"Hey"
"Y/n...what are you doing here?" she asks visibly surprised
"Well i guess for a coffee" i show a little smile
"U-uhm yes of course, the usual i guess" i nod and she runs behind the counter to make my coffee.
"Here you are" hands me the cup.
For the first time since a while i see a smile on her face.
I look at her carefully to understand what is different about her.
"Your hair...they are short" i say
Actually they're very short.
She looks at me confused.
"Wait i mean you're pretty good, it's just i didn't think you'd ever cut them, i know how much you care about your hai-"
"Listen Y/n you better go now" she says annoyed
Congratulations y/n you are always good at ruining everything
"Sorry Bre, i didn't mean to offend you, actually, here uhm- you are very beautiful" i say turning red and she smiles and lowers her head shyly
"Listen, i'll finish my turn soon, would you like to wait for me?" she asks me
Why is she so kind? I mean after what happened last time i didn't even think she was going to talk to me again.
"Fine" i say going to sit at one of the tables. I don't know why i'm here and i don't know what i'm doing, i'm just following my instict. My head tells me to go away, not to fall back into that toxicity from which i have finally freed myself but my heart tells me to stay right here. But then suddenly i remember my appointment with Lizzie, i decide to text her to apologize, i'm sure she will understand.
Me:
Hey little bear,
i'm sorry but i can't
come to you anymore,
i had a setback,
i promise i'll be forgiven
I'm a liar
Lizzie🧸:
What happened?
What do i tell her now? Why am i lying to her?
I don't know what excuse to invent so i choose the easy way, i decide not to answer her, but i don't know if i'm doing the right thing actually.
"Same table where we first met huh?" i'm taken aback by Aubrey, i didn't even realize i actually sat right where we first met. I turn to her and see that she smiles at me. I admit, despite everything and the new haircut, i still find her beautiful.
"I guess i like to live in memories"
"Yeah i see, so did you come here just for a coffee or for something else?" she asks me
"I don't think i came here for coffee actually" i look her in the eyes and she does the same.
"I have to go buy some things, would you like to come with me?"
"Uhm sure, could we go with my motorbike, shall we go to my apartment first and then go?" i ask hopefully, i don't know why but i'm so excited to spend some time with her, it seems like everything bad that happened in our relationship never happened, like we went back to when we met.
"I think it's a great idea, i missed your motorbike" she says smiling.
I remember all the motorbike trips we did, no matter where we went, it was enough to be together, but then in the last period of our relationship things had gotten more difficult, she didn't want to go anywhere with me anymore and i found myself on my own always alone.
"Hey i know it's been a while now, but i wanted to apologize for how i spoke to you last time" she says while we leave the cafeteria.
"It's okay Bre, we were both upset that day, i'm glad that now we are dealing with it in a more mature way"
"Me too, i wanted to write to you but after everything i told you i thought you hated me" she says playing with her rings
"I could never hate you. I mean yes, at first i had so much anger towards you but then i realized that it would lead nowhere to have so much bitterness inside of me"
"I'm so sorry Y/n, you don't deserve anything i've done to you" her voice breaks and i see tears slide down her face.
Is she really that sorry?
"Hey it's okay, please look at me" i say gently caressing her cheek, she raise her head and finally i see her green eyes
"I'm not angry with you okay? No need to cry. Come her" i hug her tightly to me and her cherry-flavored perfume pervades my nose, god if i missed it.
"Y/n i-i owe you some explanations, look-" i raise my head and see behind her, a few meters away, Lizzie leaning against her car looking at us. I immediately walk away from Aubrey and she realizes that something is wrong.
"Hey Y/n what's wrong?" she asks but i'm too busy watching Lizzie look at me angry and disappointed at the same time.
"Lizzie ..." i say but words fail me.
Aubrey turns and widens her eyes when she recognizes Lizzie.
"Oh God not her again. Maybe i better go, i wouldn't want her to punish me, see you okay?" she say and i just nod, she gently kisses my cheek, touching the corner of my lips.
"See you babe" she smirks at me and then goes away.
I feel so destabilized, but even more terrified because Lizzie has seen the whole scene.
"Liz i-"
"Was this your setback? Spending time with your ex? The same one that yelled at you and hurt you? The same one from which i defended you?" she's so mad and she's right to be.
"I'm sorry, i did not want to"
"Fuck y/n you lied to me! and you ignored me, i texted you a lot but evidently you were so busy letting her manipulate you" she raises the tone of her voice
"Don't tell me i'm the one being manipulated, think about you and Robbie" what the fuck did i just say?
She changes expression, in her gaze i only see so much disappointment, her eyes begin to fill with tears but it's clear that she doesn't want to cry in front of me
"So now you also use what i tell you against me? You know i was so worried, i ran here because i thought something had happened to you, but i'm just a stupid, a stupid who let herself go in a mess, risking everything for a person who doesn't give a damn about me. Congratulations y/n, you succeed to get me away from you if this was your intention"
"Liz please" i start to sobbing but she's so cold with me
"Don't talk to me again" she says and then gets into her car.
"Liz!" i try to reach her but i'm interrupted by a voice behind me, i look once more at Lizzie who looks at me almost disgusted and then leaves.
"Sorry y/n, am i bothering you?" i turn around and see my neighbor
"Tessa hi...uhm no it's okay don't worry, you need something?"
I would like to run to Lizzie right now but i can't.
"Yes actually, my boss called me and wants me to go out of town on business, but i couldn't find anyone who could look after Julian. Is it a problem if i leave him for a day? I know how he loves you and i'd be more comfortable leaving him in your hands" says the black-haired woman.
I look down and look at the little boy who squeezes his mother's hand, while with the other arm he hugs his teddy bear.
"Hey little bear, would you like to stay with me for a while? We can do a lot of fun things and even things mom doesn't want, but you don't have to tell her okay?" i say whispering, getting on my knees so as to get to his height.
"Yup! can i also have an ice cream?" asks the little boy and his mom giggles
"Of course, all you want little bear" i say smiling at him and he immediately hugs me.
"You're the best, i love you Y/n" he says
I swear i love this kid, he's incredible.
He's 5 years old, but he's really smart for his age. I've known him since he was little, Cassie and i often babysat him because his mother's financial and working situation is not easy, she loves her son very much and does everything to make sure he doesn't miss anything but sometimes this also means separating sometimes from him.
Julian's look:
""Well, i see that i can go, come on give me a kiss honey" says Tessa to her son, the little boy immediately runs into her arms and leaves her many kisses making his mother laugh.
"I love you mom"
"Me too love, i promise i'll be back soon, you'll be good and don't make in troubles y/n okay?"
"Don't worry Tes, he'll be good and we'll have a lot of fun" i say reassuring her. She smiles at me and after saying goodbye she leaves.
"Do you want to give me your backpack little bear?" i ask to Julian, he nods and give me it.
"So what do you want to do?"
"Ummm, can we make our cookies and then watch a movie?" he says playing with my coat, or better, Lizzie's coat.
I can't help but think about her, i was a bitch earlier and i hurt her deeply.
"That's a great idea, but we must first go and buy the ingredients" i say trying to stay positive in front of the eyes of Julian.
"Can we go with your motorbike?" he asks hopefully
"Mmm fine, but that this remains as always a secret between you and me, promise little bear?"
"Promise Y/n" he says and we made our pinky promise.
We go to my apartment to get the keys and the little helmet i bought months ago for him. Sometimes when he stays with me i carry him around on my motorbike and it's so cute to see this little kid being happy with so little. It must not be easy for him to be away from his mother often and i partly understand that, but he's always full of positive energy. I have grown very fond of him over the years and i would do anything to make him happy.
"Y/n?" he says while i help him put on his helmet
"Yes little bear?"
"Who's Lizzie?" he asks and i look at him confused
"What?"
"The helmet, it says 'Lizzie', who is?" i look at the trunk of the bike, which i opened to take my helmet, and i see the helmet i had customized for Lizzie. My heart breaks, i want so much to cry but i can't in front of Julian.
"Uhm s-she's just a friend" i say
"Is she the girl from before? The one you were talking to earlier?"
"Y-yes"
"It's because of her you're sad?" he asks
How did he understand?
"Wait what how-i'm not sad" i lying
"You are, i see it in your eyes, i don't like you're sad"
God this boy is so smart.
"It's okay little bear, i'm fine" i lie again
"Did you two have a fight?"
"Yes, we had a fight because of me" i explain
"Why?"
"Let's say that i didn't behave correctly towards her and i lied to her and now i don't know how to make her forgive me"
Am i really confiding with a kid?
"Oh i got an idea!" he scream and i smile at his cutess
"Tell me little bear"
"We buy her some flowers and bring her our famous cookies, i'm sure she'll forgive you" he explains so excited about his idea
"You know what? That's an great idea, let's prepare everything so then we go to her"
We go to take everything necessary to prepare the biscuits and buy the most beautiful flowers that we find, then we go home and we prepare everything, putting the biscuits in a basket. We have a lot of fun making them and time goes by without us even noticing. After having quickly cleaned up ourself from all the flour, we get on the motorbike again and go to Lizzie's house. I really hope that Julian's idea works, obviously besides that i have prepared a speech in my head to tell to her, in the hope that she will make me speak and not refuse me.
After a few minutes we find ourselves in front of Lizzie's house, if before it intimidated me to walk in to her house now even more after what happened.
I help Julian get off the motorbike and we go to the doorway, i knock, hoping she'll.
After a few seconds a Lizzie with no make-up, in pajamas and with red and shiny eyes appears in front of me.
"Hey"