"So we'll be there next week for an entire week and we drink and get high!"
Erin's idea of fun really never changed since her high school years. I had the same idea of fun but Erin executed the plan better than me.
"Great so drugs and alcohol, sounds fun"
"That doesn't sound so good" Wisteria scrunches her nose in disgust "Clay told me not to do any of those"
"We are really bad influences to Wisteria" I laughed, popping a chip in my mouth "What are we gonna do here other than drink?"
"Club, drunk, skinny dip, everything we could do without men telling us what to do"
"We don't even tell you guys what to do. I follow whatever you tell me to do and Clay would rather die than make Wisteria uncomfortable for 1 second because of he told her to do something" George calls out from behind Erin "You tell me to do things more than I tell you to do things"
"Shut up George and also buy us dinner, I want pasta tonight"
"We already had pasta last night, let's get something else"
"But I want pasta"
"Then make pasta for yourself "
"Why don't you make it for us?"
"Because I don't want pasta and I don't know how to cook"
"Are you implying that just because I'm a woman, I know how to cook? We're in 2022, George"
"YOU TOOK COOKING CLASSES IN HIGH SCHOOL DUMBASS. AND YOU ALWAYS COOKED DINNER FOR CLAY WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER"
"Well yeah because I was raising him, I'm not raising you"
"Erin, you're cooking it for yourself, not for me"
At this point, Wisteria and I were used to Erin and George constantly bickering in the middle of the conversation. George would overhear Erin saying something, he would leave a sarcastic comment, then they do whatever you call the long ass argument over something.
And Erin is in the wrong 99% of the time, but women support women and she's hot so she gets my support.
"Fine, we're having pasta tonight. God damn it"
"Thank you! I love you" And even if she's wrong, she ends up getting her way anyways. "So where were we?"
"We go to California!" Wisteria cheers from her end "And cuddle!"
"That is the one suggestion of Wisteria's that I might actually consider" Erin gave Wisteria a thumbs up, making her clap her hands excitedly.
Wisteria has suggested many things. Things that someone would suggest to do in a 7 year old sleepover at your best friends house.
"Can we do tea parties?"
"No"
"Play board games?"
"No"
"How about watch cartoons?"
"I know you mean disney junior so no"
"Braid each other's hair?"
"No"
"Read books!"
"Is it sex?"
"Never mind..."
"Is George okay with you cuddling with other people?" Wisteria asked the brunette.
"He definitely is fine with it. My childhood best friend used to give me hickeys for fun and slap my ass in front of him in high school and he didn't even say anything about it"
"Damn and I couldn't even mention another guy's name in front of my high school boyfriend without him checking my phone" Ah yes trauma dumping with humor, good job Daph.
"George knows all my passwords and has access to everything but he chooses not to look at them for privacy reasons. He told me he trusts me enough not to do anything stupid and gives me my space when I need it" This is the same woman that wants to get away from said man for a week.
"Clay made all my passwords and has the login to all my socials because he made it so I don't think I have a choice"
Coincidentally, as we were talking about socials, I get a notification from Instagram saying Nick posted something on the private account only the both of us are in.
nickspov posted a new photo!
I tried to ignore the notif and move on, hoping to go by my day without being reminded of him but that wasn't the only notif from that account to appear.
nickspov posted a new photo!
nickspov posted a new photo!
nickspov posted a new photo!
nickspov posted a new photo!
Multiple notifications had gone off and all of them are from that account.
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nickspov
nickspov "my nails are being ugly right now, luckily it's owner is hot as fuck"
nickspov
nickspov "do my boobs look good from up there?"
nickspov
nickspov "your wallpaper is so plain, let me give you a new one"
nickspov
nickspov "nick stop playing valorant, look at me! i'm a princess"
nickspov
nickspov "these make good glasses not gonna lie"
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"Daphne? Are you okay?"
I completely ignored Erin and just sat there in silence, looking at the photos being posted. All of those were things that had happened a month ago yet he remembered all of them, even the phrases I said at the moment.
"Can I call you guys back? I have an important call I need to make" I say to them, opening up Kai's contact.
"Alright, we'll talk about the trip tomorrow then" Erin dismissed the call and we all put down the phone.
As soon as I leave, I immediately went to call Kai.
"Twerp, it's 5 am-"
"I don't care, I'm about to start fucking crying" I cut them off, practically shaking on my end "Nick posted photos of me from our past dates and I don't think I can hold up"
"Okay, I need you to calm down first. Deep breaths and then tell me what you're feeling"
I followed what they said and slowly started breathing normally. "I've been doing great these past days talking to Wisteria and Erin but then I get a notification that he posted a picture of me on Insta. I tried ignoring it at first but then he posted 4 more and I just- I can't"
"Didn't you say he has a new girlfriend or something?"
"I don't know, maybe he was just messing with me. He jokes a lot and I really miss them.. I hope he's just messing with me. I'd rather be cheated on than have my boyfriend post pictures of another girl in a private account only the two of them have access to"
"I know you and him probably don't want to, but you guys need to really talk to each other about it. Both of you need to stop acting like a bunch of immature kids who have too much pride to suck it up and solve it. You're both hurting so fucking much but won't do anything about it"
"I know that but what can I do? I don't think I'd be able to solve it if he's not in front of me. I need to see him to tell him everything I'm feeling...
...Kai, I think I'm in love with him"
"About god damn time one of you found out you bitches are in love with each other. You really think you'd be crying over this man because of a crush? Bro, you are fucking downbad for this man"
"Thank you, I really needed the aggressive yelling at me to realize that. Thank you, Kai"
"Yeah now go fuck yourself, I'm trying to sleep"
Kai puts the phone down and that was just my sign that they weren't in the mood to continue talking. I took their words into consideration and now, I just need to make sure
my emotions don't take control while I talk to him.
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Nick 🐼
heyy
not sent
hello
not sent
WHAT THE FUCK DO
I SAY
not sent
Nick 🐼 is typing..
are you sending me a
paragraph or something?
wtf is taking you so long to
type
wow so polite for someone
who ignored me for almost a
month
and then decides to ask me
what's taking so long for me to
type
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Good job not getting your emotions take control Daph, so proud.
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Nick 🐼
ffs are you really gonna
argue with me over a sarcastic
reply
why are u being like this?
it's hurting me honestly
yk damn well that wasn't
sarcasm because that genuinely
hurt
ur reply after mot speaking to me
for a month seemed so passive
aggressive and for what?
the only time we actually spoke was
when you called me drunk or when i
initiated the call
you should've initiated more
calls then
why are u so mad about that
DO YOU NOT SEE WHATS
WRONG WITH WHAT YOURE
DOING??
if you wanted to talk to me
more then you should've
called
you're really showing your true
colors to me now Nick
and it's fucking messed up
i need you to be serious with me
for just one fucking minute because
i need my closure.
alr
talk to me then
say whatever you want
i'll listen
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He was really pissing me off. I hated that I couldn't let go of him.
I felt so attached to him in a way that I couldn't decide if I wanted to let him go or not.
My phone started ringing and I see Nick's contact on top of it. I answer the call without hesitation and press the phone against my ear.
"Do you wanna tell me off already or are you gonna let me speak for a bit before you form another opinion on me?"
"Can I speak first?"
"I'm all ears"
I took a deep breath and prepared myself. I know I wouldn't be able to express everything without seeing him face to face but hopefully my point still stands.
"I just want to start this off by saying that the way you're treating me is really hurtful. I wanted to tell you off just a second ago but I figured, what was the point of it? We're both adults and should be capable of having a calm and adult conversation. Now say what you want"
That was just moments before he said his side and I snapped at him anyway.
"Daph, I've been in love with you for so long now. The crush phase you were going through while we were somewhat together was something I went through when we first met. You were pretty and kind and I just had a crush on you instantly and it grew to being in love with you much earlier than you would ever even feel the same way. I'll admit I was wrong for being so harsh with you but that was only because I loved you and yet I lost you when I had the chance to have you."
Now unlike him, I couldn't maintain that monotone calm voice that he did.
"ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE?? YOU NEVER LOST ME IN THE FIRST PLACE, I LOST YOU! I LOST THE PERSON THAT CLAIMS TO HAVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH ME LONGER THAN I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH THEM AND I NEVER EXPECTED TO ADMIT THAT I LOVE THEM WHILE ARGUING"
"What the fuck happened to calm and adult conversation?"
"I- I'm sorry, I snapped. My point is that you never lost me and I don't want you thinking you did lose me because you didn't. Please just make things go back to the way they were" I didn't even realize I was tearing up until the tears fell down my eyes and I felt the warm liquid on my cheeks. "Even as a friend"
"I don't know.. I care about you a lot and I've waited a while now. I don't think I can just go back to the way things were knowing I'm not with you. I don't want to do the same mistake I did before so I want you to block me"
"Wait, wait, wait, Nick what are you talking about?"
"I'm saying that yes I do value your feelings and your entire well being but I need you to consider the fact that my mental health is deteriorating the longer I spend time with you not being your boyfriend. I know you're not ready for that yet so I'm leaving it up to you to figure out"
"Nick, I can't just force myself to be with you when I'm clearly too unstable to do so"
"I don't want you to force yourself to do it anyways. That's why I'm giving you the option to cut me off or else I'm the one doing it for the two of us"
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a/n: i dressed up as a sperm cell for halloween 🫶