They are completely devastated hearing his heart condition due to tension suffered minor attack, it could be worse, if shafiq ji doesn't take his health seriously in-order to monitor, the doctor has kept him under strict observation.
Adil leans over his elder brother's shoulder, with exhaustion meanwhile Zoya handles Zahra ji her broken mother is worried beyond imagination, it was as if shehnaaz's presence wasn't important a drop of regretful tear rolled down watching their strange behaviour which she totally deserved it's cause of her bloody attitude they are suffering as well as bearing consequences, she should have it was her choice, but her dearest uncle is facing so much pain both physically, and mentally "maine kya soch kar apne family ko azmaish mein dala ? apne zidd ke hathaun, in khushiyaun ko barbaad kardiya ? Ya Allah, kis liye us insaan ke liye jis ko meri izzat tak rakhne nahi aye jab uska baap .. mujh par kichadh uchaal raha tha ... mere sarr se izzat ki chaddar keench raha tha us waqt mera ... muhafiz vo shaks bann kar aya jiske jhooti izzat .. tak maine aaj tak kabhi nahi kare un sab ke beech sirf use meri parwah thi, bina maange usne ki aur unse bhi karwaye jinho ne mujh par kaaye sawaal uthaye, chahta toh peeche hatt karna, tamashe ka hissa bann sakta tha lekin us se dekha nahin gaya kyunke usne mujhe dil se apne biwi maana, kitne bewaqoof thi, apne guroor ke haathaun andhe ho kar sidharth ko neecha dikhana chah rahe thi, jab ke us shaks ne mujhe sabke nazraun mein uthane ki koshish ki .. yeh fadak hai .. hum dono mein us ka irada, kabhi mujhe, neecha dekhana tha nahin lekin mera hamesha se uske khilaaf jakar .. sahi .. galat cheesain karne ka raha hai .. shayed khudko sahi aur unko galat dikhane ke junoon mein main sab barbaad kar gaye, mera zidd un logon ko durr kar gaya jinke subah mere bina nahi hote thi .. uff yeh main kya kar gaye, Allah ?" tears ran down as realisation kept hitting her like a sharp knife loud painful cry escaped hurriedly rushed outside with a hope to control her emotions.
What did she do to them ?
she broke them ..
she tore them ..
she didn't value their selfless love ..
she didn't see their pain ..
she kept hurting them ..
she only thought about herself ..
she didn't feel the need to know her husband ...
she didn't feel the need to ask him ..
she didn't ask any of them ..
she only prioritised herself ..
she didn't bother to know their wish ..
she judged them ..
she blamed them ..
she yelled at them ..
she accused them ..
she not even once tried giving him chance 💔
"Ya Allah, yeh mujhse kya hogaya main kab itne khud garz bann gaye, khudke haqooq (rights) ke badle kisi dusre ka nahi socha mere liye is rishte ki value nahi hoge, lekin unke liye jinho ne saalo pehle pakka kiya unka kya .. mere faisle ki wajah se kitno ko dhukh pochancha hoga taaya abu bhi meri wajah se takleef mein hai, sidharth, adil zoe taaye ammi .. main in sabke kasurwaar hoon sirf mere future ko bachane ke liye unho ne itna bara qadam uthaya main un par gussa kar rahe thi jab ke saare zindagi unka ehsaan nahi chuka paunge, sidharth ne bhi toh samjhota kiya tha na maine .. kyun nahi .. yeh jaan ne ki .. koshish kyun nahi ki ke sidharth mujhe talaaq kyun nahi de rahe ?" he might have feelings for her, she wondered.
That's why, he was so adamant to convince him a man, would never do until an unless he has some thing how stupid of her, she didn't notice his love his care, right and limitless interference, he did it as her husband "I can't lose them, I'll apologise is ghar mein aisa koi nahi joh mujhse baat na kare I will do anything to set everything right" she utter with determination, wiping tears quickly march's inside with a water bottle "taaye ammi, aap kabse roh rahe hain please thoda sa paani pee lijiye ?" it came out as a request.
Zahra ji, passed death glare "zoya, inse keh dijiye hume pyaas lagegi toh khud pee lainge inko fikar karne ki zaroorat nahi already hamare liye bohut kuch kar chuke hain" harshly, replied.
"Please ..." Zoya asks her to leave them alone her attitude, made her feel exactly what they must've felt while enduring her never ending tantrums to obey quietly sat in the opposite bench.
"Ammi, you should leave aap kal subah ana main hoon yahan, fikar karne ki zaroorat nahi adil leke jaa sabko ghar main aaj raat yahin rukunga" zoya denies "tum ammi ka khayal rakho main updates daita rahunga na bache" insisted having no other choice respectfully gave into his request.
"I don't feel like going ..." zahra ji, weeps losing it taking a deep breath, kissed her head "ammi, aap sabse strong ho .. aap weak pad jaoge toh hamara kya hoga bhool gaye your my strength" nodded.
"Hmm ... take care !" she gently, stroked his face.
"Adil, take her along !" sidharth gestures towards shehnaaz "g, bhai .. shehnaaz" denies "kahin nahi jaunge main please sidharth yahin rehne dein na" insists, he snorts "koi zaroorat nahi jao yahan se ! family ke ilawa kisi ko rukne ki ijazat nahi .. mere khayal se .. zoya aur ammi se zayada sagi toh tum ho nahi phir yeh dikhawa kis baat ka ?" he taunts to make her feel how painful it is, when your own family disregards you like she did by treating her people as strangers "I know your upset, you have every right to be .." he cuts her off.
"Kyun, aaj nahi puchoge kis HAQ se ?" she stares at his dark orbs intensifying with hatred.
"Nahi, cause aap mujh par saare HAQ rakhte ho ! Jis rishte mein hum bandhe hain uske chalte aap ke paas pura ikhtiyaar hai HAQ jatane ka !" great feels amazing to answer back.
"Oh please, I don't .. anyways ... you people leave we're no one to order her around" declares, while deeply looking into her beautiful orbs.
"Like always, she loves to do what she wants !" to ignore quickly looked away, his eyes, and words r real torture she can't give up soo easily especially when he waited so long to earn her love.
They head home meanwhile sidharth speaks to a doctor after getting assured came outside to find her eagerly waiting with sandwiches "kya kaha is he okay, tension ki koi baat toh nahi na ?" he sits quietly by his father's room where he's admitted.
"Main aap se kuch puch rahe hoon ?" ignoring it silently rests his head against the wall .. shutting his exhausted eyes .. relaxed himself.
To assure, everything is going to be alright went, and sat beside him "taaya abu kaha karte hain ki aap unka maan ho ... guroor ho aapke hote huwe unko fikar karne ki zaroorat nahi kyunke aap me khud ko dekha karte aye hain, pata tha ke aap na unke absence me harr chees ka khayal rakh sakte ho .. sab theek hojayega .. bharosa rakhiye" holds his hand, having enough of her drama, scolded.
"Mujhe tumse jaan ne ki zaroorat nahin ke mera unke nazraun mein kya mukaam hai, main janta hoon tumhare tarah bewaqoof nahin, apne ilawa dusraun ke baare mein bhi ache se jaanta hoon I don't need to hear it from anybody especially not from you tum is duniya ki aakhri ladki hoge jiske muh se main kuch acha sunn na chahunga, kyun shock lag raha hai adat daal loh ab se yahe milne wala hai .. tumhare wajah se abu ke yeh halat hai bichare bann kar kya sabit karna chahte ho ? mai is din ko bhool jaunga .. ya yeh bhool jaunga tum mujhse talaaq laina chahte ho ?" her eyes well up she didn't have a word to provide justifications it cannot be justified hence stayed silent.
"Ab kyun chup baithe ho .. bolo na .. aaj subah is zubaan se, bade challenges de rahe thi na, ab kya huwa muh ko taala kyun lag gaya, padho na apne umar ki tasbee jisko bare guroor se abu ke samne paish kar rahe thi" angrily says grasping her right wrist, she tries to take everything patiently "I had no idea .. he was this .." she cries, pleadingly.
"Really, I thought you were very smart ?!" taunts she cries helplessly "I did wrong to you" she says, doesn't matter as the damage is done 💔
"I don't care, stay the fuck away from me ... from my family .. you have lost us !" she shook head in desperation "sidharth" yanks her wrist "apne yeh jhoote ansoo kisi aur ko jakar dikhao tab kahan .. thai .. jab ammi, abu tumhe request kar rahe thai fikar thi unke ?" every word, and move is putting her into guilt .. irreversible .. remorse !
"Main andhe hogaye thi 😭" she wept, he doesn't dare to look at her what if those eyes melt him, as deep down still holds the power to own him.
"Okay, theek hai, main galat thi itna sab hone ke baad, mujhe ehsaas huwa hai ke maine gusse me kitna kuch kar diya hai" she tries to convince but he doesn't pay attention acts deaf losing patience hands over sandwich "please khaa laina .. khaane par mera gussa mat nikal na rizq hai khuda naraz hoga .." she helplessly, leaves to provide him little space, none of her explanations are going to undo what has been done !
He couldn't disrespect food therefore finished his sandwich with a lot of difficulty as it wasn't going down his throat "kya faida is rishte ka jis mein ek main he tha hamesha se ... mumkin koshish karta huwa is rishte ko bachane ka uske nazar mein toh na izzat thi na mukaam jis din chodne ka kaha na use din hamare rishte ne dum tod diya ab .. mujh mein na koi umeed hai na koi chah .. utar gaye ho mere dil se, sidharth kisi ki majboori bann kar ne rehna wala na kisi ki replacement" he thought.
"Main tumhe azaad kar dunga shehnaaz !" walks out to witness her quietly seated outside near the hospital in parking area feeding cats.
Looks aside, lightning up cigarette smoked while playing she notices his back, and instantly stands up "bhai, yaar aap ne kabse peene shuru karde ?" adil disappointedly, pulls the stick, and throws it down making her sigh in relief.
"Pagal hai, kabhi kabar chalta hai .. mera matlab tujhe nahi .. sirf mujhe it helps me to calm down warna yeh saala restlessness ne band baja de" to release stress smokes sometimes very rarely, but due to her drama has become everyday's thing.
"How is dad ?" adil asked.
"Fine, will release him tomorrow .. after carrying out some major tests, duaa karo !" sidharth said.
"Hmm, inshallah sab theek hojayega !" adil told.
"Ammi ka sunao ?" sidharth asked.
"Aap ne jaisa kaha humne kiya, khaana khilaaya uske baad dawaye di .. shukar Allah ka sogayein" adil shared.
"Shabash, mera samajh daar bhai tu bhi sojata .. wapis kyun aya main tha na yahan sab dekh ne ke liye" sidharth praised, his young brother ❤️
"Adil ?" it was shehnaaz who finally got strength to talk to her favourite cousin her best friend.
"Hmm .." she didn't except coldness from him.
"Kya hum baat karsakte hain ?" she questioned, badly wants her buddy to talk hear her out.
"I have to check on my father !" saying walks on his way rejecting her approach.
Unable to tolerate, rushes behind "kaisa hai tu ? tere paas mujhe sune ka waqt nahi ? kya tere ko bilkul bhi interest nahi yeh jaan ne ka ke main .. kaisa mehsoos kar rahe hoon, tere besti ne kuch khaya bhi hai ya nahi, nafrat bhare nigahaun ko main kaise jhail rahe hoon ? meri aankhaun ke .. gheere ansaaun se tujhe fadak nahi par raha ?" it was as if he's unaffected.
"Nahi, nahi hai waqt .. tere wajah se .. abu andar hain kaash zidd mein akar faisle na kiya hote we would have been at better position ... jiske wajah se, meri family ke ansoo nahi ruk rahe uske rone se meri zindagi par koi khaas fadak nahin pad ne wala" adil utters hurting her more "kya main teri family nahi ?" he shook head.
"Family sirf apna nahi ek dusre ka sochte hai all this while we were madly running after you tere khushiyaan hume matter karte thi lekin ab nahi duaa kar abu ko kuch na ho warna main tujhe .. kabhi maaf nahi karunga" adil utters, slashing a knife due to which she stumbled back.
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