Authors note:
Major trigger warning as you can imagine.
You can totally skip this chapter and not miss out on the story line. She will be losing the baby this chapter.
I have named the chapter fetus deletus because I thought it was funny and I don't want anyone taking this chapter to heart.
(Mattheos Pov)
I'm more nervous for this then I was getting my dark mark. This time it's happening to someone I love, not myself.
"Shit the cramps are starting." She said wincing.
I reached into the bath and lightly ran my hands over her stomach.
"Draco you good?" She asked.
Draco's been silent the whole time.
"I'm just nervous and extremely guilty. I can't believe I'm putting you through this." He said.
"It could have been me." I said.
"I guess we'll never know." Said Sierra.
"Hey at least we know the baby yours." I said pointing at Sierra.
She giggled a bit and even Draco smirked.
I want to keep the mood as light as possible.
Ten minutes have passed and all of the sudden Sierra grabbed her stomach.
"God okay it's getting bad now." She said.
"Let me hop in." I said. The jacuzzi was pretty big so I took my shirt and pants off and hopped in with my underwear.
(Sierras Pov)
The cramps were building up and I knew soon I would be in a lot of pain. Thank god Mattheo hopped in with me.
Draco took his clothes off and hopped in with his underwear on.
They were on both sides of me and I leaned my head on Mattheo.
I groaned and Mattheo grabbed me. He pulled me into his chest leaving my back exposed.
Draco leaned in and rubbed my back.
His hands were gently running along my spine and I sighed in relief.
I hated this.
I had a feeling of discomfort based on the circumstances. But I was also very comfortable because of the people I was with.
(Draco's Pov)
"This really hurts." She said at the verge of tears.
"I know I'm so sorry my love." I said.
I would do anything to make her feel better.
"If I could take your pain instead I would."
Said Mattheo.
He was right I would suffer for her in a heartbeat.
She was still laying in Mattheos arms and I felt like I needed to take over. I felt like I knew better then him.
She started whimpering and now was my chance. I grabbed her waist and brought her towards me. I put her head on my shoulder and she sat between my legs. I put my legs up giving her more support.
I touched her body and every bone was tense.
"I know this sucks but your very tense, take a breath and relax." I said.
(Sierras Pov)
It's so hard but I did. I took a breath and tried to relax.
I listened to Draco.
I would listen to anything he tells me to do.
After meeting his mother it all made sense.
As tough as Draco seemed he was a gentle soul.
He inherited that trait from his mother.
Another contraction hit me out of nowhere and I groaned again.
Draco grabbed on to me tighter but not too tight.
"I'll be right back." Said Mattheo.
He left the bathroom.
"Draco I can't do this anymore." I said crying.
I sat up and looked at him.
He grabbed my face and kissed my forehead.
"Your doing such a great job. I'm so proud of you."
His words were comforting. Draco always knew how to make me feel better when I was at my worst.
I leaned back on him so the back of my head was touching his chest. I sat between his legs and he put his arms gently around my stomach.
Mattheo came back with a bucket of cold water and a cloth.
He hopped back in.
"I don't want you to overheat." He said.
He dipped the cloth in the bucket and put it on my forehead.
Mattheo was right, I was overheating.
"Thank you so much Mattheo. I said kissing his cheek.
This is why I can't pick between them. Their both so amazing towards me. They go out of there way to do things for me. And they were both so good at it.
A cramp hit me out of nowhere causing me to fling forward.
I grabbed on to the bathtub and cried.
"Your okay, your okay." Said Mattheo stabilizing me.
I started breathing heavily because the cramp would not go away.
I tightly shut my eyes and strained.
God I felt it everywhere. In my stomach and especially my back.
The pain was getting bad and I couldn't stop sobbing.
Finally it stopped. I took a breath and leaned back.
"Are you okay?" Asked Mattheo.
I nodded and he wiped my eyes.
He put the cloth in the cold bucket of water and placed it on my forehead again cooling me down.
I heard sniffles coming from behind me. I turned around. It was Draco.
(Draco's Pov)
I couldn't bear watching this anymore I felt so incredibly bad. My eyes watered up and snot filled my nose.
"I c-can't watch this." I said. I didn't cry but I was getting really close.
Seeing Sierra in pain really hurt me. I would rather go through the pain of getting the dark mark again then have her go through this.
Sierra and Mattheo looked at me.
Mattheo gently grabbed her and took her from me.
Sierra needed Mattheo. I was being a little bitch. Im feeling no physical pain and I'm on the verge of tears. Mattheo was so much stronger than me.
"Take a breather Draco." He said.
God I felt so weak. Sierra was the one going through this and I needed the break.
"I'm so sorry Sierra. Your so much stronger then me." I said.
It was true. Maybe not physically but mentally I was the weakest one here.
(Mattheos Pov)
I grabbed on to Sierra and she wrapped her arms around my back.
I felt her tense up as another cramp hit her and she dug her nails into my back.
The cramp finally stopped and Sierra looked at my back.
"I'm sorry Mattheo." She said crying.
She rubbed my back and showed me her hands.
Blood.
"Don't worry about it." I said.
(Sierras Pov)
Holy shit I dug into his skin. I felt so bad I didn't realize I was using that much force.
"It's getting hot again." I said.
Mattheo reached over and put the wet cloth on my forehead.
I looked over at Draco and he was slightly shaking.
30 minutes passed and it was the same thing repeating over and over. A cramp would hit, I would go back and forth between them 2 and I would cry.
I let go of Draco and leaned my stomach against the tub.
I bent over the tub to relieve myself from the pain.
"I can't do this anymore, make it stop." I said sobbing.
"We can't darling your almost done." Said Draco.
Draco wiped his eyes since his tears took over.
Mattheo came over to me and put his arm around me. He came over to my face and lightly kissed my cheek.
I dug my head into his chest.
I did that a lot.
Any time Mattheo would comfort me his chest was the place I would go. I felt safe in there, like no one could hurt me.
When Mattheo held me I felt safe. His shoulders were a bit broad but not too broad so I still had a feeling of comfort.
That's where Mattheo shines the most.
He makes me feel safe.
Which is weird to say considering he punched me.
Sure Draco makes me feel safe but in a different way.
If I wanted to talk about my emotions and be completely vulnerable I would go to Draco.
If I was fearing for my life and running from a murderer I would go to Mattheo.
I knew it was close to being over since my cramps were at there worst.
They come a lot faster now and lasted a lot longer.
Another one hit me and I cried into Mattheo.
"I can't handle this any more." I said.
"Guys try to do something, is there a spell or anything to get rid of this pain." I asked desperately.
"There is but Mrs. Malfoy said not to tamper with the potion." Said Mattheo.
"Just risk it, please Mattheo.
"Please."
Draco sat near me and grabbed me.
"I'm so sorry darling we can't put you in danger."
"Please Draco, Mattheo help me."
(Mattheos Pov)
I hated hearing her beg like that. It sucked since all I could do was sit here and watch.
She sobbed in pain again as she grabbed Draco.
"Mattheo should we risk it?" Said Draco.
I nervously bit my lip.
"What if it doesn't work and she has to do this again."
"No not again!" She yelled.
"You won't don't worry."
I watched as she trembled in pain and all of the sudden something happened to me,
something I thought I would never do again.
My eyes.
They were wet.
Could this really be?
Was I finally crying?
A tear dripped down.
I know this seems dramatic but I haven't cried since I was like 5. I've always felt so emotionless when it came to sadness. I was great with expressing everything else though.
"Holy shit." I said.
They both turned their heads towards me and gasped.
"You can cry?" Asked Sierra.
Draco's eyes widened.
Suddenly I sniffled.
"Fuck it's about time. 11 years of keeping shit in can't be healthy." I said.
"No it's really not." Said Sierra.
So that's what it took huh.
When I say Sierras changing me for the better I fucking mean it.
Authors Note:
Just another warning incase people aren't good with blood. This is the part where she physically loses the baby so the topic of blood will be mentioned.
(Draco's Pov)
Mattheo must really care about Sierra. This mother fucker didn't even cry getting his dark mark.
He wiped his eyes.
"I think I'm gonna bleed it out soon." Said Sierra.
She was in my lap and I don't do well with blood. Sure I told her I didn't mind back when I took her virginity but this was different.
"What makes you say that?" Asks Mattheo still sniffling.
"Because most of the pressure is on my lower stomach now."
It would have made me look like an asshole if I let her go. I have to fight past it.
And it's just blood, not a huge deal right?
I mean that's what father would tell me when he-
never mind.
All of the sudden a small pool of red filled underneath Sierra.
"Shit I should move." She said getting off of me.
The pool of blood made me nauseous but I couldn't be weak now.
"Wow it's really going." She said.
She looked at it in tears.
"My baby is gone." She said crying.
Her voice was all shaky and soft and I felt so incredibly bad.
I reached over and grabbed her face, wiping her tears.
"I know Sierra come here." Said Mattheo.
"I'm not done bleeding yet." She said.
"I couldn't care less. Don't go through this alone." He said.
He grabbed her waist and she sat between his legs. Slowly she let out more and more blood. Her cries got more heartbreaking by the second.
I don't think it was the physical pain causing it though.
I started sniffling again. I hated crying in front of people but nothing I could do would hold it in.
(Sierras Pov)
It's over.
It's gone.
I cried as I watched the tub fill with blood. I looked at Draco and he was crying as he watched.
I looked behind me and saw Mattheo staring down at me.
His eyes were red and tears dripped down.
Seeing Mattheo cry was a different type of pain.
It's like seeing your parents cry. Your parents are supposed to be the brave ones who would always protect you so seeing them cry hit different.
It was the same with Mattheo.
Seeing this guy who was so brave and strong cry felt different.
He ran his fingers through my hair and kissed my cheek.
"Good job darling." He said as a tear dripped down.
Draco sat next to us and grabbed my face.
"I'm so proud of you, your such a strong women you know."
Hearing them saying these reassuring words made me smile, even though the situation was so weird.
I bled again and it spread around including on Draco.
I heard him gag.
He moved his head to the opposite end of the tub and puked.
So many emotions were passing in and out but that caused me to giggle.
"Why are you laughing." He said with a confused smile.
"Looks like I'm not the only one who's filled the tub with bodily fluids." I said giggling.
Draco and Mattheo giggled back.
It was such a bittersweet moment.
The pain finally stopped which was great though.
We waited a couple more minutes to make sure I was completely done.
"Okay let's drain the water I can't stand looking at this." Said Draco.
He was right I was ready to be done.
We drained all the water and I tried to stand but couldn't.
"I've got you darling." Said Draco. He picked me up and stepped out of the jacuzzi.
I was absolutely exhausted and sore I needed a nice shower.
"I need to wash all this off of me." I said.
"Sure we can give u a shower." Said Mattheo.
I couldn't walk so Draco had to carry me to his shower.
I stepped in and it was huge. It still shocked me how someone could be so rich.
Mattheo held me up as Draco once again massaged shampoo into my hair.
Wow.
What a full circle moment.
This exact scenario is what caused this in the first place.