NOT AN UPDATE BUT AN IMPORTANT NOTE
Today is March 1st, while I am writing this. It is a Friday. There are 86400 seconds in one day.
86400/40=2160.
Today 2160 people killed themselves. On October 24, 2012 I desperatly tried to be one of those 2160.
March 1st in self harm prevention day. To all my SWS friends, Wrist Are For Bracelets, Not Cutting <3
I was caught with self harming on February 22, exactly 1 month after my 14th birthday.
If you ever want to harm yourself I don't care what time, message me. I hate seeming like a hipocrite so notice I'm not saying I don't want to cut. I want to. I really do. I want to slice my scarred white skin open with a razor so desperatley - but right now, I'm not. I'm not cutting. Even though I want to, I'm not.
I'm not telling you I am happy. I'm honestly not. If you gave me a handful of pills I'd swallow them.
But what I want you to know is before you cut too deeply think about what happens when you're caught. You might think you won't be caught, but you will. What if you are an adult, or 16 and going into surgery and THEN they notice the self harm scars. You will recover in a mental hospital.
I love you, please don't harm yourself. Please don't start. This update might never happen, but it might. If you are reading this think about what if your suicide attempt doesn't work? Mine didn't and I have to remember it. I will always remember it. I don't want you to.
Please, just message me before you do it. Whether I'm on or not. Inbox me. Message me. I don't care. Don't hurt yourself. You are beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you that you aren't attractive. Everyone is beautiful. No one needs to harm themselves. It's not needed, and do you know how it feels to sit in front of your mum listening to her tell you, "When you cut yourself its like cutting me. You're cutting me. You're self harming your mother." What its like to have to lie to her and tell her, "No, mum, I haven't tried to kill myself."
Inbox me.
This was written March 1, 2013. Authors note still stands to this day.