Hello!
This is a part 2 of the Shirakawa fic where the guys were messing in his room and they found out Shirakawa still has feelings for reader
This is also the fifth to the last oneshot hehe
I almost forgot, Enjoy reading and stay safe!
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"Is this really a good idea?" Shirakawa asks Carlos, turning his eyes away from you just to ask Carlos the question
"Yes." Carlos comments, "Admit it, you're crazy for her." Carlos grins, "Why else would you keep all those letters you always claimed were sappy?"
Shirakawa didn't have an answer to that, so he remains silent as his eyes found their way back to you once more. You were now talking to your friend and you were laughing
He couldn't help but smile softly at the look of you smiling, it was the same just as the ones you always have whenever he wins a game, and it was always something that made him feel better
"Wow, what a stalker," Narumiya comments behind Shirakawa but Shirakawa just ignores Narumiya
"Hey, (First name)!" Narumiya yells out, making Shirakawa snap his head in Narumiya's direction, glaring at him. If it were any other person then it would have worked, but it was Narumiya
"She's looking!" Narumiya urges him to look back, and without any other choice, Shirakawa follows to see you actually looking in their direction
He was about to wave at you (Just as what the devil called Narumiya was saying behind him) but your face hardens as you break eye contact and turn back to your friend, talking to her
He watches as you leave towards the building
"What are you doing?" Narumiya hisses, "Follow her!" He pushes Shirakawa forward who glares at him for a second but still follows you
"(First name)!" He grabs your shoulder once he got close enough, making you stop walking
"Can we talk?" He clears his throat as he watches you and your friend exchange looks
"Don't worry, you can go." You reassure your friend who nods but not before glaring at Shirakawa and moving away
"So, what do you need?" You cross your arms in front of your chest as you stare up at Shirakawa, your expression cold
"I-I'm sorry." He had a whole script ready, and the guys even helped him make it, but now he couldn't find the words to say, his tongue was tied, and his mind blank
"For?" You continue to ask, you sounded almost bored that Shirakawa can't help but flinch slightly
"Hurting you." He sighs as you stare at him
"What part?" You finally open your mouth
"What?"
"What part are you actually sorry for? For hurting me during the relationship? Or after?" He could see your eyes suddenly starting to glisten
Shit. He didn't have an answer, he could say everything, but would you even be happy with that answer?
"I-I can't deal with this." You shake your head, already turning around and walking away
"Hey, wait." He calls out but you just ignore him
"Please?" He runs in front of you to see that some tears already fell down from your eyes
"No." You say, it was quiet but stern, "I waited for so long for you to appreciate me. I'm not going to wait for you again." You push him aside as he watches you leave, already feeling his heart ache
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"So, how did it go?" Narumiya finally asks in the midst of the tense silence surrounding their group, everybody can tell that it didn't go well with the look on Shirakawa's face. Everybody was also curious about how it happened, but Narumiya was the only one who had the guts to ask the question straightforwardly
"She said she wasn't going to wait for me again," Shirakawa feels his throat tighten so he clears his throat, not wanting to cry in front of his teammates
"Well...you really weren't that good of a boyfriend, to be honest," Yamaoka says as the others give him a look, basically telling him that he wasn't helping with anything
"I know." The others turn their head back to Shirakawa with wide eyes, surprised that he admitted it so openly
"But you still want her back," Carlos says, leaning back in his seat
"Yeah," Shirakawa looks down as he feels his ears heat up, he really did want you back. After he lost you he now sees how much of an asshole he was to you even when you were trying your best for the relationship
"Then," Narumiya jumps from his own chair before walking towards Shirakawa and pointing at him, "You're the one who has to win her heart now," Narumiya announces
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"This isn't going to work," Shirakawa scowls at the others as they wait by the entrance for you
"Yes, it will. Don't you know communication is the key?" Narumiya says in a matter-of-fact tone as Shirakawa sighs, as far as he knows Narumiya never even dated anyone
"There she is, go." Carlos pushes him softly as Shirakawa gives him a look before taking a deep breath and walking toward you
"Hey, Good morning." Shirakawa winces at his tone, he probably sounds like a robot with his greeting
"You again? What do you need Shirakawa?" You sigh, the wound was still there, despite it being months already. You loved him and no matter how distant he was at times you can't deny that there were still a lot of times that you were actually happy in the relationship. You thought you were already in the process of getting over him, even agreeing with your friend insisting that you go to some mixer with them, but here he was again, making it clear that you were far from over him
"Can we talk?" Shirakawa asks, hoping that you can sense his desperation
You take a minute to answer before you nod, following him to a more secluded place where students weren't walking around you
"Huh? Where are they going?" Narumiya's eyes follow Shirakawa
"Probably somewhere private," Carlos answers the ace who merely huffs, annoyed that he won't be able to watch it
"So what do you need?" You ask, not bothering to sound angry, you were too tired for it anyway
"I'm sorry." Shirakawa blurts out
You sigh, "Shira-"
"For yesterday, and for suddenly breaking up with you without any proper explanation and not being a good boyfriend when we were still together." He says in one breath as you close your mouth that you didn't notice was open
Shirakawa watches you stare at him, most likely taking in everything he said
"Are you sure you're Shirakawa?" You blurt out the question, and despite knowing that it was a serious conversation, Shirakawa couldn't help but feel offended by your question, and it most likely shows in his face
"Okay, sorry, just blurted it out." You mumble before taking a deep breath and looking up at Shirakawa
"What are you trying to achieve here Shirakawa?" You ask, "Are you playing me? Tricking me or-"
"No, it's nothing like that." Shirakawa stops you before you can further doubt his motives, he knows he messed up, but hearing you completely lose your trust in him still hurts
"Then why?"
"I just want to apologize for everything I did," Shirakawa says honestly
"Oh, okay." You smile at him
"I'll be completely honest with you." You start as Shirakawa nods, listening to every word you were about to say
"I'm still hurt by it, and if you're looking to get back with me...I don't know if I can do it." Your voice breaks at the end as Shirakawa's eyes widen, he was never good with comforting people
"But if you just want to be you know, friends or at least civil then I don't mind." You add in a hurry
"Friends is good." Shirakawa answers immediately, it wasn't what he had in mind, but being friends with you was already good for him, and who knows, it may be a good start to win back your trust
"Friends then." You smile weakly as you hold out a hand
"Friends." Shirakawa nods
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"But you don't want to be friends!" Narumiya stands from his seat and looks at Shirakawa in disbelief
"She made it clear that she wasn't ready to be in a relationship with me." Shirakawa crosses his arms as he stares up at Narumiya who was pacing back in forth in the room, it was almost amusing at how immersed he was in the whole thing
"Then we start from friends then move to lovers!" Narumiya claps his hands, "What can we do?" He starts thinking out loud as the others just decide to ignore him for the time being
"Do you have a plan?" Carlos asks Shirakawa who merely shrugs, honestly not sure what he needs to do
"I guess for now I'm good with being friends," Shirakawa answers honestly, slightly feeling embarrassed at the knowing grin on Carlos' face
"For now, huh," Carlos hums
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Shirakawa looks back on his watch before looking back up at the entrance of the gate, his eyes turning into slits as he tries looking for you among the students entering the school for classes
"Don't make it look like you're waiting for her," Narumiya whispers loudly as Shirakawa whips his head in the direction of the ace's voice
"What are you doing here?" Shirakawa demands but Narumiya just ignores him as his eyes widen
"She's here, make it look like you're with us." Narumiya pulls Shirakawa to make it look like the two of them were together as you walk towards the school door
"Oh, good morning, Shirakawa." You smile softly as you look up to see Shirakawa glaring at Narumiya
But at the sound of your voice, Shirakawa immediately turns his head towards you, clearing his throat as he tries to smile back
"Good morning," He greets back
"Oh, (First name)!" Narumiya greets you, "You're going in too? Why don't the two of you go together!" Narumiya pushes Shirakawa forward as Shirakawa once again glares at the pitcher, almost killing him in his mind
"Sure, I don't mind." Shirakawa turns his head immediately to you who was watching them as you switch weight from foot to foot as if you were feeling awkward
Shirakawa's eyes soften as he remembers that he should be the one making the effort to get closer to you than the other way around
"Do you want me to help you with your bag?" Shirakawa asks, now ignoring Narumiya
"No, it's okay. It isn't heavy." You reassure him as he nods, following you as you enter the school and walk to your locker to change into your indoor shoes
Shirakawa follows suit, hurrying to change his shoes and ignoring the letters from his fangirls in the process since his mind was preoccupied with you
"Um, Shirakawa?" You tap his shoulder
"Yeah?" He turns his head down to you as you motion at your back
"We just passed your classroom." You say as he looks back and indeed you two were already past classroom 3A, he can feel his neck heating up at his mistake, but the chance was already present he might as well take it
"Well, I'm already here, I might as well walk with you to your room." He says calmly
"You don't really need to." You say, "But I guess if you insist?" You notice the way his face falls, it wasn't all that obvious but you spent a lot of time trying to get to know Shirakawa so you can always tell if he suddenly feels dejected...but that still doesn't explain why you would accept his offer suddenly
"Come on then, you might be late." Shirakawa looks down at his watch before looking back at you as you two walk
"We're here. Thanks, Shirakawa. See you." You wave at him as you enter the room
Shirakawa can tell that people were staring, and most likely already talking about whether the two of you were together or not
But he pays them no mind, not like he ever cared about them anyway
So instead, he walks back to his classroom, feeling content with how well the morning went
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"Dude, just go. Narumiya's right. Nothing's going to happen if you just walk her every day." Carlos sighs, watching as Shirakawa continues to eat, acting as if he didn't hear him
"We talk more now." Shirakawa defends himself, it was true! Even if you two were just walking together to class every morning for the past two weeks, you two were slowly starting to talk more. He can even ask you about the homework you had and you ask him how morning training went
"Either you do it or he does look." Carlos points as Shirakawa follows the direction, almost choking on his food as he watches Narumiya talk to you
He watches as Narumiya cheers and pushes you lightly (He hopes) toward the direction of their table
"(First name)'s joining us today!" Narumiya claps his hand, ignoring the glare Shirakawa directs towards him, but Shirakawa immediately drops the murderous gaze once he catches your eyes
"You can sit here." Shirakawa moves to the left to give you more space
"Thanks." You smile at him, moving to Shirakawa's side as you place your tray down on the table
"Oh, don't they just look adorable?" Narumiya coos as Carlos chokes on his drink
Shirakawa never liked getting his hands dirty, but now he was starting to think that getting a bit of blood on them wouldn't be so bad
"Okay, let's get snacks," Carlos says once he calms down
"Narumiya, you have money, don't you? Come with me." Carlos stands up
"Why should I?"
"I don't have any cash."
"That's a lie! You're richer than-" Narumiya never got the chance to finish since Carlos basically pulls him with him, being forceful for the first time towards the ace. But what can he do? He didn't need bloodshed, especially with the Spring tournament coming around the corner
The other players who were supposed to sit on the table steer away, not wanting to be on the receiving end of Shirakawa's glare
"I'm-" Shirakawa was about to apologize about his teammates but once he hears you laughing, he just closes his mouth as he listens to the sound of your laughter, warmth spreading through his chest at the smile you have on your face whenever you laugh
"I almost forgot how noisy your friends can be." You calm down as Shirakawa huffs
"They're not my friends." He denies it as you scoff
"You don't believe me?" Shirakawa asks
"Come on, you wouldn't be tolerating them if you didn't consider them as friends." You reason as Shirakawa thinks about it. Well, to be fair they were actually surprisingly helpful on why he can talk to you
"I guess they're colleagues." He says, "But that's all." He adds but you just chuckle at his answer
"Sure whatever you say, Shirakawa." You grin as he raises an eyebrow at the smile on your face
"What's so funny?" He asks as you shrug in response
"It's just the classic tsundere Shirakawa answer." You tease him as Shirakawa fights the urge to smile
"Tsundere, out of everything you describe me as a tsundere?" He asks, still managing to keep a straight face despite feeling happy that you two were easing your way into a friendly banter
"It's the perfect description!" You say out loud, covering your mouth as you chew your food and swallow it
"Here." He removes the rice that got caught in your hair, catching you off guard as you hold your breath when his fingers make contact with your hair
"I forgot how much of a clean freak you are too." You grin coyly, trying to push down the butterflies in your stomach from the simple gesture from Shirakawa
Shirakawa looks at you, offense written on his face, making you laugh
Shirakawa rolls his eyes, but in contrast to the action, he wasn't annoyed, if anything he was enjoying the simple moment with you
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"You owe me lunch at least," Narumiya grumbles as Izuki looks from Narumiya and back at Shirakawa, it was almost time for a game and the two were discussing something
"Why do I?" Shirakawa asks blankly
"Because I asked her for the first time, she's eating lunch with you now!" Narumiya hmphs, sulking that he didn't even get a thank you from Shirakawa
Shirakawa looks at Izuki before bowing, basically telling the second-year that Narumiya was in his hands
"Shirakawa-san..." Izuki sweats as he glances at their ace who was still pouting
"How about inviting her to the next game if we do well today?" Carlos suggests to Shirakawa as they walk ahead of their main battery
"Yeah, you can even get her a nice seat and all." Yabe agrees with Carlos as Yamaoka nods along with them
"We'll see," Shirakawa says shortly, positive that you wouldn't go along with it...especially when your relationship ended in front of a stadium after a game
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Shirakawa stares off into space, still thinking about how he was going to ask you to watch their next game after their last one where the game was called off after a few innings
"You okay?" You ask him, waving a hand in front of his face, catching his attention
"Yeah, I'm good." Shirakawa nods
"Oh good. You look like you were going to kill someone." You chuckle nervously, "Nothing happened between you and your teammates right?" You ask
"Nothing that I know of." as far as he was concerned, everything was normal in the team
"Okay, it's just they haven't been sitting with us for the past few days." You motion for the empty table where you two were alone
"They're probably doing something reckless," Shirakawa says, taking a sip from his water
That wasn't true. They were in the cafeteria too, watching the two of you like you were a noontime show, and basically egging Shirakawa to finally ask the question. They even had to hold others back from joining the two of you so it would be done
"Hey," Shirakawa places the bottle down
"Yeah?" You turn to Shirakawa who gulps
"We're having a game this Thursday, do you want to watch it?" Shirakawa flinches at the sound of your spoon dropping, emitting a loud clink
"Your game, huh?" You say absentmindedly as you remain silent for a few minutes, even turning your attention to the plate in front of you
"You don't have to." Shirakawa can almost cut the tension with the knife. He regrets asking the question, the comfortable air around you two was now too awkward for him
"No," You say suddenly, "I-I think I want to come." You look at Shirakawa who watches you, "It's my last year, might as well make sure to support the pride of our school." You smile playfully
"I-I'll try to get you a good spot then." Shirakawa nods, he was going to make sure that they win that game
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Shirakawa takes a deep breath before walking towards you, feeling more nervous about talking to you rather than the actual game
"Hey," He greets you once he reaches you and your friend
"Hi, Shirakawa." You smile at him, "Look, we got this." You hold up a banner, both had the Inashiro Baseball team on them, but your friend's banner had Narumiya's name and his player number
Shirakawa wanted to huff at your friend's choice, of all the players they have she ends up choosing the difficult one
But he never got to do so, after all, your banner had his name and player number
So instead of huffing, he blushes, and it was always a sight to see Shirakawa flustered
"I'll bring you to your seats." Shirakawa immediately turns around so he can hide his red cheeks, but he can tell your friend noticed, judging from the way she was snickering
"Woah, this spot is actually the best." You comment, it was in the shade, not to mention it gave a good view of the field
"See you later then." Shirakawa nods, about to walk off but he feels you hold his wrist, making him stop and turn to you
"Good luck. I'll be cheering for you." You even wave the banner with your other hand and smile at him as Shirakawa once again feels his cheeks heat up
"Thanks, I'll work hard." He smiles softly as you let go of him and watch him walk off
"He always looks like he's going to kill someone." Your friend comments
"He just looks mean, but he's not really angry." You tell her, eyes still on Shirakawa as you remember the small smile on his face before he leaves, leaving you feeling giddy
"Oh yeah, remember that mixer I mentioned a long time ago?" Your friend asks you as both of you sit down
"Yeah, what about it?" You ask her as she grins
"We're finally doing it! I'll tell you the details later." You can sense the excitement on her face that you can only smile, not able to say that you weren't interested
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Shirakawa can hear your voice
Which was why he managed to get hit after hit and protect the base
"We should definitely invite her more." Carlos chuckles, noticing that Shirakawa was still feeling fired up
"How nice, I also want someone to yell for me." Yabe sulks as he drinks his water
"I'm going out." Shirakawa stands up, ignoring his teammate who yells at him indignantly
"There he is!" You yell, waving your hands, still feeling the excitement of the great game
"You were so cool there!" You gush, "Like you hit the ball and bam! And you were really fast and swoosh to the next base!" You were still feeling the excitement of the game, Shirakawa can tell
Shirakawa smiles before patting your hair, it reminded him all too well how it was when the two of you were going out, so just like before, he would pat your head whenever you praise him excitedly
You falter for a moment, and Shirakawa almost pulls his hand away, but you just look up at him, "Is that your way of telling me I did a good job at cheering?" You grin cheekily as Shirakawa chuckles
"I can hear you all the way to the dugout." He comments
"Of course, you can! I swear I did my best, you know!"
"You did. Do you want me to get you a drink?" Shirakawa asks
"No need." You brush it off
"I'll get it." Shirakawa decides, "Still (Favorite drink), right?" He asks
"You really don't-" But Shirakawa was already gone
You couldn't help but giggle, you were already giddy before the game, but whenever he glances up at you (Well you assume since he was looking in your direction) while they were playing, you couldn't help but cheer louder, and what he was doing now, it was leaving your heart a mess, and you didn't know whether letting your heart feel that way about Shirakawa was a good thing or not
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"We have another game coming up." Shirakawa brings the subject up
"Huh? Really when?" You ask him, growing excited
"This Tuesday," Shirakawa informs you as he watches your face turn from excited to disappointed
"Oh, I can't come." You frown
"It's okay." Shirakawa reassures you, "Are you doing anything on that day?" He hopes the question wasn't strange, but as he watches you try to find the right words, he can't help but think that he shouldn't have
"I-I um, my friend actually invited me to a mixer." Your voice was quiet, but Shirakawa still managed to hear it
"Oh." Was his only comment as he looks down, confidence about you two getting back together deflating as seconds pass by, "Have fun." He nods
"Good luck on your game too." You smile awkwardly, already feeling bad that you managed to turn the happy atmosphere between the two of you into awkward
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"She's not here?" Narumiya asks, surprised that Shirakawa wasn't running away from them to talk to you
"She's on a mixer. She can't come." Shirakawa comments, not meaning to sound bitter, but from the looks of his teammates, he can tell the emotion slipped out
"Oh..." Narumiya says awkwardly as the others give him a look
"Well, let's just use the frustration to win, yeah?" Yamaoka suggests
"Yeah, you can hit as many balls as you want, we'll give you the spotlight for today." Carlos grins, placing a hand on Shirakawa's shoulder
Shirakawa would normally push him away, not enjoying the physical contact with his teammates, but for now, the gesture was comforting to him
"Not like any of you gets the spotlight." Shirakawa comments as Narumiya laughs
"That's true! 'Cause, it's always on me." He points to himself proudly as an argument ensues between them
Shirakawa watches them argue with one another, shaking his head as he walks first, feeling embarrassed with all the people turning their heads to them because of the noise
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Shirakawa goes to the batter's box, despite feeling down, he was doing okay, it wasn't his best performance, but he was getting through, hence why the coach still hasn't switched him out
But despite how many times he wills himself to actually place his whole attention on the game, his mind can't help but wonder about your whereabouts, who you're hanging out with, and whether are you enjoying yourself. Did you give your number to someone?
With all the thoughts running through his mind, he didn't notice a ball fly past him
"Strike!" He clicks his tongue, slightly shaking his head a she tries to put his head in the game
"Oi, Shirakawa! You could have definitely hit that!" Narumiya yells from the dugout as he rolls his eyes t his teammate
"Shirakawa, you can do it!" Huh, that was a fairly familiar voice
Shirakawa couldn't help but glance at the stands, to see you breathing heavily and holding his banner up
Shirakawa feels warmth spread through his chest at the sound of your voice
"Out!" He snaps his attention back to the pitcher in front of him. Thank god it was an out, if it was inside, then the coach would definitely scold him for not focusing
Shirakawa takes a deep breath, now focusing on the pitcher, getting into his stance so he can hit the ball, and maybe show off to you
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"Look at you, waking up mid-game," Carlos comments as they change from offense to defense in the inning
"Shut up, I don't want to lose," Shirakawa says as Carlos laughs
"Want to show off, huh? Must be nice." He comments as Shirakawa turns his head away in embarrassment
"She actually went to you rather than her mixer, this is your chance!" Narumiya shakes Shirakawa
"That's enough." The coach stops them, "You're in the middle of a game. Focus." He gives them a stern look as they all immediately stop
"Let's go. We still have to win this game." He removes Narumiya's hand from him as he glances in your direction in the stand to see that you were cheering with the rest of the school
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Shirakawa pretty much runs off after the game, he can still the others yelling at them for suddenly leaving and not even bothering to celebrate with them
But he can always return to them later, now he had something else he had to do
Shirakawa looks around the hoard of people walking out of the stadium, trying to catch a glimpse of you
"Shit, did she already leave?" He grumbles in defeat
"Um, Shirakawa?" You tap his shoulder, making him turn his head to his back
"What?" He asks coldly, but upon seeing that it was you, his eyes soften
"Sorry, I thought you were someone else." He apologizes
"It's nothing." You brush it off, "But you should really stop scaring people away." You say teasingly before your smile drops and you look at him apologetically
"I'm sorry I was late." You apologize
"But you didn't need to come." Shirakawa reminds you, "You were supposed to be in a mixer." There was a tone of bitterness at the word mixer, he never even thought he can hate a word
"I left."
"But why-"
"Because I didn't want to be there, I wanted to be here." You admit as Shiraawa's eyes widen, were you confessing? He was the one who was supposed to make the first move now!
"I-I mean I wanted to support our school-"
"I still love you." Shirakawa finally musters up the courage to finally confess
Shirakawa watches as you freeze mid-sentence and stare up at him
"Are you really Shirakawa?" You ask as Shirakawa sighs
"Yes, I am."
"The Shirakawa I know would never say that though," You say
"I know, I'm sorry I never said it...and that I wasn't a good boyfriend to you." Shirakawa apologizes as silence surrounds the two of you, despite the bustling people around and the voices mixing together with how many they were, the silence between you two was almost suffocating
"Do you mean it?" You finally ask him, meeting his eyes, "Do you still really love me?" You ask
"I do." Shirakawa says, "All your letters, notes, gifts, and pictures, I still can't throw them away." Shirakawa was never used to admitting it out loud, but honesty was the only thing he can currently use, not like he had any plan, nor were his teammates around to help him
"You won't hurt me again?" You ask looking at him, your vulnerability finally showing itself
"I won't," Shirakawa promises you, "I'll make sure to treat you the best way that I can."
You two stare into each other's eyes, not knowing who was going to make the next move
"I still love you too, you know." You finally admit and finally, Shirakawa breathes out, his shoulders relaxing as he shows you a smile
"Then, how about giving me a chance to be your boyfriend?" Your eyes widen at his words, it was the same as how you asked him out
But instead of answering him with words, you end up pulling him by his collar down to your level and kissing him softly
Shirakawa grows surprised, but soon his hands find their way to your waist to pull you closer. He was never a fan of PDA, but for you, he can make any exception