brad : I don't think ur crazy, ur just depressed. I want to ask you some questions. ok?
I nodded my head. I was talking and acting like I didn't care. did I?
brad : how do u feel?
promise: hopeless
brad : can u give me more details?
promise: I feel like I can't love or trust anyone no more.
brad : why?
promise: cuz I don't want dis to happen anymore. I don't wanna get attached to someone and they end up leaving u.
brad: are u feeling angry?
I started crying, because I was feeling angry... but y?
promise: kinda
brad: Who are u mad at?
promise: I'm mad at myself for convincing ray to go to the party and I'm mad at whoever shot him,I'm mad at the world nd I'm mad at ray.
Mr.brad: RAY!? Why are u mad at him?
promise:( crying harder ) because he left me, he promised me he wouldn't but he did, he was suppose to be here for me. but he's not.
Mr.Brad : u can't do that, u can't blame the world for this, u can't blame urself either nd u most definitely cannot blame ray. u just gotta learn to adjust, it's part of life.
I knew wat he was saying was true but I just couldn't take no more nd with dat I walked away leaving him wondering.
2 months later
roc, prod, prince, star, babydoll nd beauty are over my house.
star: I wish you would go on this European tour with us.
babydoll: yea it won't be fun without u.
promise: I'm sorry guys but I'm not in the right mindset for a tour.
prod: promise it's been 2 months now, u gotta move on.
prince: yea, ur fans are worried.
promise: I know but everytime I get near a stage it reminds me of him. I have flashbacks of the night.
beauty: at least check ur twitter or instagram.
I was thinking for a minute. I haven't checked it since the day. I guess it couldn't hurt. I grabbed my labtop nd logged on to twitter wit everyone gathering around me. I saw tweets asking if it was really true. I wanted to answer them but deep down inside I was still hoping that it wasn't nd dat he was hiding somewhere wit tupac. I smiled at dat thought. I scrolled down and saw a picture of me nd ray eating tacos nd the caption said "R.I.P ray ray nd I'm sorry promise, R.I.P to ur heart " wow. dat was so deep but may it rest in peace. I guess I was starting to cry cuz soon star reached for the laptop and close it.
roc: maybe that wasn't such a good idea.
beauty: ya think
roc: don't get smart
beauty: shut da hell up punk.
I laughed. I guess I haven't laughed in awhile cuz everyone stopped and starred at me.
promise: wat?
roc: (screaming ).it's a miracle!
promise: watever (smiling )
babydoll: aww roc made her smile.
promise: no he didn't
roc: Yes I did
promise: watever, don't yall got somewhere to be?
prince: well just tell us to leave.
prod: ikr (fake attitude ) come on yall we know where we ain't wanted.
everyone is laughing nd they all leave.... except roc.
roc: u kno promise, u can't keep pushing people away, u gotta face the world someday, u think ur by yourself but ur not, we got u. nd don't give up on love nd don't be scared to trust. think about going on tour.
he kissed me on the cheek and left. he left me in deep thoughts. he was right, ray wouldn't want this, he would be mad if I came this far and gave up, I gotta do dis. not for me but for him,my fans nd his fans, they deserve to know the whole truth from me nd not the press............
I'm ready