inspired by the movie '10 things i hate about you'
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I hate the way you bring this grey feeling in my chest
I hate the way I should be relieved and be in rest
Because even if I hate the way you make me smile
I still crave the feeling every once in a while
I hate the way you make my heart skip
I hate the way the butterflies flutter whenever I say your name
Despite the fact that it brings me pain
I hate how you make me feel so small
Because with every word leaving your lips
I wanna take back my feelings and diminish them all
I hate how vulnerable I am in your presence
How I let my guard down and let you take a glimpse inside of me
While I so can't let the feelings between us be
I hate the way you make me smile
The way it's an effect of the thought of you
I hate the way you hurt me so easily
Because I wish for the feeling of your lips on mine
While you step away with your eyes on the clouds and thoughts with someone else
I hate the way I think about you
Because even when I don't want to, there's still a trace of you in my mind
I hate the way I talk about you to my friends
The sound of your name resounding in the air
While my voice is filled with despair
Because I ask myself so many questions
As you laugh at my pain but soothe me with your words
I hate the way my body feels when talking to you
Because you're the first one to ever make me this confused