𝐊𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐜'𝐞 𝐉𝐦𝐲𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐇𝐢𝐥𝐥 |𝟐𝟏|
𝐒𝐚𝐧 𝐃𝐢𝐞𝐠𝐨 , 𝐂𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐚
𝐕𝐨𝐭𝐞&𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭
❄︎❄︎❄︎❄︎❄︎❄︎❄︎
" Breakfast time ma ma " I said picking up Amor , it was now the next morning and neatless to say we both slept good under each other. I made sure she was protected , wasn't gonna let nothing happen to her anyway.
Du'mir got mad and left out last night and hadn't been back home since , I wasn't about to chase after nan nigga anymore. He got the nerve to try to pull me down the stairs with my niece in my arms.
Yeah , no.
" Mommy " Amor said reaching her hands out.
" I don't know when mommy is coming to get you , but you with auntie baby" I kissed her cheek.
I took out a fresh bowl , and poured cereal and almond milk in there since her mom didn't let her consume animal products.
I placed the spoon and handed her the cereal.
" Bitch !" She said randomly.
" Unt Unt , where you learned that cussing from?"
I was confused because her mother never cussed in front of her nor was she ever around anyone expect her mom and dad.
" You" She crossed her arms , then it stuck to me. Last night I facepalmed my self. I really hope she don't go back repeating this or it was gonna be a problem.
One thing I never wanted to teach Amor or any child of mine that violence is okay. It's not , and only reason I put up with it is because i'm grown.
When your grown you can do what you want.
" You didn't learn that from me , you learned that from bad guy okay?" I said referring to Du'mir.
" Bad guy?" She questioned.
" Yes , bad guy. When bad guy comes you run and hide okay?"
" Okay "
Good , i'm training her good.
" Eat your cereal , so we can go get you ready for the day. We are also going to go visit auntie's friend" I said referring to Zyare.
Zyare was a sneaky link that happened a couple of times , we were mainly just buddies though. We saw each other time to time when me and Du'mir was on bad terms. If you wanna say I was using him , then so be it.
I also had a plan to go see Glee tonight , since he wanted to see me real bad. We weren't doing anything though and that was stamped.
It's fuck Du'mir if i'm strong enough I might break up with him soon.
"Who ya friend " Amor asked.
" Someone I met , don't tell mommy ok?"
" Ok " She said and we pinky promised each other. I wet up her rag and washed her face off.
" All clean !" Amor said clapping her hands.
"Yes , all clean baby !" I said smiling at her beautiful self.
I grabbed a comb and brush out the restroom quickly wetting it and brushing her curls into a pony tail.
" Pretty girlll !" I said clapping while she twirled around.
" Ou , snap your fingers baby !" I instructed for her to do. She bust out laughing as I smiled admiring how pretty she was.
" Sassy !" Amor said.
" Yes , sassyyy !" I said grabbing her hand.
I think I want a daughter after watching her.
We walked out the door and locked it. While walking to our car we saw Du'mir pulling in and raising down his window.
" Wea' you heading to ?"
I looked at Amor as she immediately hid behind my leg and started about to cry.
" Why she did that?"
" Cause , you were scaring her last night and she think you a bad guy now" I said rolling my eyes.
" And' we heading to go get food , the end " I said not wanting to talk anymore.
" I ain't no bad guy " Du'mir said.
Sometimes I wonder what I saw in his nigga ? He ain't treat me right no way. I think it was the love he sometimes gave. I craved love real bad y'all , since a child.
I hopped inside my car buckling Amor up and handing her a juice and cookies to hold her til I get her a kids meal. I didn't know how long we were gonna be at Zyare house.
" Fuck !" I said facepalming myself , I need to go buy clothes for the club today. Did I mention how I got the job as a dance at the club. I no longer had to sell unless I wanted to.
" Bye !" I said pointing my middle figure at Du'mir hopefully he don't hit our car.
I drove off to Mcdonald's and off to Zyare house.
" Wassup kid " Zyare said leaning in for a hug. I hugged him back smelling his nice scented cologne. " You smell good "
" Thank yeww " He smiled showing his teeth. " Who lil' mama ? you ain't tell my you had a li' one " He said tryna dab Amor up only for Amor to hit his hand.
" Damn' yo daughter fiesty like you."
" That's my niece , fuck " I said rolling my eyes. I walked into his house and sat Amor on my lap while we sat in the living room.
" Why you brought lil mama over here ?" Zyare asked.
" I'm babysitting the fuck , it's a problem ?" I said mugging him.
" Nah , I was just saying it's a lil disrespectful to bring the baby around me and she don't know me. Look she mugging me and shit " He said pointing making me laugh.
" She will be fine , Amor stop mugging him the fuck " I said playfully.
" Anyway , how's work ?" Zyare asked causing me to look down. I really didn't like talking about it because I felt disgusted sometimes.
" Work is work , i'm quitting soon though just don't know when" I smiled down.
" I hope you realize yo worth soon" Zyare said.
" You saying you hope I realize my worth like you ain't fuck me and pay me to. You treated me just like how those other niggas did , you just wasn't disrespectful !"
" I know what I did , I'm just saying I can just tell you different and deserve better " He sighed placing his hands in his lap.
" I don't wanna talk about it , i'm going through enough already " I said.
" Wassup , you wanna talk about it ?" He looked up at me. He was really a friend before a fuck buddy.
" Nothing " I said lying , I didn't wanna tell him about my boyfriend.
" Family problems " I smiled.
" Those always be the worst , keep ya head up though gangsta "
I looked down seeing Amor mama calling which caused me to answer on the first ring. " Helloooo " I said.
" Where my baby ?" She said instantly.
" Right here , we at home you ready for me to bring her back ?" I lied.
" Y'all ain't no fucking house , Du'mir just called and told me y'all went somewhere else ?" Kaylyn said serious.
I think Ima get caught up y'all.
" We in the car , if you want me to bring her say !"
" You just said the house , don't play with me Kyonc'e bring my baby."
" Girl , Okay " I said hanging up the call.
" Bring her baby " Zyare said.
" Shut up " I said picking up Amor. " Say bye bye Zy " We both said waving.
I buckled her in her car and typing the gps to her mom house.
Seems like the only thing keeping me sane gets taken away , shit just never go right in my life. Not relationships , family ships , nothing.
" You gotta leave auntie " I said almost crying to Amor
" Okayy " She replied back nonchalantly.
" Here go ya damn baby girl ." I said handing her Amor.
" Where were y'all for real y'all had me scared ass fuck the way Du'mir was sounding. Y'all know I don't play about my creation " Kaylyn said.
" We were getting something to eat for real , She had mcdonald's ."
" Mhmm.. Okay we need to talk for real Kyonc'e , this some serious shit don't get mad " Kaylyn said directing for me to come inside.
My heart sunk to the bottom of my ass hearing this , I hope nobody died.
" Wassup sis ?" I said smiling.
" Amor go in your room !" She yelled.
" Do you be on the block for real ? and is you fucking with a nigga name Gleesh?"
My heart dropped wanting to know how she knew this.
" What the fuck , how you know ??"
" Girl , Amor daddy is friends with them niggas. Gleesh ain't no fucking good he got like 3 baby mamas. He disrespect them all and don't take care of his kids. I can't believe you out here fucking and sucking for a couple of bucks knowing I got you !" Kaylyn said making me almost shed a tear.
" I- I need my money okay ."
" Girl fuck that money , that money can't do shit when you out here depressed ass fuck because a nigga doing you wrong , and you got a fucking baby and raising it on your own. Tighten up sis !" Kaylyn said.
" This shit between me and you for real , wipe ya tears big sis got you. I want you off them streets and stop fucking with all them niggas. I swea' ima protect you to the day I die , I'll go crazy if anything ever happened to you."
" Can I tell you something ?" I wanted to finally open up about what's been going on these past few months.
" I'm all ears ."
" Du'mir ain't who he really is " I said crying.
" I'm calling out for help Kay bro." I said full blown crying at this point.
" This nigga fucking abusive , mentally abusive , physically Kay bro , I wanna leave so bad. I don't know how I don't wanna end up dead I'm scared "
I watched the look on Kay face turn from anger to sadness , I knew how she felt about me and hearing this just broke her down to.
" Sis , I told you he wasn't shit ! Man I told you he wasn't shit ! I knew he wasn't shit ! Mannn " She face palmed her self.
" I swea , he been keeping me away from all my friends , I miss tiara bro " I said crying.
She gave me a hug as I cried on her shoulder.
" I can only help you if you promise to never go back ?"
I felt Amor run out the room and give me a hug to causing me to get even more emotional.
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Thoughts ? Comments Concerns ?
Not gonna lie , this book about to get real emotional , graphic , and sum mo' .