Spider 16:
What's up mentlegens, welcome to my brand new let's play of...whatever the heck this is.
It's been a while since I reincarnated into what I'm pretty sure is a video gamey fantasy world or something along those lines.
And guess what? I am a spider now.
Yes, a freaking spider of all the things I could have become.
Like, why? Just why?!
For duck's sake I would rather be a tree than this!
No sheet, I once played a tree in a mandatory drama show in elementary...
'That time I got Reincarnated as a Tree' huh?
What would the story even be about beyond the obvious?
The consequences of deforestation and destruction of the environment in general perhaps?
That would be intellectually stimulating if done properly, I would definitely read that.
Or y'know, some ecchi sheet for us horndogs.
I have seen enough hentai to imagine where this would go...
But more importantly, aren't isekais supposed to be better than this?!
Ain't I supposed to become an overpowered hero or something?!
Loved by a harem, the world and all?!
And most importantly, go on a journey to become the best I can be?!
Y'know, an otaku rehab so I can finally be proud of myself and not just pretending to?!
Nai wa! Sigh...
I thought about killing myself, no seriously, that wasn't a joke.
But I couldn't do it, I suppose there still exists that spark of hope in me that refuses to let things end like this.
If only that spark is strong enough to actually motivate me to live life to the fullest.
Nai wa...
I am stuck in a giant cavern system by the way.
I tried to look for an exit but gave up soon after.
Why? Because this cave is way too big and dangerous!
I mean, this place is populated with actual Monsters!
We have deers with dangerous-looking horns, wolves with six legs, and bats that look like hellspawns!
No way a dainty newborn spider can handle all this!
Nai wa! Sigh...
Unless something miraculous happens to save me, I will just have to live here till I die of ageing or whatever, aka passive suicide again, wasting my life away doing nothing of note.
So if you ignore the danger of my current environment, not much actually changed between my past life and this life, hedonistic as always.
Disappointing as all that is, I doubt I would have been able to handle actual character development in a grand fantasy adventure to save the world or whatevs anyway.
Nai wa...
Right now I'm chilling in my new crib.
Not long ago, I ran from my new siblings who were eating each other, and from who I presume to be my new Mother who was eating my siblings as well.
I mean, come on! I have been denied the opportunity to make a 'Mum come pick me up I'm scared.' joke twice in a row now!
Inner Critic: Nai wa, your priorities are so backwards, Hiiro.
Seriously, I thought being neglected was bad, but being born into a family that's straight up trying to cannibalise each other? That's just ducking messed up dude!
And right after I was reborn too!
Like, I know there are many species of spiders who cannibalise their own kind.
But I already had a terrible family in my last life, why can't I get a better one in my second life, whoever is responsible for this nonsense?!
Nai wa! Sigh...
At least I got away.
Honestly though, I am surprised I didn't faint right then and there.
I remember almost passing out many times in my old life from fear or stress.
But I suppose I have only fainted twice in my old life actually so maybe I am just being pessimistic?
The first time I remember passing out is that one time in kindergarten when I tried too hard to maintain my top spot as the fastest runner despite my anaemia.
I overexerted myself, lost consciousness and gave up on being the fastest because I don't wanna feel that sore, sick and tired ever again.
The other time was when I tried to fight some bullies to protect someone else, pretty sure I got knocked out by one good witch slap.
And I might or might not have developed mild social phobia from that 'illuminating' experience.
Well, moving on from my pathetic past.
I spent all 100 of my Skill Points picking up [Appraisal], thinking it was a cheat Skill.
It definitely isn't.
Maybe it's because it's only at LV1 but it's basically useless.
Hm, the wall here is made of Wall.
I can tell! Darn it! I ain't that stupid!
Useless Appraisal-san, a load of help you are.
I bet at LV99 it will still not give me any useful info, just junk like the date of birth of the rock, its favourite flavour of ice cream or something stupid like that knowing my cursed luck!
And do you want to know the worse part? If I appraise too much at a time, I get a headache!
Maybe it's because I was trying to process too much info at once, but it's not like I even started on interpreting any of that before the headache hit me like the meteor that killed the dinos.
Nai wa! Sigh...
Later, after exploring the cave for a while, I settled down in a T-junction.
I used my thread to make a home there, then experimented with my webbing.
I'm pretty sure I almost killed myself when I entangled myself with my own web.
Inner Critic: Hiiro is such a dumbarse, lol.
Thank god I can still control the stickiness of my thread that is still connected to my butt and have a little bit of control on detached ones too.
Didn't change how embarrassing it was though. Nai wa...
Our next scheduled tragedy on this channel you are currently watching occurred when I was starving.
I had found and kept a corpse of one of my siblings, which I think was killed by Humans.
I mean, his / her claws and fangs have been precisely removed.
And there were footprints near the scene of the crime.
Judging by their size, I am pretty big myself, I say I am about as big as a normal house cat.
I don't like that at all, being a huge scary spider people will kill on sight.
But being a tiny spider that can get squished at any moment doesn't sound appealing either.
Just why do I have to be a spider again? Nai wa...
Anyway, I had nothing else to eat so what do you think I did?
I became a kin eater.
No seriously, I got the Title [Kin Eater].
It came with the Skills [Taboo] and [Heretic Magic].
I was excited at first but I have no idea how to use them.
They also sounded like something I don't want to have, being taboo and heretic and all.
And here I thought it was a reward for enduring the awful, bitter taste and texture of my late brother / sister. Nai wa.
Regardless, thank you for your unintended sacrifice, sibling of mine, I may not be alive right now without you.
I wish we got to work together as proper siblings to survive as a family instead of this morally questionable act for survival.
Rest in peace, I meant it.
Heck, I even made a gravestone, or gravesilk in this case, for him / her.
Fortunately, things started to improve after that, albeit painfully.
I caught my first prey with my home made from my webbing.
But before that, I fell face first dancing hoping to get a [Dancer] Title or something.
Inner Critic: Way to embarrass yourself, Hiiro.
At least no one was around to see that, unless there were ghosts about.
Will I get bullied in the afterlife?
Um, anyway, it was an Acid and Poison spitting frog and I took a lot of damage fighting it.
I mean, I lost part of my vision when it first attacked me.
I can only hope it's not permanent.
After learning my lesson that prey caught in my cobweb can still fight back, which should have been obvious but I am evidently dumb, I expertly dodged the stupid frog's disgusting attacks and bit him.
Then Mr Froggy barfed even more Acid and Poison on me!
It's so painful and humiliating!
So I got into its blind spot and bit him again, finally killing it.
And if all that wasn't bad enough, the stupid frog was poisonous too!
So on top of how gross it was to eat, it was actually painful to do so as well!
There is also the matter of...certain body parts and what they contain.
Y'know, waste created by the body and what it uses to eject them? Yuck!
Let's never bring this up again ever.
At least I have gained the [Acid Resistance] and [Poison Resistance] Skills from that painful and embarrassing ordeal.
No pain no gain, I guess.
Nai wa...
Kind of surprised by how angry I got back there.
I mean, angry enough to want to kill someone, though I guess I would hardly consider a frog to be someone even if I did call it Mr Froggy to humanise it, and I made a gravesilk for it anyway.
I figure I would just run away in fear instead but becoming a spider might have something to do with it, y'know, a natural killer instinct or something?
Idk if I am happy with that, even if it makes sense for a Monster to have it to help itself survive, unlike Humans who have developed past that and mostly live in a safe, controlled environment.
I am literally a Monster now, no longer Human like in my past life after all.
Right, my past life...
I was content with being a near shut-in neet in my past life, but part of me always wanted to be more, to be properly adjusted to Human society even if I lack the ability to change it for the better because the world sucks arse.
I was just too lazy, weak and afraid to change, so I put that ambition on the backburner.
As long as I didn't bother someone else, I was fine with my empty life.
Endlessly distracting myself with mangas, animes, video games etc.
But now? I don't even have the luxury of escapist fantasy.
...Hm, I wonder if mum will grieve my death?
Eh, probably not. Nai wa.
Our relationship was so non-existent I can't even remember her face, and I bet she can't remember mine as well.
Actually no, she definitely remembers my eyes at the very least, and glad that I am finally gone for good.
At most, she is probably only sad that I will no longer contribute rent money.
But I am sure that the large sum of money I was saving up to upgrade my PC will satisfy her for a while.
That and she is probably going to sell all my stuff.
Now that is a painful thought, not that I could get any of my belongings here anyway so oh well.
What about the others?
I was an overbearing chuunibyou to Miss Oka, Rep and Moonie.
I was an unbearable egomaniac to Clown, Lazy and Gung-ho.
I was a creepy stalker to Kyouya, Gay and Fanboy.
And I was a useless PE partner to Rihoko.
They won't miss me, why would they?
It's not like they own me anything.
If anything, I own them a lot for putting up with my flaws for so long.
Still, you would think I will miss my 'friends' and the 'bonds' I have with them.
But I find myself not really feeling much of anything about losing them.
Well, I suppose I did detach myself as best I could so I won't feel the pain of us drifting apart.
And I was also planning on cutting ties myself via ghosting to avoid that pain as well, since I would be in control and stuff.
Y'know, hurting yourself is better than being hurt by others?
Anyway, I guess that worked out better than I ever expected.
Though I can't help but feel a bit disappointed with myself for being so heartless or whatever the right word is.
Especially with Kyouya, did I really have a crush on him if I can stop caring about him so quickly, did I actually care at all to begin with?
Like, I only cared about the roles they filled, not the people themselves.
Seriously, I only really miss the much better food that is energy bars, my character Baldie that I worked so hard to build, my Kirby plushie I won at a carnival back in my kindergarten days, good times, and all the games, manga, anime and the like that I had collected.
I care more about characters in fiction than I do real people.
Am I somehow incapable of emotional attachment, to real life at least?
Wow, how inhuman of me, I guess I never really lived as a Human.
Me, a former Human? What a joke! Lmao!
So maybe it's fitting that I was reborn as a Monster instead.
You never appreciate something until you lose it.
I denied myself of my own humanity and now I can never get it back.
Inner Critic: Heh, you say it like you were ever capable of being honest and open to people in the first place. You were never gonna be anything more than an introverted mess, Hiiro.
Nai wa, don't call me out like that...
Still, in a way, I feel liberated.
I am a wild animal now, not a failure of a Human being.
I no longer have to deal with the expectations of being Human and the shame of failing to live up to them.
I can finally give up for good, no regrets.
I am a spider, a simple creature with a simple life.
So I'm a spider, so what?
Nothing beats being a shut-in neet!