Heyyyyyyyyyy 🧸🫶🏾
I'm to nice cuz I was gon wait till next Friday but I didn't😁say thank you bae rn don't be ungrateful😒😭
Y/n pov
It's been 2 months since I've last
talked to notti, I seen some interviews on YouTube about him and stuff but Ion
watch them Yk, but I'm frl proud of him
he always wanted to be a rapper and
stuff and now his dream is finally coming true after all that hard work.
I've been seein him at school too ofc but We
don't talk, I avoid all contact w/ him tbh
ion think I could take ts I'm still Tryna move on but ts not that simple and
easy so I just need time.
I was and still am in love w/ that boy and that break up Hurt me Rs like I feel like something in me is missing frl or I'm missing something ....I really thought
he was My person, the person for me, the person I'd be w/ fah eva but clearly I was wrong and it hurts more bc I was so attached physically, mentally and emotionally to him🤦🏾♀️
I hate havin attachment issues ts ain't
Fah da weak🧏🏾♀️
Haha you got pranked Ian doin ts cuz y'all don't love me frl so kma💁🏾♀️ this gon be a teaser😝
Y'all can scroll all you want ian finishin it🤪🤪
You deadass still scrollin😒
Now mh get on somewhere ian write nun else🤣
Why you muggin me🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
You still love me? No🤣 it's ok😭
You mad?
Ight ight let me stop Trollin😭😂
I'm kidding don't cuss me out🙄 but if y'all don't love me frl you can still kma 🙇🏾♀️
I love y'all and if you don't say ts back ian postin ever again😴😭no but frl😐say it
back 😒
Let me continue befo y'all get mad😂
Back to y/n pov-
Rn I'm at school in bio and I have notti in here he's at the table in front of me to my left🙂
I hate life😒
It's okkkkk thoooooo that was cheaper one it's cheaper two let's move on can we do dat😺🙃
Notti's pov-
I'm talking to my friend cuz they buggin me actin like we in a interview and shit😭
When my eyes look over at y/n for some
Reason and I see her w/ her heads
down she seems to be ok....But Ik she really
Isn't I heard her crying by the lockers
Earlier.
Something In me wanted to hug and hold her so bad but I have to keep my distance but like ts gettin harder and harder
every time I see her
I miss holdin her, hearing her laugh, kissin her, seeing her reaction to simple shit I do😭like when I kiss her out da blue and
She don't see it comin or like just in general she always gave me this big ass goofy
smile and hugged me after😂 I always knew her love language was physical touch but she also like playin around callin me ugly to show she loved me 😑
She loved when I rapped a verse of one of my songs to her.
She always started doin stupid shit out of excitement and she dead would just
be smiling at me and jumpin around or jumpin on me. She was always mad happy w/ me and seein ts always put a smile on ma face
ts would always be cute asl I dead miss that, I miss everything she did🤦🏾
I miss how she looks at me, I miss how she couldn't hold eye contact but always
wanted to have a starin contest, I miss her in general bro
I miss her bein by my side
I need her back Rs I regret breakin up w/ her everyday but a lot of shit was goin on and I was stressed and fallin apart
mentally and I didn't wanna bring her down with me. I just needed her to understand i didn't want her to try and help me and lose herself in the process, I
don't want to put all my stress and pain on her and become a burden to her.
I dead just didn't want to bring her down when she was in such a good place at
the time so I had to end things istg I didn't want to but it was the best thing to
do at the moment...ion know how ta put ts but I just thought it was fah the
best at the time, I thought I was
doin the right thing.
I just wanna talk ta her one more time, I hate not being able to talk to her
I need ma girl back🫤
Y/n pov-
I finished my assignment so my head was
Down cuz ian have no friends in this
class frl🫤
Id usually just talk to notti but we're not Yk so Ion have no one ta talk to now☹️💔 but ta be frl ion wanna talk to these ragady ass kids in dis class they funny actin asf😒so I'm good by ma self ta I see ma friends🥱
I hear someone sit down in the chair beside me bein loud asf fah nun😑notti be doin ts when he want ma attention...let's not think about him🥲 next caller
I ignore ts cuz ion care frl😐 it's a
free country sit down wherever you like but deadass like.....why by me? Go sit somewhere else ragady hoe🥱
"Ma- y/n can we talk" I hear a familiar voice say
When I lift my head up and look up at the person whoes beside me I see it's notti😥 man I jinxed ts💔💔💔like ofc I knew it was him at first when I heard his voice but I thought I was tweakin😞
I look into his eyes then look away quickly and nod
I wanna talk to him,I wanna know what he gots ta say
He gets up walkin out the classroom so I follow behind him and he sits on the staircase near our classroom so I sit next
to him but like 2 stairs down to
keep distance and I lean my back against the wall
" look ma I'm so sorry for hurting you" he turns to me and continues " I just thought it was for the best ian wanna put all my burdens on you and way you down when you were so happy at the time, ian wanna bring you down mama" he says Tryna look at ma face
I get what he's saying but at the same time
Why break up w/ me when all you had ts do is talk ta me? Yk
" you always try to help me w/ ma problems even tho ion wanna bug you w/ them but when it comes to me helpin you w/ whatevers goin on you push me away notti" I say messing with the rips and holes in my ripped jeans
( yes your facing him your just not lookin at him )
" mami ion like you upset why wouldn't I help you feel better mh"
"Ok but I don't like when your upset and hurting alone either notti, I wanted to help you but you pushed me away and left me ghee, do you not understand how bad ts hurt me"
"Y/n I'm not use to ppl helping and bein there for me like that..." he says "your my first real actual like dead serious relationship so I'm still learning ma"
I wanted to say sum but I stayed quiet
" look at me mama" he says moving closer to me and lifting my chin to look at him
"I'm sorry baby" you can tell he cared in that moment by the way he was lookin
His eyes tell how he feels.
That's sumn that'll never change about him
" I just wanted you to talk to me not push me away" i lowly say looking down again
"maybe we shouldn't be-" he cuts me off
" don't say that y/n..."
" I don't think we're meant to be...maybe pushing me away was what was best fah you" I force a smile still looking down
" no ts was a mistake mh I'm still learning ma frl just be Patient I'm learning to do right fah you. Baby don't give up on me" he mumbles the last part and ts broke my heart but Ik he'll find someone better for him he's amazing frl, anybody would love ta be w/ him
" you'll find someone better mh I promise you that" I look up at him and he's already looking at me...there's so much pain filled in his eyes and I hate ts istg I do ion want him to fill like ion wanna be w/ him cuz I do it's just maybe I'm not what's best fah him Yk like I can't explain ts but I just want him happy and maybe being w/ me isn't ganna make him as happy, maybe bein w/ sb else is what he needs
"Y/n your what's best thing fah me ma, like baby I wanna be w/ only you Rs, What am I pose ta do...literally the best part of me is only you" he frowns
"I'm sorry notti..." I lowly say
"What do I need to say to get you ta stay? It's like I'm all choked up and your ok, like Is this what you frl want mama?"
I stay quiet
Ofc ian want this Im just scared ts ganna happen again and the first time already butted enough
"Listen just give me one more chance and I promise I'll fix ts, I won't push you away nomo just stick by me mh and give me time" he says lowly
I stand up
"Y/n please I'm sorry ma" he stands up walkin down the steps and walking in front of me like I was Finna walk away
Man I was just Tryna pull up ma pants😭
I hug him wrapping my arms around his neck and he immediately hugs me back wrapping his arms around my waist
"So yes your ganna give me another chance...or is this a goodbye hug..?"
He mumbles
"Goodbye hug..."
"...alr ma" he says
Notti pov-
"So yes your ganna give me another chance...or is this a goodbye hug..?"
I mumble
I hope she gives me another chance I don't wanna be w/o her anymore
I dead can't take ts nomo
"Goodbye hug..." she says
I understand she's hurt but I really hoped she said she'd give me another chance ts really broke ma soul frl
I don't wanna let her go
I don't wanna end us We supposed ta. E tg rn bruh and I fucked that up
Ik I can't hold ha forever even tho I dead want to but this is what she wants so
I gatta let her
"...alr ma" I say
I wanna hold this girl for the rest of my life yet she doesn't wanna be w/ me anymore bc I hurt her
Ik y/ n she's probably scared ts ganna happen, she hates when ppl walk
In and out her life.
I remember when she told me she was scared to lost me but still I left her and I can't imagine how she feels🤦🏾
I just gatta work on ma self and work on ma communication and ima ask her out again cuz ian givin up on what we have Ts sum special and ion wanna lost what he have
Y/n pov-
"...alr ma" he mumbles
" I'm kidding booda" I smile rubbing his back
He thinks me callin him booda corny but he can kma frl ion care it's cute🧏🏾♀️
"Stop playin like dat y/n" he pulls away flom the hug lookin in my eyes
He looks mad sad So I give him a kiss to cheer him up😽🫶🏾
"Im sorry mh don't be sad ian gon joke like dat nomo"
He just smiles and gives me another kiss...and then a few more and hugs me again
Man I'm so happy to be back in his arms
☺️😊😀😃😄😁
Notti pov-
I was dead Finna boom sb if Ian get ma girl back Rs😒
Ts not funny I can't imagine a future w/o her lil ass ion wanna be w/ any of these smoochies and otha females they just not her frl🤷🏽♂️
Ion keh how many girls try ta get at me ima pick y/n ever time worda ma 🅾️
It could dead be hundreds of thousands of millions of girls in front of me rn and I'd still find y/n and pick ha over and over agin she dead ma wife fuck these otha fems
Now I just gatta try ma best ta do right by ha💯💯
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