The day went more snappy than Taehyung want it to be, he signed and grabbed his bag ready to move out of the classroom, he want to leave the class because he is feeling suffocated in there,
but he also wants to stay extended, heart bounding to see Jungkook.
he didn't get a glimpse of the boy not for even a mear second after the theater he created, he never enjoyed those words slipping out of his mouth,
but things never ensue according to us, Anger and panic is something in which the most unpredictable words happen to slip out without us acknowledging it,
same crises build in front of taehyung but his ego and attitude are much bigger to show any guilt and regret.
His mindset is too different to think about apologizing to Jungkook, No surprise he is the exact Kim Taehyung.
on the other hand, Jungkook already left for home with a desirable feeling he is feeling right now after thinking about the word home now,
so different from before, so likable than before, so pleasant than before, so warm and safe than before.
thinking about it a beautiful smile took over, steps became faster, wanting to reach home faster anyone can tell how excited he is to reach home,
the face he is wearing is enough to tell so, some of us may think that he is behaving like a child an overexcited one,
but only those can feel the excitement, who pin for the warmth of a mother who pins for the love of the father, who never gets to know what a happy family and loving parents feel like.
and it is so rare for jungkook to feel this kind of happiness as he wants to feel it with every fiber of his body, call him selfish but love is something we can never get enough of, especially when it is from our parents,
Walking in his world he didn't acknowledge when did his route completed,
he entered the house in slow steps, he won't know how to react now it is something new for him,
"kookie baby," a high pinch voice rang in the dining room making jungkook stop on the track, he slowly turned his head toward the source of the voice.
his mother is standing there with a soft smile that can melt anyone's heart, Jungkook standstill didn't know what to do or say,
the beautiful women start taking slow steps toward jungkook she reached to jungkook and cupped his face,
Jungkook is frozen on the spot all memories flowed in his head, sweat starts to form on his forehead, his hands start shaking,
all the glimpse of the past where his mother used to hit or condemn him, starts reaching in front of his eyes like a slideshow,
"no.." jungkook muttered in a low tone that his mum didn't witness comments.
"huh?"
"NO don't come near--" He said and forced his mother delicate to run to his room closing the room severely.
his breaths are irregular, he slid down on the spot back against the sealed door, eyes shut, shiny droplets of sweat trimming his forehead, his chest expanding up and down rapidly, concentrating on the whiffs he tried to calm himself down.
after two or three minutes he claimed himself down his breaths were back to normal he gradually attains his control back and process the circumstance that ensued a few minutes ago,
the realization hit him that he fucking pushed his mother, fuck he is over now.
"they will kill me now, fuck jungkook you are so ridiculous." he cried.
he stands up quickly and turned to open the door his hands reached for the door handle but he was not earning the intrepidity to unlock it,
he gulped hard and took a deep breath he free the whiff from his mouth and with utterly slow and trembling hands he twisted the door handle,
resulting in the door getting open chewing his lower lip he peaked out of the gate but to his surprise, he didn't encounter anyone there,
not having a yearning to get into his mother's view he went to his room and locked it with the speed of light.
As he knows that his mother will beat the shit out of him if she glimpsed him after what he did,
he merely lies on his mattress, gazing at the ceiling little angry at himself, he knew that going out of his room after pushing his mother will be perilous for his soundness.
he closed his eyes and ultimately slip asleep due to the anxiety and the agitated day,
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only a mear thought of falling in love again can make someone shake in fear who has already faced the pain once,
but not all the time do we have control over our hearts, people easily say that follow your heart when you are confused,
but our heart gets confused too, even more than our head how we are supposed to follow it,
Once someone's hurt you, it's harder to relax around them, harder to think of them as safe to love. But it doesn't stop you from wanting them.
When you experience loss, people say you'll move through the stages of grief
Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance, and many more like this which fuck your head and heart up
..... What they don't tell you is that you'll cycle through them all every day.
Taehyung is not in the right state of mind sitting on the counter he is drinking non-stop,
"sir you seem drunk you should stop," the bartender tried to protest.
"shut the fuck up and do your job quietly." he snapped, making the bartend shut his mouth and as keep serving.
the bartender flinched when Taehyung threw the glass on the floor and it breaks down into millions of pieces.
the bartender widened in eyes but his brow rosed as Taehyung started laughing, loudly
"you see how easy it is to break something?" taehyung questioned still laughing, as the bartender only nodded his head,
"but can you fix it now?" taehyung asked suddenly getting all serious which shocks the bartender, focusing on the words he knew what can be the reason.
"you know after what she did I wanted to throw the word 'love' from my life,
but fuck it, because of him my heart is getting out of control, I can't help it but my heart wants to beat for him but,
...the sad part is, that I will probably end up loving him, for much longer than he could even think of" he smiled sadly
Some people might find that strange.
But the truth of it is that the amount of love you feel for someone and the impact they have on you as a person is in no way relative to the amount of time you have known them.
it can be true that love increases with time but it can't be true that a great amount of time is necessary for love,
"it might end up like the past, but I can't effort a new scratch on my heart, please tell this stupid heart to stop repeating the same mistake," taehyung begged
honestly speaking the bartender was shocked by the choice of words, the bartender indeed encounters many people,
many people who got hurt, pain in love every person is not same, some cried their heart out, some got blank but thinking about the boy he just listened to [taehyun] he felt an odd feeling,
taehyung's words hold many emotions he felt the sadness in the words, and anger is completely visible but something he found was........loneliness???
the bartender snapped out of his thoughts when he hears the sound of someone snoring.
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