OMNISCIENT
karnation tied her shoes as she grabbed her keys.
today was the funeral for Kai and Armani.
tori planned everything, she was happy she didn't think she would be able too.
karnation was putting on a act but everybody knew she wasn't ok at all.
they also knew she didn't want any pity so they checked in on her a few times and left her alone.
she was grateful for that.
"you can do this" nation mumbled to herself pulling off.
"you look so nice" tori smiled pulling her into a hug
"thank you" nation watched as the church filled.
"i'm not going in"
"you have too, it's the last time you'll see them" zaeland told her.
"i can't see them in a casket"
"so how you got bury them then?" baili sighed.
"i won't go"
"you have too nation, stop being that way" tori eyed her.
"i'm not being a way, i'm just scared"
"of what?" baili questioned.
"seeing them in the casket lifeless, living alone without either of them" nation explained.
"we understand perfectly, but you have to lay them to rest it's only right"
"i know and I will just need to sit out here a while" nation told her.
"ok i'll be to get you when it's starting" tori walked off with everybody inside.
nation sat down and took a deep breath.
nervous wasn't the word.
she was more scared then anything, seeing the love of your life nd your baby in a casket wasn't a easy sight.
she closed her eyes exhaling.
"you'll be ok" she repeated to herself repeatedly.
"sis come on" booka said stuffing his hands in his pocket.
she opened her eyes and stood to her feet.
"come on" he held his hand out.
she grabbed it and walked inside with him.
they walked to the front row and sat down.
her eyes landed on the caskets.
one for Armani and one for Kai.
"here" they handed her the obituary.
she smiled looking at how it was designed.
"this is pretty, you did this ?" she asked tori.
"yeah , i said i was gone do everything"
"i appreciate you"
the pastor walked to the podium and everybody went silent.
"is he gone talk?" E man asked seeing he was just standing there.
"we've come together to pay tribute and respect to a father , son , brother and lover... we've also come to pay respect to a young soul lost to early"
karnation listened to the speech not feeling any tears.
"would the mother and girlfriend like to come and say a few words?" the pastor looked at nation.
"she's fine" zaeland sided eyed him.
"will anybody else?"
everybody stood up forming a line.
karnation laughing seeing how many people wanted to speak.
"you sure you don't wanna speak?" baili looked at her.
"i'm sure just ready to get this over with"
they nodded and listened to everybody speaking.
karnation laid the roses on Armani and Kai's headstones.
she wiped her eyes looking at their gravesites for the last time.
"i love y'all so much" she looked one more time before walking back to her car.
going on without them wasn't something she planned on doing.
she had to be with them, she was tired and hurt.
there wasn't nobody to take Armani spot, and having another baby wouldn't make up for the loss of Kai.
karnation held the pill bottle in her hand as she wrote her last few text to every.
4/4 + booka 🫶🏾 and E man 🫶🏾
thank you guys so much
for everything being there
for me and more, i can't go
on anymore. i lost my son and my boyfriend i can't live life much longer. and I don't plan too.
i hope you guys heal from this, but i won't be able too! i'll love you guys forever even in death. goodbye forever 🖤
karnation opened the pill bottle and grabbing a handful she looked down at her hand one more time.
she popped all the pills and laid back feeling her body relax.
she played with the necklace as she felt her body shutting down slowly.
her eyes fluttered closed.
her mouth slowly parted as she took her last breath.
that was it ... nation was dead.
"wake up" she felt somebody shaking her.
nation eyes opened slowly seeing everything was white.
she looked at her outfit and saw she was in a all white dress.
"nas?" she smiled sitting up.
"hey sis" he mugged her.
"why you mugging?"
"you doing dumb shit, why would you do that?" he laughed.
"you know why" she sighed.
"we been watching you, we really thought you would've made it through" nas frowned.
"who's we?"
"me girl" she heard Armani say from behind her.
she turned around seeing him holding Kai.
"Mani" she smiled running up and hugging him.
he hugged her back missing the feeling of his girlfriend.
"hi Kai" she smiled grabbing it.
"i missed y'all so much" nation kissed his cheek.
"you wasn't supposed to go out like that nation, you could've lived you was gone be good"
"I wasn't you don't know how it felt living without you both, having to bury both of you took a part of me" nation explained.
Armani looked at her, he couldn't say he wasn't happy to see her because he was.
"i understand, i'm glad you here with me" he hugged her again.
"me too, you was right though" she laughed.
"about what?" he asked her.
"we really were gone be together in the afterlife"
he smiled remembering the day he said it.
"get out my face" he put his head down smiling.
"I love you Armani"
"i love you more Karnation"
thanks for reading loves.
i know it was stressful. anyways yeah.