Am I an actress?
Or am I a clown?
Acting and masking,
What's the difference between the two?
Am I pretentious?
Or am I just making myself secure?
Was it just an act
Or my real intentions?
Self-doubt, self-pity, self-harm
Had I any of these thoughts these past few nights?
Or do I continue to act the kind persona I've shown most people?
Which is the real me?
I keep interlacing and forgetting
That the character and the actress
May have similarities
But they are not the same.
Perhaps? Who knows.
But I know for one thing,
Actors give a piece of themselves
To their characters
To make it come to life.
As long as they don't forget
To discard it after.
They may retrieve it from time to time,
But do not take it back as yours.
Soiled things are still soiled even after fixing and cleaning it.