*COUGH! COUGH!*
FUCK! I survived another suicide attempt. I felt totally ready this time. I wrote a massive letter about why I have decided to give up on my miserable life. Myself 5 years ago would NEVER believe I have turned out to be this pathetic today.
5 years ago...
"♪Happy birthday to you.....♪" "♪Happy birthday dear Veronica Happy birthday to you ♪"
It's December 21st! My birthday. My bestfriends Todd, Andrea and I were on a sleepover the day before. They sung for my birthday! I felt the warmth of the candle on my pale skin as I was still in my pajamas. My face was gleaming with joy as I heard the melodious sing of Andrea. Todd's freckled face was lit because of the light of the candle. I was finally 13! All I could think of was all the 13+ shows I could watch on my laptop. The joy of lying down on my cozy bed with Andrea and Todd by my side and watching Netflix was something I ALWAYS looked forward to.
The next day, I reached school wearing my favorite shirt and a cute pair of biker shorts. My graphic tee had the print of my favorite band on it and it matched perfectly with my sea blue shorts. Andrea's locker was was pretty far from mine along with Todd's. That was a bummer because their locker was pretty far from mine. That, however didn't seem like much of a problem because MY locker was next to THE LEE'S LOCKER!
AAAAHHHHHH!!!! I LOVED HIM SO FUCKING MUCH. Every time I look at him, my world stops. It just stops. All I see is his perfect brown eyes and his summery skin and his smile that could make anyone's day better. His veiny arms when he does anything makes me stare at him in awe. How badly I want to be with him. I never really got to talk to him at all.
Every single day I had exactly 3 classes with him. English, Science and Spanish. But I was probably WAY out of his league. He was not a very popular guy but what I LOVED about him is that he always enjoyed his own company. I know what you're thinking. He is probably a loner. That's not true at all!!!! HE HAS TWO FRIENDS
(I am TOTALLY not being defensive of him)