Chapter 9
Sebastian and Kurt continued dancing for half an hour and then headed over to where Sam and Blaine were sat by the bar. Only now it was just Sam sitting there swirling his drink in his hands.
'Where's Blaine?' Kurt asked while looking around.
'He didn't feel so good so he headed home' said Sam hoping that Kurt would leave it at that, but Kurt raised an eyebrow at him
'What do you mean he didn't feel well, I just danced with him an hour ago and he was fine then?'
'I think it have something to do with what we've talked about when you and me danced, I tried to get him to stay but he just wasn't feeling like it' Sam said.
Kurt knew that when Blaine drank he easily got stuck in feeling sad if he felt unhappy and if he truly hadn't been feeling that good then he could understood why he had gone home.
But the thing is as much as Kurt knew that if it had something to do with him dancing with Sebastian earlier, and the fact that Blaine might still have feelings for him, he couldn't let that control how he acted around other people, he knew he was his own man and he trusted himself and his own actions. He may not trust other people easily, but he knew he could trust Blaine, he had talked to him about the fact that he had enjoyed running into Sebastian and shared that he really thought that Sebastian had changed and really liked the man he had become. He had trusted Blaine to support him in this, but maybe he had underestimated how Blaine still may be feeling something for him. In some way it made him a little mad that Blaine had walked away without saying goodbye, they always said goodbye no matter how angry or sad they were with each other. He knew that his own feelings towards Blaine didn't matched the feelings Blaine may have, but he was still his best friend and he hated that if he had did something to hurt him, that he didn't knew exactly what.
'I gonna go after him, you know I have to' He looked at Sam who nodded he knew how much Blaine meant to Kurt and vice versa.
Kurt then turned towards Sebastian, who had stayed silent the whole time.
'I have to go get Blaine, Bas, and make sure he's alright... Here I give you my key and you can just lock yourself in, okay?'
Sebastian was not okay with Kurt running after Blaine, but he tried reminding himself that they were becoming friends, and Kurt and Blaine were best friends and best friends looked out for each other. So he didn't tried to stop him. 'Okay' was all he said.
Kurt then gave him his key, hugged Sam and then turned against Sebastian hugging him to and Sebastian kissed his cheek 'Go' He said and Kurt did.
When Kurt was gone, Sebastian felt a hand on his shoulder, he turned and saw Sam
'You should feel really special you know Sebastian, Kurt doesn't trust many people, so the fact that he just handed you the key to his home, is a really big thing' Sam said.
Sebastian hadn't thought of it that way, but Sam was right, Kurt must really trust him and that make him smile and he shrugged a little his shoulders 'Well, he should know by now that he can trust me, but I'm glad that he does, you know'.
'You know for being a day since you two meet again, I think he really likes you Sebastian.' Sam padded him at his shoulder again.
'I hope so, I mean he's a really nice guy, so I hope that he does.'
"He's more than that, Kurt's like the best guy there is, and if he chose to like you then you should feel really special' He winked at Sebastian
'I'm beginning to think that you also like a little more than just his fine ass and that he's your friend' He grinned a little and raised an eyebrow at Sam
Sam shrugged a little at his shoulders 'He's one of my best friends and if I could have it my way I would be honored to be with him, but I'm not gay.. Trust me if Kurt ever say that he would consider me an option I could be, but only for him".
Sebastian hadn't thought that Sam would confess that he actually had feelings for Kurt, but he could relay to what he said 'Yeah he's pretty fantastic, I just hope that he knows he shouldn't settled for.'
Sam looked at him 'I don't know you that well Sebastian, but I can tell you that Kurt is always loyal towards himself and he tries to be equally loyal with his friends, that's why he ran after Blaine'
Sebastian nodded and they were quiet for some time, just sat listening to the music as they finished their drinks.
'Do you think that Blaine still have feelings for him?' Sebastian tried to sound like he really didn't care.
'I do.'
That was not the answer Sebastian had hoped he would get. He once again nodded at Sam, then he said goodbye and headed home, or Kurt's home at least.
As Kurt walked towards Blaine's apartment he really hoped that Blaine wasn't upset, He still loved the guy, but just not in that way.
As he headed up the stairs, he held his breath and then knocked on the door.
There was no answer at first, but he could hear music from inside, so he tried turning the handle, and opened the door.
'Blaine? it's me Kurt.'
There was no light on, only music coming from inside the bedroom, so he walked in there. Inside Blaine sat only in his boxers stroking at his guitar singing softly
You.
Darling, I love you.
I'll always...
I'll always love you.
Ooh
Ooh
Kurt recognized the lyrics, but didn't say anything.
When Blaine had finished he looked up at Kurt. He had been crying, there was dried tears in his cheeks and his eyes were red.
Kurt sat down beside him and threw his arms around him, Blaine curled into his embrace and buried his face against Kurt's chest. They sat like that for hours.
'Tell me what you're thinking Blaine' Kurt then said, still holding Blaine, playing with the hair on his neck.
"I just. It was just too much.. You know.. I wasn't prepared for Sebastian acting so sweet with you... I mean I get that you said he had changed and all that.. And that I said you sounded like you liked him.. But that was only meant as a joke.. But then I saw that he actually had changed and that he treated you really really well, and you just seemed really happy.. God Kurt the way he looks at you... it's just... Arhh and the way you look at him.. I just.. It's the way you used to look at me.. You know' He then looked up at Kurt through his eyelashes 'It's the way I still look at you.'
Kurt took in what Blaine said, he knew that no matter what, he had to be honest with Blaine, he deserved that.
'What are you saying Blaine?'
'I think I still love you Kurt. No, I know I do.. And.. And I know that you don't love me back, but it just hurt. It hurt so much"
'You're wrong Blaine, I will always love you, maybe not in the way you do me, but you will always be the guy who saved me in high school, always be the guy who I shared my first kiss with, my first love and you'll always be my best friend' He hugged him.
Blaine hugged him back.
Blaine sniffed a little 'Thank you Kurt"
'You know I'm never saying goodbye to you Blaine, no matter what' He then helped him sit up and laid his hands on his face and looked him in the eyes. Blaine's eyes flickered down to his lips, and Kurt nodded at him and leaned a little forward. Their lips meet, Kurt knew that maybe this was a stupid thing to do when Blaine was as upset as he was at the moment, but he could also tell that it was what Blaine needed and he didn't want to make Blaine more upset than he already was. He felt Blaine open his mouth a little and his tongue touched Kurt lips, he let him in, and their tongues played softly against each other. They stayed like that for several minutes, then Blaine stopped and sat back. He took Kurt's hands.
'Thank you Kurt.. Just thank you.. You will always be my best friend and I hope you will always have room for me in your life.' Kurt squeezed his hands 'Always Blaine, like I said I'm never saying goodbye to you.'
Kurt entered his apartment, tried being as silent as possible, he expected Sebastian to be asleep.
He entered the living room and saw that Sebastian was indeed on the couch, but he just half sat and half laid on in it with his clothes still on. He smiled a little and headed towards his own room.
He then stripped down and looked over at his bed. Then he headed out to the living room again. Kneeling in front of Sebastian om the couch.
'Sebastian ...Sebastian...' he tried waking him up.
Sebastian could hear someone calling him, but he didn't want to get up, although his back hurt a lot...
'Sebastian.. Bas please wake up..'... And hey that was his princess calling, he opened his eyes and could see Kurt kneeling beside him. He tried sitting up, but his back hurt so he winced a little.
Kurt took his hand 'Come on.' Sebastian followed him, still half asleep and not really sure as to where they were going. Then he was being sat down on a bed.. Kurt's bed he thought, and that made him wake up a little 'What are you doing?' He asked when Kurt tried taking his socks off.
'I'm helping you getting in the bed Bas, your back must be killing you, so you are sleeping in my bed tonight.'
And wait! What.. 'Where would you sleep' he tried.
'I'm just gonna take the couch.'
Kurt stood up and walked against the door. 'Night Bas, see you tomorrow.' Then he closed the door, and Sebastian was alone in his bedroom.
Sebastian just sat and looked at the door. Trying to process what just happened.. Kurt would be sleeping in the couch, and Sebastian in his bed.. But why? He thought, and just like that the events of the evening came crashing down.. He remembered how he had talked with Sam, how sad Blaine had looked and how Kurt had ran after him, but he also remembered how relaxed Kurt had been when they were just the two of them dancing, how he had pressed himself against Sebastian's chest and how he had held onto Kurt and held him tight, never wanting to let go. He smiled, Kurt was really an amazing person.
He stripped down and headed under the covers.
He couldn't sleep though, so softly began singing to himself. The same song he sang with Kurt the other night.
'I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?'
Kurt tossed and turned on the couch, it really wasn't the comfiest place to sleep on, he tried finding a better position but nothing seemed to be working. Then he heard singing from his room and he laid still, listening to what Sebastian sang.
'All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can se...'
He smiled and sat up, walked closer to the door and knocked on it.
There was quiet then Sebastian voice sounded through the dark
'Yes...'
Kurt froze, he didn't know why he had stood up or what to say. 'Ehh,, I.. ehh' He cringed a little to how dumb he must sound. 'I can't sleep' he settle with.
Sebastian smiled a little in the dark 'So, you thought that you would come in here and throw me back on the couch?' He hoped that Kurt would recognize the teasing in his voice.
'No, no not at all.. I just. I heard you sing.. And I just maybe thought that,..Ehh.. you know never mind'
Then he heard Kurt began walking back out in the living room. And hey no, that wouldn't do. He hadn't meant to scare him away.
'Kurt, you can come in if you want, we can share.. share the bed that is" He said, hoped Kurt wouldn't mind. He knew that Kurt might be upset about what happened earlier with Blaine though he didn't knew what had happened at Blaine's place after.
Kurt turned around and he practically threw himself on his bed, and apparently right against Sebastian, because he landed on something hard, and it took him several seconds to recognize that it was a chest he now had his hands on, a very naked chest there also very much belonged to Sebastian and he was glad Sebastian couldn't see him because he was sure his face might have turned all shades of red, so he tried sitting up or roll away.
Sebastian could feel Kurt tense up, so he laid his hands at Kurt's hips 'Relax princess, it's just me' He let his thumbs brush softly over the fabric at his hips, while he helped him settle on his side.
Kurt took a deep breath and took Sebastian's hand and settled it around himself, and scooted a little backwards.
Sebastian could feel his dick make a little twitch as Kurt settled himself against his chest, but he knew that that was not at all where this was headed, so he tried to think of something else. He tightened his hold on Kurt and kissed his head. 'Sleep well, princess'
Kurt lifted their hands and kissed Sebastian's, and continued nuzzling his hand against his cheek
'Thank you, Bas, you to.'