#AMAHLE
Mom's party was a success and Damon Patrick came back to his position and Cecilia was working in another department. Things were going good for us and the month in general has been a good one. Iyana loved school and my baby being the bubbly person she was, made some friends; I was proud of her. It was Saturday morning I was laying on my husband bare chest listening to the sound his heart made, I was at peace.
Him: Boobie?
Me: Nuni...
Him: did you ever get rid of the loop?
Well that was unexpected! I was never ready for that question.
Me: w-why do you ask?
Him: just asking... So did you?
Me: no
Him: why?
Me: it slipped my mind I guess. Too much has been going on babe
Him: ok... So when are you getting it removed?
Me: why?
I said sitting up straight and so did he.
Him: cause Iya needs a little brother or sister
Me: Iya doesn't need siblings yet. She's only 3
Him: when will you be ready for a baby Amahle?
Me: I don't know Damon, not anytime soon. My career has just kick-started and a baby will only weigh me down
Him: You were 20 and doing your last year when Iyana came into our lives but not once did she weigh you down. You graduated and passed all your modules with distinctions, what's different now?
Me: I have a company to take care of Damon and still come home to mother YOUR daughter.
Him: oh wow! My daughter Amahle?!
Shiiit that was not meant to come out like that. He got up and wore his t-shirt
Me: Damon I didn't mean...
Him: whatever Amahle
Me: where are you going?
Him: I'm going to check on MY daughter!
With that he walked out. I really fucked up this time. Am I wrong for not wanting a baby just yet? I'm only 23 for Christ sake and I haven't done half the things I want to do with my life. a baby will only hold me back. Why does he even want a baby now of all times? I'm too young for a baby. I decided to check my emails and everything else then made the bed and went to shower. After my showering and everything else I wore shorts and a vest, I felt like freeing the nipple today and I did just that. My boobs weren't big, they weren't those tiny either; they were round and firm. I went to Iyana's room and they weren't there do I went downstairs and I found them in the Kitchen making breakfast. Iya was sitting on a bar stool and Damon was by the stove.
Me: mornings
Her: mommy
I hugged her and kissed her.
Her: how are you?
Me: I'm good my baby and how are you?
Her: good. We making food
Me: but you just sitting here
Her: no I'm telling dad about school and my Nikitha and Lona
Me: are those your friends?
Her: yes
Me: need help with anything?
Him: no I'm good
Yoh!
Me: ok
I sat next to Iya.
Me: so how old are your friends? Where are they from?
Her: Nikitha is 4 and Lona is 3. I love them, we share our food
Me: wow thats sweet. You such a good girl. What did they teach you?
Her: to count from 1-5
Me: ok count
Her: 1...2...4....3... Yoh ha.a its 1...2...3...4...5
Me: good girl
I said clapping hands for her.
Me: You're a big girl. high 5
We high fived and she giggled
Her: and teacher made us colour pictures
Me: that is great my baby
Dae: breakfast is served. Juice?
Me: yes, please
Iya: tea
Me: in this heat nana? ha.a you'll have juice ok?
Her: fine. Thank you daddy
Me: thanks babe
Him: pleasure
We ate in silence just listening to Iya tell us about how nice school was and how the play during break and everything interesting. When we were done I packed up the dishes and washed them while Damon went upstairs. After washing the dishes, I went to wash Iyana and when she was done I dressed her up in a cute dress and a sandal then we went downstairs to chill and play games on the iPad.
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#DAMON
Am I wrong for wanting to have a child with my wife? Someone who shares both our blood in their body and not just mine alone? I'm sorry but I don't understand why she's being selfish about this. After showering I decided to go cool off at the office because this tension here at home was not right. I packed up my stuff and took my car keys and headed down.
Iya: where are you going daddy?
Mahle turned to look at me
Me: to work
Iya: I want to come with you
Me: you going to get bored and want to come back nje
Ama: don't worry we'll go for ice cream princess
Her: but I want to go with daddy
Me: ok let's go then
With that my princess and I went to the office not forgetting to carry a few of her dolls to keep her company and my fully charged iPad. I was barely going to get any work done because this hyper active kid of mine is talkative and she loves attention more than anything. We got to the building and it was quiet AF*, the securities were at the door.
Them: Mr Bess
Me: hello.
Vusi: Is this your daughter boss?
Me: yes, Say hello princess
Her: hello. I'm Iyana Melanie Bess and I'm 3 years' old
She said holding up 3 of her fingers making us all laugh
Xola: Hello Iyana. I'm Bhuti Xola
Vusi: and I'm Bhuti Vusi
Vusi: aren't you supposed to be home with the Mrs?
I chuckled before answering
Me: a CEO's job is never finished
Xola: you overwork yourself. How much richer do you want to get?
Me: hahahaha it's not even about the money. I'm just building a legacy for my kids
Vusi: I see...
Me: I'll see you guys around ey
Them: sho boss
With that we went up to my office, first thing I did was move the couch so I can set up a play area for Mel and then after that I got right onto my work. She had those noisy kiddy's laptops from game and I can assure you she made sure to make noise, it was as though she was pushing my buttons even though it was unintentional.
Me: Yana
Her: daddy
Me: could you turn the volume down a little
Her: ok
She pressed once and to her that was enough
Me: please turn it down again Nana
Her: but I won't hear it
Me: yes, you will my baby or do you want me to never come with you here again?
Her: ok I'll turn it down
She did just that and it was at least bearable.
Me: thank you.
I went back to work and 30 minutes into it Iya wanted to pee and I took her to the bathroom and next thing she's bored and she wants to go home she misses her mom. This child was as difficult as Amahle, she might as well should have been her's.
Me: daddy is almost done ok
Her: ok
She sat there and played with her dolls. I stayed another 30minutes then I packed up my stuff and we headed out.
Me: hungry?
Her: no
Me: you don't want chips or pizza or meat?
Her: I want chips and meat
I thought as much. She loved fries there was no doubt she was mine as for the meat thing; I love meat but not much. She probably got that from Aya. I started at Spur to get something for Mahle too and for us then I went home.
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#AMAHLE
Damon being gone gave me some time to just reflect on everything. As I was stuck in my thoughts I got a skype call from Karen with Zek
//Them: hello lady
Me: hello babies
Zek: Mahle how are the wedding preps?
Kay: Hell I'm sure
Her: I haven't started
Kay: what? Why?
Me: I just I don't know... I'm excited but not excited
Zek: why? What's wrong?
Me: Damon wants a baby
Kay: thats great
Zek: babies are a blessing. How do you not want one of your own?
Me: I'm not ready for one guys. My career is my priority at the moment
Kay: but babe you being unfair
Her: no I'm not. I'm the one who's going to have to stay home and not work.
Zek: being the only here who's had a child I think it's a great experience. When you feel it kick for the first time. When you hold her in your arms for the first time and all your emotions run wild. That fear and excitement you feel. Its great friend
Kay: the way you explain it you make it sound like the best thing on earth
Zek: it is
Me: yoh ha.a I don't know
Kay: just give your husband a child and get it over with
Me: what about my job? and everything else?
Zek: they will come later. Just focus on making your husband happy and you will be happy in return baby
Kay: well Zek is right. You not being fair on Damon
Me: what's worse is that today we argued about this baby thing and I kind of pointed it out that Iyana was his and not mine
Zek: NO!
Kay: you did what?
Me: I didn't mean it I swear, it just came out of anger and frustration. I feel like the minute we start obsessing with having a baby then what we have at the moment will die out
Zek: anger shouldn't make you say things you don't mean. In my opinion anger makes you say things you've been wanting to say for some time
Me: you know I didn't mean it Zek
Kay: maybe you didn't but you blurted it out that Iya wasn't yours. How do you expect YOUR husband to react?
Me: I'm not proud of what I said ok guys. Please
Zek: did you apologise?
Me: I tried to but he stormed off and went to the office with Iyana
Kay: you didn't try hard enough missy. Damon does everything in his power to make you happy the least you could do is do that same for him. Damon would do anything for you, why can't you do the same?
Zek: Karen is right. Damon is literally a fool for you and the least you could do is give him the baby he longs to have with you
Me: you guys just made Kay feel so bad. I'll make an appointment with Amber
Kay: now we getting somewhere
We kept chatting about other random things and then we ended the call//
Now I was left frustrated than I was before.