Chapter - 35
" why can't you wait? Why can't you wait till i fall out of love "
Riddhima
I
feel nothing but emptiness inside
My throat hurts at how much i want to scream but i can’t how much i want to push him punch him but i can’t
I feel nothing but fucking useless
How could he?
That all i can think about that how can he do that to me how can? I spend the entire day at my room refused to go out of my room even for eating
I haven’t eat anything today i haven’t and it is already afternoon i made up a excuse for locking me inside saying i have some stomach issue that is making me sick and after that they stop bothering me
Yes the stop
And now laying down with a pool of wetness gathering in my eyes i feel nothing but helpless hurt betrayed
My head started to hurt as to how much i cried
My chin trembles again as i remember him betraying me
A knock forced me to wipe the tears of and i stood up sighing ready to tell them i don't want to eat for the hundred time today only to be stopped when i saw vansh
Suddenly my chest clenched painfully and my eyes starts to sting again at the sight of him he have a frown on his face as he looked at me
"You haven’t eaten anything till morning why is that?" he asked with his usual deep voice that i wince
When i don’t answer he continues
"Well riddhima is it for earlier today? Me and sophie? Riddhima you can’t act like that now " he declared suddenly his eyes dark as ever
And sudden anger consumes me all the hurt turned into anger and i can’t control it anymore
"You expect me to sit back and cheer for you guys? After you very fucked me at your desk yesterday you fucked her at night tell me vansh do you want me to sit back and cheer for you guys? " i spat and his jaw clenched as he pushed me deep into the room and closed the door behind
"You certainly lost your mind riddhima you agreed it to be just sex and now you can’t tell me what to do about it you said you will be on your own and i will be on mine so what is bothering you now? " he said each words harshly and i just stare at him
Who is this man?
N-no i don't know him this can't be vansh he isn’t a asshole right? He Isn’t
My throat feels like it is closing around and i chocked on the air and his harsh line is gone replaced with pure concern
"G-get out" i managed to let out through my harsh pants
"Wha—"
"I said get the fuck out" i yelled knowing very well its his fucking house and im telling him to get out from his own house but i dont care that now all i care is i want this man to be out from my room
He sighed and fist his hands as he went out
And right the very moment i collapsed on the floor and scream in pure pain
In pure distress tears leaked for my eyes and my vision blurs
"I fucking hate you" i scream again don’t even caring if he listened or not don't even care if i hurted him or not
My distress showed it all my hurt showed it all
I gripped my head with both of my hands as i feel it to pound
I want to leave this house i can't live here knowing i will have to face the man again the man i very foolishly give all
My virginity
Now my heart
Yes and he left my heart to bleed
He pushed a knife and tear it apart he left it to bleed
He left it to bleed
...
My hips rocks around the strangers body as i grind into them and shake my head pushing my hands up in the world as tears sting into my eyes
After my breakdown i called stacy and asked if she wants to go out clubbing and she agreed
Leading me here with her besides me both of us dancing like crazy in this dancefloor
With tears in my eyes that no one is aware of
Besides i don’t think so it matters i don't think anybody cares about my tears anyways
"You are killing me baby" the very blond stranger im grinding myself into whispers and i smile at him a fake sweet smile through the tears
And turned to face him
"Yeah?" i asked him he nods
He observe my teary face with his lusty eyes and i wince
Lust is that all the have in their eyes when the looks at me
Do they see me as fresh meats?
And my throat went dry as more tears stings at the thought
Clearing my throat " uhm excuse me i need to go to the restroom " i said his face broke into disappointness but he nodded
So i pushed through the cowards after telling stacy im going to the restroom
And went there after im inside i closed my eyes and pushed myself on the door as tears falls from my eyes
"No no ridz stop crying stop being sensitive " but i cry harder at my words
And after i calm myself down i wash my face with the water and went out only to bump into someone
"Oh I'm so sorr— wait ridz?" asked a very familiar voice and i look up to find vance standing there
"Vance " i said he smiles at me
"Wait what are you doing here?" he asked
I swallow
"I just here to clear my mind " i said
He frown "clearing your mind and club doesn’t sit well though" he said
And i laughed at that right
It doesn’t
"But since you are here lets go grab some drinks " he said and i nodded
Besides i can trust him
As we went to the bar and i order another vodka martini he order a whiskey and we put have our shots in our hand
Taking the shot i closed my eyes and let it burn my throat and down my stomach opening my eyes straight went to the VIP area where people in black suits are seated
But one of them happens to be the tattoed man with dark eyes and hair to catch my eyes
Alex moretti
What is he doing here?
I frown
Then my eyes went to the devil seating besides him and talking with the other bald guy that looks equally dangerous
Vansh? Alex?
What are they doing here? Together late at night at this club
Besides shouldn’t he be pleasuring sophie?
"Ridz?" vance's questioning voice pull me out of my thoughts and i drag my eyes from them to him
"Yes?" i asked
"What is the matter you seem very distract today" he asked
I force a smile and chuckled
"Its nothing " i said "oh " he mutters his voice still unsure but he mange to give me a nod
When i drag my eyes from him to the VIP area again
I chocked when i saw alex's dark eyes looking directly on mine as if seeing my soul i move in my sit uncomfortably and saw a smirk curve to his lips as he says something and right then vansh's dark eyes snapped to mine
And i swear i almost melt there at how hard he glare and how hard he clenched his jaw
I saw alex's lips to move again and this time he stands up and started to to come where I'm i quikly looked at vance
"I actually came here with stacy i introduced you to her remember? She is the intern where im can you please help me and find her? I dont feel very well i need to go home " i rushed out as i point to where she is
He nodded his head and stand up going her directions on the dancefloor
"Well if it isn’t the sweetheart " his dark rough voice made me flinch and i look ay him
"What do you mean and don’t call me that" i managed to let out this man towers overs me
And im hella afraid of him cause vansh managed to fill the information at how dangerous he is
He chuckled
"Well your lover boy seems pretty angry you are here sweetheart girl like you doesn't belong here" he let out and o clenched my fist looking directly in vansh's eyes
"He isn’t my lover boy he is nobody " i said through clenched teeth and somehow vansh i think managed to understand what i said because next thing i know he is clenching his jaw and fist harder as he stands up
Alex chuckled again
"Im sure you will be shocked to know how much he is doing it he must fall hard for you " he let out another chuckled yet again
I frown "i dont understand and can you stop being a ass and talk like a normal person?" i almost instantly regret what i said the moment his face grow hard and he becomes all serious
Licking my dry lips i shake under his intense gaze
"Listen here little one everything that is being done have some goal underneath so work a little hard on this brain and you will be thanking me for being a ass" he says the exact moment vansh stands besides me
"We are leaving " he said with a hard glare thrown my way daring me to say anything
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Uff how much i love suspense
After heartbreak this is my second favourite thing
To hold you guys on nothing
:)