JAB KAHA THA MOHABBAT GUNAH TOH NAHI
FIR GUNAH K BARABAR SAJA KYUN MILI?
Things messed up between sidnaaz after that day. It has been one week . The besties who couldn't live without each other for one hour , was now so far from each other! They could feel the distance between them. One wanted this distance and the other one was confused with everything.
That day when Sidharth told sana not to say love you too to raj , she asked him...
Sana: kyun na bolu? Wo pyaar karta hai mujhe. Boyfriend hai wo mera! Tu mujhe aise rok nahi saakta sidhaaarth!
He looked at her with hurt in his eyes.
Sid: kyun mujhe tere pe haaq nahi hai?
Sana: hai par meri bhi kuch personal choices ho saakti hai na Sidharth? Wo mujse pyaar karta hai. Mera khyal rakhta hai. Toh fir mai usko pyaar kyun na karu? Hum dono relationship mein hai. Relationship mein ye sab normal hai. Raj meri bohot care karta hai!
He looked at her like a befool. His sana, his baby who always defended him over everyone , was defending her so called boyfriend today! That's how priorities change over time right ? People whom we love and who love us today, can change their priorities anytime. And what can we do? Just stay silent and see how our beautiful bond breaks because of a third person?
Those memories , those promises, that warmth, that friendship, that comfort, nothing seemed like before!
Sana, who could ignore the whole world for her Sidharth, was today defending someone whom she knows for just some days.
It was hurting , it was hurting him a lot to see his favourite person changing like this! His sana who never did anything against his will, was so unknown today!
He made her sit in the bed and stood up.
Sana: kaha jaa raha hai?
Sid: ghar.
He said without looking at her.
Sana: kyun!? Yaha hi reh na mere pas!
He looked at her painfully and said....
Sid: wo haaq nahi hai mera!!!
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He left the room with a broken heart while she sat on the bed being confused .
Shehnaaz had no idea how much she has given pain to her Sidharth! How much insecurity and fear has built in his mind ? She said all this casually, as she feels that they are best friends and they should support each other's love life!
If he will love someone, she will support him. Then why he is trying to stop her? She had no idea about his feelings! And from childhood, Sidharth has pampered her. He has cared for her. He has never ignored her. That's why she never felt that pain which people feel when their favourite person ignore them.
She never had any relationship. As raj was her crush and he is caring and loving, according to her, she thinks it's love!! She really didn't have any idea about her own feelings and Sidharth's feelings, nor did she know that things will change between them!
That day Sidharth came home and threw things here and there! All he could feel was pain. His room became messy, just like his mind. The things he broke in anger, was showing his broken state!
He realised his love and she just rejected him inderectly.
After that day, in this one week, Sidharth ignored shehnaaz! Whenever she came in his house, he didn't talk to her. Whenever she used to come to his room for talking to him , he used to make an excuse of attending important meetings. They didn't speak a word after that night . Actually she didn't get the chance to talk and he didn't give her the chance deliberately.
He used to stand beside the window to admire the moon at nights and some nights he saw raj's car who used to come to drop sana home after a date maybe! He used to look at her face, she looked happy. And when raj used to hug her, Sidharth used to close the window. The pain used to increase whenever he used to think that she loves someone else!
They, as best friends used to share every damn thing since childhood. But when the pain is given by the person who used to heal your pain once, that hurts.
Today they were attending a marriage of a mutual business partner of shuklas and gills.
Sana was sad as she never felt this much unwanted. Though she didn't have any idea that Sidharth is ignoring her intentionally , she thought that he is busy but still it was hurting her!
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Sidharth had no interest in attending the function as he knew that shehnaaz would be there. Ignoring her was the only thing he could do ! But his dad requested him. So he reached there directly from office.
When he reached there, he saw her, she was wearing a beautiful Anarkali dress. For a moment he forgot everything and looked at her in a daze. He never looked at her like this. She is so beautiful, the beauty he wanted to protect.
But the next moment he fisted his hands as raj was holding her hand and she was smiling at him.
His heart again felt those kind of pain which he wanted to ignore!
Sana saw Sidharth and ran towards him.
Sana: sidhaaarth!
He looked at calmly.
Sana: mai kaisi lag rahi hoon?
She asked excitedly.
Sid: Ask your boyfriend!
Saying that he left from there and she didn't know why his statement made her sad.
Raj had complimented her but she didn't feel happy. She wanted Sidharth to tell her how she is looking.
Sidharth was standing with his dad and sana's dad. His eyes never stopped looking at her who was looking pale. He knew he has made her sad. And her sadness affects him so much.
Everytime he wanted to go and hug her , comfort her , raj used to come there! Everytime he was seeing the bitter truth that she is not his, she loves another man. She is happy with another man!!!
His heart broke beyond repair when raj told about his and sana's relationship infront of Mr. Gill. He asked his daughter , if she is happy with raj? And sana nodded with a little smile. For her parents, her happiness matters the most. Raj was a son of one business partner of Mr. Gill. So he thought that raj is not a bad choice for his daughter.
Mr. Gill: Sidharth beta! Tumne toh suna sab kuch. Sana k mamle mein agar mai kisi pe sab se jada yakeen kar saakta hoon toh wo tum ho. Tumhe kya lagta hai ye rishta sahi rahega sana k liye?
Sidharth looked directly at sana's eyes and said...
Sid: Haan uncle. She already told me that she loves raj and she is happy with him. I think you can think about this proposal.
Sana didn't know why she didn't like it. Shouldn't she be happy that Sidharth finally approved her relationship?
Mr. Gill nodded ..
Mr. Gill: raj beta tum apne mummy papa ko le k ghar aa jaana! Mil k baat karenge.
Raj happily nodded.
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Sidharth fisted his palms and left.
He wanted to go from here! His heart was paining. He never knew love can hurt like this.
He was about to go but sana held his hand and he looked at her.
She asked him in a cracking voice, with tears in her eyes....
Sana: tu mujhe ignore kar raha hai?
For once, he wanted to hug her but he controlled himself and replied ....
Sid: nahi toh.
Sana: mere se baat kyun nahi kar raha hai dhaang se?
Sid: busy tha!
Sana: mere liye toh tu hamesha free hota tha na sidhaaarth??
Sid: People change na? Anyway congratulations! Tera rishta fix ho gya!!
He looked at her with a lot of emotions...
Sana: tu khush hai?
Sid: haan bohot!
Sana looked down. She didn't know why it was hurting so much. She actually never fell in love . That's why she wasn't able to realize that her heart has fallen in love with her best friend.
He looked at her for some seconds and left.
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The whole night they both couldn't sleep. But they didn't find that comfort to go to each other , hug each other, scold each other for this distance.
Next morning, sana came into sid's house and saw mona and rita ji were sitting together.
Rita ji; arey sana beta accha hua tu aa gyi. Mona ko jara ready kar dena!!
Sana: kyun?
Rita ji giggled and mona blushed.
Rita ji; aaj mona Sidharth k saath date pe jaa rahi hai!
Sana: sidhaaarth ko paata hai iss date ki baat?
Mona: yup ! Infact for the first time he agreed to go in a date with me. I am so Happy.
As soon as sana heard this statement, she felt numb. She always thought that she would be happy when Sidharth will make a girlfriend!
Then why she isn't feeling happy now? Why she is feeling that something broke inside her, maybe her heart! ?!
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