I tell you i'm ok, but in reality I hid my true feelings. I try to let myself smile, laugh, but it never come's. I can't say I love you anymore. I can not think of you close to me. I try to get over it tell myself you don't mean it, but when you ignore me for helping you. Or when you call me a moron to my face I can not get over it. Why I hide it why can I not put on a smile well even I am not that strong. I wish I could be strong for you, but I just can't. I put my mask on every morning, but all my masks have no emotions. All my bridges have no end. I am sorry I am dead when I am around you. I'm sorry I am not who you want me to be I am so sorry.