I wake up with anxiety.
I think i barely slept 2 hours last night.
All i've done was think about today, the big day, today will be the day i'll confess everything to Lizzie, tell her i love her.
I'm scared? Yes, a lot actually, but i've never been so full of energy as today despite having little sleep.
I waited for Cassie to come back last night and i told her everything and she showed me all her support, she knows how i love Lizzie and she wants to see me happy even if she's a bit worried about it after what happened two weeks ago.
Then i spent the rest of the night writing with Hailee, i needed to distract myself so as not to go crazy over all the paranoia i was having about what might happen today. Even if i'm always honest with her, i've decided this time not to tell her anything, i don't want to hurt her further.
If things go well i'll tell her as soon as she gets back here.
After fixing my outfit one last time, i decide to leave my room.
Your outfit:
"Good luck Boo" Cassie says, kissing me on the cheek
"Thanks Cas, i hope everything goes right today" i say taking my backpack while she gives me a reassuring smile.
"Everything will be fine, and in any case i'm here for you, you know" she tells me and in turn i smile at her and then greet her and leave the apartment.
I decided to leave my apartment early just because i wanted to see her before i go to class, even though we'll have the rest of the day to spend together.
Me:
Morning little bear🤎
After a few seconds she answers me.
Lizzie🧸:
Morning honey🤍,
why are you already awake?
Me:
Because i'm too happy for today
Lizzie🧸:
Me too baby,
i missed spending time together
Me:
Are you in class?
Lizzie🧸:
Yup, Mr. Walker just finished
bothering me (again)😑,
are you coming to rescue me?
Me:
Sure, i come to save you my little princess
Lizzie🧸:
I wait for you my hero🤍
Me:
I'm coming
Lizzie🧸:
Stop it😂
I laugh and then put the phone in my pocket.
I decide to buy something for breakfast to Lizzie.
I would like to go into Aubrey's cafeteria, but for today i pass, i don't want to spoil anything of this day, even if sooner or later i'll have to talk to her.
After buying a cookie and coffee in the campus cafeteria, i walk into the school and walk to the door of her classroom.
I knock but no one answers from the other side, so i decide to go in but i see no trace of Lizzie anywhere.
"Liz?"
Where the hell did she go?
"Liz where are yo-"
"Buh!" she screams suddenly coming out behind the bookcase, scaring me and almost making me drop the coffee on the floor.
"Jesus Liz i almost had a heart attack" i say while she laughs
"Sorry baby it was so fun" she tells me giving me a soft kiss on my cheek.
I feel my stomach twist and my heart stop for a few seconds.
"Is that for me?" she asks me pointing the cookie and the coffee and i nod.
"Thanks honey" she runs to hug me and i hold her tight to me.
Her delicious perfume invades my nose.
"I can't wait to be with you today" she whispers and then leaves a kiss on the hollow of my neck, giving me shivers. She raises her head to look at me and her green marbles fit together with my eyes.
"See you later?" she asks smiling at me
"Yes, see you later" i smile too, leaving her a kiss on her nose that she punctually scrunches adorably like a little kid.
I'm about to leave the classroom when she calls me.
"Y/n"
"Mmm?" i say turning towards her, she analyzes me with her gaze and then returns to look me in the eyes.
"You're so beautiful today" she says sending me to heaven
"You too Miss Olsen"
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After the lesson i left the classroom and went to the parking lot, waiting for Lizzie who soon arrives with her car.
"Are you waiting for someone Miss?" she asks rolling down the car window.
"Oh yes, i'm waiting for my teacher who loves to kidnap her students" i say ironically and she giggles
"Come on idiot get on" i do as she tells me.
"I kidnapped you very easily" she says but this time in a more sensual voice.
"Just because i like being kidnapped by you Olsen" i whisper, this time getting a little closer to her.
"You know, this is called Stockholm Syndrome" she tries to remain impassive, but i feel she's on the verge of giving in to me.
"Oh yeah? Well you know if it's a problem for you i can always leave" i lick my lips and then touch the lobe of her ear, she squeezes the steering wheel tightly while her body slumps into the seat.
"Mmm no, i love when you're all mine" she closes her eyes and relaxes at my touch and this is where i apply my revenge.
Without saying anything i walk away and return to my previous position, she opens her eyes wide and looks at me confused.
"So where are you taking me?" i pretend that nothing was happening and she seems to be a little disappointed, but then she too gets back into the position she was in before.
"Uhm-i-i don't know, where would you like to go?" i smile, a little because of the effect i just had on her and then because she's really trying to show me that she cares about me, even not caring where to go but just to be with me.
"We can go to Matt's restaurant, i'd a good time last time and then is more safe for you" i propose
"Sure? Really y/n we can go wherever you want, i just wanna be with you" i smile at seeing her so worried about me, she just wants to see me happy
"Yes, that's fine" our smiles match
"Perfect, then let's go" she starts the engine and we head towards our destination.
"What happened to your hands?" she asks breaking the silence
"Oh uhm nothing to worry about Liz" i say reassuring her
"Please tell me the truth" she insists
"Well ... let's say i drank a little too much and i punched the wall of my room" i explain.
I still remember that night, the night we returned from the trip. I was so full of anger and pain that i got lost in alcohol and my demons.
"It's my fault isn't it?" i hear from her voice that she feels so guilty and as much as she's the cause i don't like to see her feel so bad.
"Liz it's just the past now" i try to convince her, she takes my left hand between hers, brings it to her lips and without taking her eyes off the road, begins to slowly kiss each red knuckle, so delicately for fear of hurting me .
"I'm sorry, i'm really sorry Y/n.
I would like to be the cause of your happiness and not of your pain" her eyes are red and shiny, a tear touches her cheek and i wipe it with my thumb.
She places her cheek on the palm of my hand and closes her eyes for a few seconds relaxing at my touch.
"We have all the time in the world ahead, there will be a way to fix it. Let's move on without thinking about the past anymore, okay?" i tell her and she just nods.
"You're an angel, you know? You deserve all the good in this world" she tells me, continuing to kiss my hand.
"I have you, you're enough for me" i admit with the fear that she might refuse me and instead she smiles tenderly and leaves me another kiss and then gets back to driving.
I turn to the window to hide my smile as a happy idiot but especially in love.
Everything is going right, fate seems to be on my side for once.
While i look out i see something in the distance that catches my attention.
"Liz look there's a funfair!" i say pointing and attracting her attention this time.
Memories assail my mind, my face is painted a bit of bitterness and nostalgia and she notices it.
"Hey what's up?" she asks me worriedly
"Nothing is that ... my sister and i always went to a Funfair with my mother, it was one of the many family traditions that we had and which is no longer there. It's been years now"
"You miss her, isn't?" she asks kindlessly
"A lot" i admit
I miss my mom, i miss spending time with her.
I see Lizzie turn the wheel and change direction, getting closer and closer to the Funfair.
"What are you doing?" i ask confused
"Well let's go to the Funfair" she tells me
"What? Lizzie but it's dangerou-"
"I don't care, i told you i just wanna be with you and make you happy"
Is she really doing all of this for me?
God how much i love her.
We park and get out of the car, Lizzie looks around and i see her a little worried, after all i can only imagine how stressful it must be to never have privacy.
"Hey are you okay?" i ask, caressing her cheek, she looks me in the eyes and smiles at me.
"Yes, don't worry" she takes my hand and intertwines it with hers and i feel fireworks in my stomach.
"Here we go?" she asks and i nod.
At the entrance to the Funfair i see a stall with different dresses and hats and i get an idea.
Without saying anything, i run to the stall and she follows me confused
"Baby what are you doing?" i take two hats and put one on my head and one on her
"Here, so we are both less recognizable and no one will discover us" i explain
"That's a great idea honey, come on"
We walk, holding hands as if we were a couple and looking at the various attractions.
Actually i only look at her, the most beautiful attraction there is.
Lizzie's look:
"Uh honey look there's the cotton candy, can we get it?" she asks me with a puppy face that i can't resist so i nod and she super happy drags me with her.
When i'm with her i can eat, everything becomes easier, like if my demons disappear when i'm with her.
She's so beautiful, she looks like a little girl right now.
"Well now that you've eaten your cotton candy it's up to me to choose what to do" i say while she licks her fingers enjoying the sugar that is left around.
"You're right, what do you want to do?" she asks and i pretend to think about it but actually i already know.
"Mmm ... let me think ... Uh here, come with me" i grab her hand and drag her with me taking her in front of the haunted house.
"Do you want to do this?" she asks terrified and i nod
"Forget about it, all but not this" she says crossing her arms
"Come on, it will be fun, don't be a coward"
"I'm not a coward" she says pouting, god how much i would like to kiss her right now.
"Prove it" i challenge her
"Okay" she says pretending to be brave.
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"See? I'm not a cowar- Fuck!" she screams frightened seeing a guy dressed as a clown and hiding her face under my arm while i laugh teasing her.
"Stop it, it's not fun" she says offended
"Sorry baby, but your face was too funny"
"I hate you" she says, punching me on the shoulder.
"Would you do something else cowardly?" i propose to her
"Yes, now please" and so we get out of there.
I see a stall full of peluches so i decide to win one for her.
"Show me how good you are with those guns" she whispers in my ear making me shiver.
I regain my concentration and start to shot the cans in front of me, hitting them one by one.
I focus on the last one left.
"Here, this will bring you luck" she says giving me a soft kiss on the cheek and she's right, as soon as i take the last shot the bullet hits the can.
"Oh my god, baby you won!" she says hugging me and i hold her tight to me.
"Which one do you want miss?" the man behind the counter asks me
"Mmm this one" i point a big teddy bear.
"Here, it's for you. A big bear for my little bear" i say giving it to Lizzie who looks at me smiling.
"Thanks honey" she gives me another kiss on the cheek.
After this we decide to go to a pool with inflatable boats, but Lizzie's sense of competition leads us to end up chasing and bumping into each other.
We laugh and joke like two little kids playing and having fun together.
"Ah i beat you! Admit i won" she says satisfied while we return to her car.
"Yes, but you're wetter than me" i say referring to her soaked clothes
"Let's go to my house i'll give you some dry clothes"
So we head to her house, on the drive we sing out all the Taylor Swift songs and laugh every time Lizzie clash a note.
Once we arrive Lizzie begins to undress like if she has forgotten that i'm right here.
She takes off her jacket first, then her t-shirt, staying with her bra and i don't realize i'm staring at her until she's the one to make me notice it.
"So, do you like what you're looking at honey?" she tells me with a smirk
"Uhm sorry, i didn't mean" my face is burning right now
"Oh but i think you're very aware of what you're doing" her voice is hoarse, she slowly approaches me and ends up stopping me between her body and the wall.
"Tell me what you would like to do to me?" she asks me almost begging me
"Oh uhm-" i'm really embarrassed right now
"Come on baby don't be ashamed, i know you're thinking about it.
Tell me, would you like to touch me?" her warm breath touches my skin making me shiver.
I nod unable to speak.
"And then, what else would you like to do to me? I want you to describe everything" i swallow, meanwhile she takes off my jacket and unbuttons my jeans.
"Here i-i'd like to touch your boobs"
What the fuck am i saying?
"And then?" she insists panting
"And then-here i-i would like to taste you"
"Words baby, i need words" she bites her lower lips and this definetly drive me crazy.
"I would like to fuck you, now in this moment" i admit and i see satisfaction in her gaze.
"So fuck me honey" she orders me
"W-what?"
"I want you y/n, i want you so bad"
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A/N
Hiiiiii guys
I know you hate me, i left you with some suspense but trust me, it's worth it.
You were hoping for a love declaration from y / n weren't you?
Well I'll spoil you one thing, the next chapter will be important 🤫
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