Back at the house
4:45 p.m
Monday
We got home from downtown about 3 hours ago and now everyone was chillin in their rooms.
Jacob had fell asleep in the bed and I was watching a show on Netflix.
"Y/n can I come in" Harper said slightly opening the door. "Yeah" I replied.
"Can I talk to you" she whispered, "of course, where do you wanna talk?" I asked.
" The living room works, Bryce is asleep and so is Jacob so they won't bother us" she said.
I paused the show and slowly got off the bed to not wake Jacob.
We walked to the living room and sat on the couch. I covered up in the throw blanket and she wrapped up in the other.
"So what's up?" I asked.
"So uhm..." she stuttered.
Something's wrong..
She's not looking at me..
"You can tell me anything red" I smiled, gently placing my hand on her cheek and rubbing it with my thumb.
A tear rolled down the other side of her face and immediately she began to bawl.
"I... I wanted to relapse" she confessed.
⚠️TW⚠️: Mentions Self Harm!
"Oh red" i got up and walked around, sitting right behind her and I pulled her into a hug. She turned over, laying her head on my chest and I ran my fingers through her hair.
"It's okay" I said. "It's part of healing" I added.
"Wanting to relapse is completely normal when sobering up" I said.
"It was so bad, I've been doing so well and... and I was so set on doing it again because everything was getting so bad and I just" she rambled.
"Shhh. It's okay" I said.
Harper struggled with self harm all through High-school, she's been getting better about it and has been sober for 6 months and I'm extremely proud of her for it.
She told me about it in our sophomore year when she decided she wanted to stop. She stayed sober the first time for a month and a half until her mental he's dropped again and she had relapsed.
"I'm proud of you for telling me, and I'm even prouder that you had the control to stop yourself from relapsing even when it's all you wanted to do" I said.
"It wasn't as hard as last time but the fact that I even wanted to scares me" she sobbed.
"It's all apart of the process, after a while you won't even think about relapsing. But you've made a crazy amount of progress already" I replied.
"Yeah" she whispered.
"Are you proud of yourself?" I asked.
She paused, thinking about her answer.
"Yeah." She said.
"Sophomore you would be really really proud too" I smiled.
"Yeah she would be" she said.
I looked up to see Bryce standing at the end of the hallway leaning against the wall.
He looked worried, and slightly teary eyed.
He's known since junior year, when he caught her in the act one night while he was hanging out with her brother.
If he hadn't found out that night he probably would've never known.
He mouthed "can I come over there?" I thought for a moment and nodded.
He does a good job comforting her, and I'm sure a hug wouldn't hurt.
He walked over and stood in front of the couch.
"You heard me?" She asked.
"Mhm" he hummed in response with a sad look on his face.
"oh" she said.
She stood up and wrapped her arms around his torso, he wrapped his around her neck.
I love their height difference it's literally perfect for them. He's 5'10 and she's 5'2.
They stood there for a minute and i just watched as Bryce slowly swayed with her in his arms. She was still slightly crying though.
"I'm so proud of you" he whispered.
He lifted her chin with his finger making her look at him. He moved his hands from her chin to her cheeks.
He wiped her tears with his thumbs and smiled. "Your pretty even when you cry" he said.
AWWWW
"And that says a lot because your definitely an ugly crier" he chuckled. She laughed and shoved him a little bit.
"Your supposed to be comforting me not pointing out my flaws" she chuckled.
"You have no flaws Harper. I'm just simply stating a fact about you" he smiled, his eyes filled with love.
She blushed and put her head against his chest, looking the other way.
THEYRE SO DAMN CUTE.
"y/n!" Jacob yelled.
oh no
I jumped up and ran to the room, "What? Are you okay? What happened!" I yelled.
"Nothing" he smiled.
"You fucking scared me" I sighed.
"Aww we're you worried" he smirked.
"Nah I was excited. Obviously I was worried" I said sarcastically.
He got up from the bed and walked over to me, placing his hands on my waist. His smirk never left his face which made me question him.
he's gonna throw me..
No.. he's gonna pick me up and take me outside on the dock and toss me into the water...
"Jacob day I swear if you try anything I won't be giving you any attention for the rest of this trip" I said sternly.
He laughed and pulled me closer, placing a kiss on my lips and then wrapping his arms around me pulling me into a hug.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed my neck.
"I love you" he said.
"I love you too" I smiled.
"I'm seriously so grateful for you and everything you've done for me and our friends and family, you do your best to make everyone feel happy and loved and I'm incredibly grateful for it. We don't deserve you baby" he said.
The smile one my face has grown about 10 times in size.
Those words warmed my heart and soul, he makes me feel so appreciated and needed.
I love this man so much.
"No I don't deserve y'all. My life would be hell without you guys" I replied.
"And mine would be even worse without you. You know how miserable and lonely I'd be if my soulmate wasn't in my life" he said, standing back up.
"You think I'm your soulmate" I smiled.
"I know you're my soulmate" he said.
"No one has every made me feel the way you do. No matter how hard anyone tries no one can love me as much as you do or make me happy as easily as you do. No one knows how to deal with my problems and anger issues and shit like you do." He said.
"There is quite literally no one like you Y/n Y/L/n" he added.
My face hurts from smiling right now.
He kissed me again but this time it was longer.
"That was the cutest most beautiful moment I have seen all year" Harper said.
"Wait wait say it again Let me take notes for when I get a girlfriend damn" Bryce laughed.
We all laughed. "We should get ready for boating we need to leave soon if we wanna actually see the sunset" i said.
Everyone went to their rooms to change.
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I am so so sorry for not posting in like forever. I can't promise that I'm gonna start uploading persistently again but I will say that my writers block has definitely gone away so I will be trying to write more! Love you guys! Thanks for reading<333