Chay's POV
"How are you?"
The words kept echoing in my head as I stood still keeping my cool in front of the guy i once called my home.
The same guy who used me, hurt me, lied to me....
My heart started to beat frantically as I avoided his gaze.
That voice...
I missed that voice, that face, that-
Everything
I missed everything about this guy
I sighed before answering
"Good, because all the bad things I've forgotten them all"
I lied.
Just like he did to me.
I can never forget him. No matter how hard I try to forget everything about him, about us, I just can't.
I love him way too much that I feel like I've lost myself. He changed me for who I am.
And I will always hold a grudge at him for that.
In the end, it all comes back to me.
"Mhm good"
He said apathetically.
I gathered all my strength and looked straight at his eyes.
We were just five feet apart from each other right now but I feel like he's too far from me. Way too far for me to reach.
He's always been like that with me.
He has always been my dream guy. I dreamt of him being with me, taking care of me, loving me. But I guess I was the only one who has that plan.
His gaze landed with mine for a split second, there was no emotion in them. It was too dark inside that I felt like it could suffocate me if I dive into them.
He was always so hard for me to read.
How many times have I tried to cross the wall between us before? How many times i have tried to climb the barrier between us?
In spite all of my efforts, it meant nothing to him. He kept pushing me away as if I am just an outsider.
Sometimes, I just wonder did he never felt anything from me? Even just for a slightest bit.
There was always a chance, and even though I felt so much pain from him, deep down I'm still holding on to that chance.
I was lost within my thoughts that i didn't notice him walking away.
I turned my head and watched as he turned his back to me.
In an instant, my thoughts flew everywhere. My mind began to panic, I want to do this right.
I just couldn't do this anymore.
Not knowing what to do, I called him senselessly.
"P'kim"