there with her head against the counter.
"Hey what's wrong." Said Mattheo lifting her head up.
"I have to do my hair and makeup but I can't." She said.
"You don't have to do it." I said.
"I can't go there looking like this. I have so much acne right now and my hairs frizzy."
She started freaking out and had a breakdown.
Sierra was mentally improving but she still had her moments.
"It's okay, no tears princess." Said Mattheo.
I watched as her face went red.
Princess, never heard that one before but she seems to like it.
I grabbed her from Mattheo with a bit of a yank and felt my old self come out.
"I'll do your hair and makeup.
You just stand there and look pretty." I said.
"Do you know how?" She asked.
"I know a thing or 2 about blending.
And straightening hair can't be hard."
"Mattheo go get ready, I've got her." I said.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"I said I've got her."
Fuck that slipped out.
Mattheo left the washroom and shut the door.
"What was that?" Said Sierra crossing her arms.
"Nothing." I said.
I turned the straightener on and tied half of her hair.
"Try not to slouch darling."
She put her head against the counter and started sobbing.
Fuck.
"I can't believe your doing this for me."
"It's okay darling. Could you hold this for me as I straighten this piece" I asked.
"Hm? Could you do that for me?" I asked lifting her jaw.
(Mattheos Pov)
Thought he was over his possessiveness but I guess not.
I walked over to Theos dorm so I could use his washroom.
"Happy birthday." He said.
He stood shirtless in the door frame.
"What are you doing here?" Said Theo.
"I need to use your washroom."
"Nows not be the best time." Said Theo.
Suddenly 2 girls came up behind him.
"You can use the washroom, we don't mind."
Said one of them.
I walked in and smelt the sex.
"So you've been busy." I said to Theo.
Theo laughed.
"This is Valeria, my um girlfriend." He said.
GIRLFRIEND.
Guess she's been taking my spot in this dorm.
"And his is her friend Francesca." Said Theo.
"Damn your fucking her and her best friend?"
I said grinning.
Theo shook his head at me smiling.
"Has the birthday boy gotten any birthday sex yet?" Asked Francesca.
"I have not." I said.
"Why not?" She asked.
She walked over to me and ran her hand along my jaw.
"Stop harassing the poor guy."
Said Valeria.
Both Valeria and Francesca looked like models.
They were absolutely stunning head to toe.
And I was so fucking horny.
Sometimes jerking off isn't enough.
"Come let's turn this threesome to an orgy."
Said Francesca.
She ran her hand on my V line and I felt the blood rush to my dick.
Theo looked at me and shrugged his shoulders.
But I couldn't do that to Sierra.
Francesca lowered her hand and started playing with the waistband of my underwear.
She went to reach inside but I stopped her.
"I'm sorry I can't." I said.
"Fine, your loss." She let me go and I walked over to the washroom.
Sierra and I aren't dating but it just felt wrong.
(Draco's Pov)
"Not bad." She said looking at herself in the mirror.
We walked into the common room and Blaise, Luna, Pans and Enzo were already there.
We sat on the sofas and poured drinks.
Draco sat me on his lap and wrapped his arms around me.
Moments later the doors open.
I watched as Mattheo and Theo walked in with 2 other girls.
One of them held Theos hand which was fine. But I didn't like how the other one looked at Mattheo.
I've seen girls obsess over them all the time.
I mean it was a given the second I met them.
I understood that Mattheo and Draco were loved by basically all girls.
So I got used to it.
But Merlin save me because these 2 were absolute goddesses.
They both wore skin tight dresses and I swear I could cut myself on their abs.
Their hair flowed down their chests and bobbed as they walked.
Speaking of their chest holy fucking shit.
They had boobs that were actually visible.
I looked at Pansy and she looked back at me with widened eyes.
I watched as Draco, Enzo and Blaise dropped what they were doing and stared.
"God dammit." I whispered.
"Don't worry." Whispered Draco rubbing my thigh.
He said not to worry but he said it holding eye contact with the girls.
I felt a pit in my stomach and subconsciously started fixing my hair.
I was still in his lap but I felt his grip around me loosen.
One of the girls sat on Theos lap and the other sat next to Mattheo.
"Guys this is Valeria, she's my girlfriend."
Said Theo.
Gasps were heard across the room.
Atleast I didn't have to worry about her since she was dating Theo.
"Nice to meet you." She said.
"This is her friend Francesca." Said Theo.
"Hi boys." She said waving.
God her voice was all high pitched and cute.
I hate it.
"I walked into Theos dorm and they were all shagging. So I thought why not invite them."
Said Mattheo.
"No way you pulled them both." Said Draco.
"Hey this one's mine she just came for the ride." Said Theo kissing Valeria's cheek.
"I fucking loved the ride." Said Francesca.
Fuck she had banter.
"Congrats." Said Enzo bumping his fist.
"I never would have thought you would go for a year 7." Said Blaise.
Fuck they were a bit older.
Now I felt even more insecure.
"I'm Draco." He said holding his hand out to her. She shook his hand and smiled.
Suddenly Theo said something in Italian and the girl replied back.
"You can speak Italian?" I said.
"Yup and French." Said Francesca.
Of fucking course.
Draco then said something in French and she responded back laughing.
Draco lifted me off of him and went to get some food.
Francesca went up and followed him.
I watched from a distance as they spoke.
She was so touchy.
Hitting his shoulder, grabbing his face, or hands.
"You alright?" Said Theo looking at me.
"Mmhm." I said back.
"Don't worry about Franny, she flirts with everyone. She asked Mattheo to shag her the second they met." Laughed Valeria.
My stomach dropped and I looked at Mattheo.
"I said no." Said Mattheo.
"You can shag whoever you want." I said.
Of course I didn't mean that.
Mattheo gave me a smile and poured another shot.
I looked back by the food and they were gone.
"Pans let's go for a walk." I said.
I think she got the memo since she immediately stood up.
(Draco's Pov)
This Francesca girl was hot.
It was obvious she had a thing for me but Sierras who I like.
I'm only talking to her for a bit of fun.
"So you seem like your good with your dick, let's shag. Don't limit yourself to one person."
"We shouldn't."
"What happened to the Draco who slept with everyone?" She asked slowly leading her hands down my stomach.
"He's gone." I said.
I felt her hands reach my belt and I watched as she unbuckled it.
"So your saying I'm not tempting?"
She kneeled in front of me and gave me those eyes.
I haven't had sex since December.
I've had a 2 month period of no sex.
"I can see your boner." She said smiling.
"Don't you want me to help you release?" She asked innocently.
I felt myself go hard and I felt my breath speed up.
She was beautiful, older, and definitely experienced.
She went to pull my trousers down but I moved her hand away.
"Sorry but no." I said.
I walked away before I could change my mind.
We walked back to the sofas and she sat next to Mattheo.
"Where's Sierra?" I asked.
"She said she needed to go for a walk." Said Enzo.
I got up to look for her.
I left the common room and saw her and Pansy.
"Sierra wait." I yelled.
She stopped and waited for me to catch up.
"Why aren't you at the party?" I asked.
"Why are you here? I thought you were busy getting sucked off by Francesca." She said.
"What are you on about?"
"I went to go look for you and I saw her kneeled in front of you with her hands on your belt."
"Clearly you didn't watch because I pushed her hand away." I said.
"I'm not gonna watch unlike you that time when Mattheo and I fucked on the astronomy tower."
"YOU KNEW I WAS THERE?" I said.
"Of course. I saw you. Then I told Mattheo I loved him to piss you off." She said.
Well, this was news to me.
"I truly did love Mattheo but after that experience with you I was afraid to tell him.
Then I saw the opportunity to make you jealous so I took it.
It was a win win." She said.
Jealous,
I knew what this whole thing was about now.
"Wait a fucking minute. Are you jealous?"
I asked smirking.
The reason why it went over my head was because girls hit on me all the time.
Sierra never gives a shit. Now I'm not sure what changed.
"No I wasn't jealous."
"Then what's the problem?" I asked grabbing her hand.
"Fine I was jealous." She said.
"Girls hit on me and make moves on me everyday, what's the difference?" I asked.
"I think I should leave." Said Pansy.
"The second she walked in you couldn't take your eyes off her.
Then she said she spoke French which means you have something in common.
Then she followed you to the food and started laughing.
Next thing I know she's inches away from sucking you off." Said Sierra.
"Are you being,
possessive?" I asked dramatically.
"This isn't a joke Draco." I could tell she was frustrated but possessive was a hot look on her.
"She's literally a fucking model why would you reject her. She was gonna give you what I haven't been in months." She said.
"Sex?" I asked.
Sierra nodded with tears in the corner of her eyes.
I grabbed her face and laughed.
"Darling if you think I'm upset we haven't been shagging your completely wrong.
Sure I get horny but I'd never fuck you until your ready.
I know you got the wrong impression of me the second I met you on the train, but I'm not a sex addict anymore."
"Can you just not talk to Francesca anymore I really don't like it." She said.
"I won't even go near her." I said.
I placed a firm kiss on her forehead and grabbed her hand.
"Let's go back." I said.
We opened the door and holy shit.
Francesca was eating Mattheos face.
The make-out seemed like more then a make-out.
"It's his birthday and he's wasted. Give the man a break." I said to Sierra.
"He hasn't talked to me once since the party started." She said.
We walked over and we sat down.
"Join us we're playing spin the bottle."
Said Theo.
"Thank Merlin." Whispered Sierra.
"My turn." Said Theo.
He spun the bottle and it landed on Pansy.
Theo reached over and they made out.
I saw the look on Enzo's face it was quite funny.
"I'll go." Said Sierra.
She spun the bottle and it landed on Blaise.
Sierra smiled. She reached over and started kissing Blaise.
(Sierras Pov)
Draco was about to spin the bottle but we heard the door open.
It was Olivia.
"You made it!" I said excitedly.
I invited Olivia but was unsure if she was coming.
(Mattheos Pov)
Holy shit what's she doing here?
I got up and ran over with Sierra.
I picked her up and spun her around.
I gave her a kiss on the cheek and she smiled.
"Happy birthday." She said.
"Thank you." I said back.
"Come play with us." Said Sierra grabbing her hand.
She can't play spin the bottle she's 15.
"You guys remember Olivia." Said Sierra.
I decided to invite her to Mattheo birthday.
"Aren't you in like year 4?" Asked Francesca in a bitchy tone.
"Is that a problem?" I asked.
"Guess not." Said Francesca rolling her eyes.
"Nice to meet you Olivia I'm Valeria."
She said giving her a hug.
"We're playing spin the bottle, play with us." Said Valeria.
"She shouldn't." I said.
"Why not." Asked Olivia.
I didn't really have a response other then jealousy.
No one else deserved to kiss her.
"Come on Mattheo don't be so lame." Said Pans.
"Fine." I said.
Draco spun the bottle and just my fucking luck.
It landed on Olivia.
Draco looked up at her and then at me with a grin.
He loved fucking with me.
"Hey I can't control where the bottle lands."
He said raising his hands.
Everyone quieted down and waited for him to make his move.
He stood up, grabbed her face and smirked at me again.
Olivia sat there like a helpless little puppy.
This is the whole reason why I didn't want her playing.
What if she didn't want this but was to shy to say it.
What if she was uncomfortable.
"Don't do it." I said glaring at him.
I grabbed Olivia's waist pulling her towards me.
"Sit you fucking ass down." I said to Draco.
"Only cause it's your birthday." He said back.
"Alright I'll spin again."
He spun the bottle and it landed on Francesca.
"Fucking finally." She said.
(Sierras Pov)
I hate this dumbass game.
It could have landed on literally anyone else.
Well it did but Mattheo shut that down quick.
Francesca walked over to Draco and pushed him back on the couch.
She got on top of Draco and kissed him with her perfect fucking lips.
He grabbed her waist as she sat on top of them and she started slowly grinding.
I wanted to cry.
Finally he pushed her off and she sat back down.
Why would he tell me all of that earlier just to kiss her minutes after.
I was uncomfortable with it and he knows I'm already not in the best headspace.
What a fucking dick.
I felt a tear drip down and quickly wiped it.
"Excuse me for a moment." I said walking away.
(Draco's Pov)
I fucked up.
I didn't realize she would kiss me like that but once she started I couldn't just push her off.
And then she started grinding on me so I stopped her.
But fuck it felt good.
It really has been long since I've gotten anything, but I just promised Sierra.
I got up and followed her.
I saw her turn the corner of the hall and caught up.
"Get the fuck away from me." She said crying.
"Sierra it was a game."
"Why would you do that to me? 10 minutes ago you said you wouldn't go near her.
Then you let her grind on you.
I fucking knew I wasn't enough." She said walking away.
"And I'm already struggling you just made it 10 times worse." She said sobbing.
What was wrong with me.
She apparated away.
"FUCK." I yelled.
I went back to the common room and everyone was sort of scattered around doing their own thing.
"Mattheo I fucked up." I said.
"I could have told you that the second you kissed Francesca in front of Sierra."
Said Mattheo.
"You kissed her too." I said.
"I stopped the second I saw Sierra walk in."
"You kissed Francesca?" Asked Olivia.
"As part of the game." Said Mattheo.
"Did you like it?" She asked.
"She's older then you, were you like into that?" Asked Olivia.
I walked away and left the 2 alone.
(Mattheos Pov)
"I think this party is coming to its end.
Let's walk around the halls." I said grabbing Olivia's hand.
We left the room and started walking around.
"You didn't answer my question." She said.
"I mean the kiss was good." I said casually.
"So your 15 now. Happy late birthday.
What's new with you." I asked changing the conversation.
"No. What's new with you Mattheo?"
She said back.
"Same old." I said.
"Something happened didn't it. You seem off."
Said Olivia.
How did she know?
"I've just been stressed." I said.
"Why?" She asked.
"I'm gonna tell you a bunch of shit but you can NOT repeat it. Understand me?" I said.
I grabbed her hand and apparated us to my dorm.
I got there only to find Sierra sobbing.
"What's wrong?" Asked Olivia running over.
"Nothing I'm okay." She said.
"Draco was looking for you." I said.
"Good let him look." She said angrily.
I wanted to talk to Olivia about what's going on.
But I felt like I needed to stay with Sierra.
But I'm sure she'll l be fine on her own for a bit.
"Sorry for bothering you good luck with Draco."
I said.
I grabbed Olivia's hand and we apparated to the astronomy tower.
I then heard banging.
We walked around the corner and saw Draco.
His fists were bloody and he was panting.
"This is all your fault." He said pushing me.
"You just had to have a stupid party, and you had to invite Francesca." Said Draco pushing me again.
"There's no fucking way your tryna say that you kissing Francesca was my fault." I said.
"Fuck you."
"Sierras in our dorm sobbing because of you by the way." I said.
"Ok I get it." He said then apparated away.
"What's wrong with everyone?" Asked Olivia.
I explained everything that happened with Sierras dad, and I explained Dracos task.
"Wow I wish I could help." Said Olivia.
"There's one more thing." I said.
I explained what a horcrux was and how my dad made multiple.
Then I said it.
"My dad made me a horcrux."
"HE DID WHAT?" Said Olivia.
"Yeah." I said.
I felt my voice break.
I was embarrassed to cry I'm front of her but I couldn't hold it in.
"Fucking hell." I said then sat down.
She kneeled in front of me and grabbed my jaw with her hands.
"Don't l-look at me." I said.
"It's okay to cry Mattheo."
She kneeled in front of me and wrapped her arms around me rubbing my back.
"I don't know what to say." She said.
"Don't then. Just hold me."
I've never said those words out loud.
I've never been held like this.
I've never been the one receiving comfort.
She ran her fingers through my hair and I cried into her.
I felt like I could tell her anything and she wouldn't judge me for it.
I didn't get what Sierra meant when she said she feels safe around Draco and I.
But I get it now.
It felt nice being the vulnerable one for a change.
(Draco's Pov)
I apparated to my dorm and saw her on the bed with her eyes closed.
She opened them and stood up.
"I'm not doing this shit right now I just finished crying." She walked into the washroom and slammed the door.
"You may not be able to see me but you can't block out my voice." I said standing by the washroom door.
"Your so fucking annoying." She said walking back out.
She walked by shoving against me, and I grabbed her waist.
"Get your filthy fucking hands off me."
She said.
"Can you please just hear me out?" I said.
"Your not giving me a choice." She said back.
I put my head in my hands out of frustration.
"Why are your knuckles bloody." She said.
"I did it to myself." I said.
"I can't believe I'm about to do this."
She went to the washroom and came back with a cloth.
She grabbed my hands and cleaned the blood up.
I smiled at her and she glared.
"Say whatever it is you wanna say and then leave me alone."
"I know you expressed the way you felt about her.
And I told you nothing was gonna happen but then we kissed.
The kiss was part of the game but it went completely against what I said to you.
I know you feel disrespected and what I did was wrong. I'm sorry."
She looked up at me with red eyes.
"Please don't cry darling." I said begging.
"Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough for you."
She said.
Those were the last words I ever want to hear.
"What makes you feel that way?" I asked.
"This whole thing with my dad happened and now I'm ruining things for you and Mattheo.
I'm sad all the time I ruin your mood, Mattheos mood.
I break down over everything,
I distract you guys from focusing on your own issues.
I take up so much of your energy and I can't help it.
And I can't help you.
Your problems are worse then mine.
You have a shitty home life and your a death eater.
And I know about your task,
Mattheo let it slip accidentally.
You get overwhelmed easily and I'm only worsening the cause.
I'm like a bad luck charm I feel like the second I got here things went to shit."
If that's what she truly believe she's insane.
I sat next to her on the bed and grabbed her hands.
"Your the reason I'm alive. If I hadn't met you and then was put under all this pressure.
I would have ended it for myself.
Your the only one who keeps me going.
I wanna stay alive for you.
Your one of the only good things I have in life and what we have is different.
I don't wanna lose that and I don't wanna lose you." I said.
She started sobbing.
"I'm not good enough for you,
I'm not enough for anyone."
I sat her in my lap facing me.
She tried facing away but I grabbed her face.
"Sierra you are enough. Do you understand me?
Your all I want and more. Your all Mattheo wants and more. Even Theo had a thing for you."
"That was a long time ago but I'm fucked up now."
The fact she didn't believe me was frustrating.
"Sierra your not listening. You are perfect.
Sometimes shitty things happen but that doesn't change who you are."
"But this is changing me. I'm not the same person I was months ago."
"Somewhere deep down you are. You just have to find it again." I said.
"What if I can't." Her voice sounded desperate.
I kissed her forehead and looked her in the eyes.
"You will."