I don't know how long it's been since we've been here, maybe hours but i don't care, it's all so beautiful that almost seems like a dream.
Lizzie and i are enjoying each other's company, talking about everything, laughing every time one of us said or did something funny.
She is so ... unique.
She always finds the right words to make you feel better, has a great sense of humor and she's so sunny, her smile cheers you up.
"So you're italian?" she asks
"Yes, i was born in Italy and i lived there my childhood then my- well i moved here, specifically in New York and after high school i moved here to LA to study"
"Oh tell me you know how to cook, i want so much to learn about Italian recipes" she says like a kid
"Yeah to be honest i'm very good at cooking" i say bragging me a little bit
"Good you'll help me one day" she winks at me
God this woman is insane
"And when you met Cassie?" she adds
"I met Cassie in New York, she was the first person i met there and then we became so close. We've become inseparable, she's my other half. She has always been close to me, even in the most difficult moments. She's the only one i can really count on and trust blindly" i say with a smile
"I can see it, she really loves you and she looks like a wonderful person, she's full of energy and life, i'm sure it's good to have someone like her by your side" she says
"Yeah, she really is. You know when you came in class yesterday she couldn't believe it, she always admired you as an actress and you are a role model for her. She was so excited that you'll be our new teacher"
"And you? What did you think when you saw me?"
she asks, placing her face on the palm of her hand to look at me carefully, waiting for my answer.
Her gaze is so magnetic, she looks at me with a sparkle in her eyes.
I almost choke with my water at her question.
"Oh honey, don't tell me i embarrassed you, come on tell me, were you excited that i was going to be your new professor?" she asks bits her lip and with a raspy voice.
Is she trying to flirt with me?
"I-i-" i can't speak, it's like suddenly i've lost the ability to speak and she almost seems to know the effect she has on me.
She starts laughing and i look at her confused
"Oh i'm kidding y/n, sorry but it was so funny to tease you, you should have looked at your expression" she says keeping laugh
"I hate you Elizabeth Olsen" i say pretending to be offended
"Oh, really?" she asks, stopping laughing and looking at me like a puppy.
No no no i didn't mean to hurt her.
"No Lizzie i'm joking, i could never hate you" i say smiling at her and a huge smile appears on her face
"Good because i would have change your mind anyway"
"Oh really and how would you do it?" i asks
"I have my techniques, wish you never have to find out" she says and...is she looking at my lips?
There is something in her answer that made me feel something and this time not in my stomach.
We stay to talk a while longer, enjoying each other's company, until i start to shiver and she notices it.
"Hey are you cold?" she asks worried
"It's okay Lizzie i'm fine" i say reassuring her
"No you're not, you're trembling. Here, take this"
she says, getting up to put her coat over my shoulders.
"Oh you didn't have to" i say
"Stop it Y/n, you need it more than me, maybe i should take you home, you need to rest" she says stroking my shoulders to warm me up.
"Don't worry, i can call a tax-"
"Can you just take a favor from me without arguing?" i can't see her because she's behind me but i'm sure she's very serious right now.
"Fine"
"Thank you" she says quickly leaving me a kiss on my head
S-she did she really do it?
"Uhm come on let's go" she says embarrassed
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The drive home is fairly quiet, broken only by me giving directions to Lizzie.
Even in silence there is no embarrassment, i just feel good with her.
The temperature in my body seems to decrease more and more, Lizzie notices it in fact she turns up the heat in the car and gently puts a hand on my leg caressing and trying to warm me up a little more... and yeah it's definitely work.
The journey seems to be short in fact after some minutes we arrive under my apartment.
"Here we are..." i say trying to waste time
"Sure you don't need something?" she asks
"No don't worry, there's Cassie but thanks Lizzie, for everything"
"Oh don't even say it, i'm happy to help you and thanks to you, i had a great day. Promise me you'll eat dinner"
"Under your orders professor" i say making her laugh
"Uh your coat" i say realizing that i still have it on
"No no keep it, i don't want you to get cold on your way home"
"Are you sure?" i'm actually happy that she told me to keep it, it has her perfume
"Yeah don't worry, see you tomorrow?" she asks and her eyes look hopeful
"Yes, see you Lizzie" and then i feel embarrassed, i don't know what to do, if to hug her, shake her hand so i decide to just smile at her and she does the same.
I'm about to get out of her car when she stops me taking my arm.
"Wait" she says
"What?" i ask confused
"Give me your phone"
I look at her not understanding what she wants to do, but i do as she asked and i give her my phone.
After touching something on my phone she returns it to me.
"Here, so if you need me for anything you have my number, i saved yours on mine too" she smiles at me
"O-oh okay, thanks, see you tomorrow" i say destabilizing
"See you honey" and after that i get out of her car, i see that she stays there making sure that i go inside the building.
I admit that as soon as i saw her car leave i felt like a void, something broke inside m- oh god i'm really talking in this way of my teacher.
Calm down Y/n!
I step in in my apartment and immediately see Cassie running towards me and hugging me tightly.
"You're keep having the bad habit of disappearing for hours without telling me anything, i don't like it" she says with a serious tone
"Sorry boo but i went out for lunch with Lizzie and-"
"Wait you and Lizzie, i mean our teacher, you went out together?" she asks with wide eyes
"Well yes actually, i mean she wanted to make sure i ate something so she took me to a restaura-"
"YOU WENT OUT WITH ELIZABETH OLSEN, Y/N OH MY GO-" i shut her mouth
"Shhhhh yeah okay i went out with Lizzie but it's not necessary the whole neighborhood come to find out and then she just did it 'cause she worried about me, just this" i tell her
"Y/n come on which teacher would do this for one of their students? not to mention this morning for how much she insisted on staying with you"
"I know but she just care about me, that's all and i don't want to screw it up just for stupid mind movies" i say
"Fine whatever makes you sleep at night...anyway have you eaten?" she asks
"A little bit, now i want to go to my room, i'm tired and i'm cold"
"Y/n please..." she says sad
"I'm okay Cas" i say and then lock myself in the room and here the nightmare back again...
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It's probably 3am, i'm sweating and cold, i try to call Cassie but i can barely speak.
Between a cough and the other i scream trying to get her attention and soon i see her running into my room.
"Oh my god Y/n what happen?"
"I-i-"
"Hey hey okay it's fine don't force yourself to speak" she walks over my bed and puts her hand on my forehead to take my temperature.
"Fuck Y/n your forehead is hot, o-ok now i-i find a way to help you" even if i'm stunned i understand that she is panicking.
"L-l-lizzie" i say
"What about Lizzie?" she asks confused
"C-call her, i've h-her number"
I close my eyes, maybe my time has finally come
"Hey Y/n wake up! Stay with me come on, Y/n!"
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LIZZIE'S POV
Another night without sleep.
I've been waiting all night for Robbie and when he arrived he immediately fell asleep.
Even if i tried to get close and provoke him, he again rejected me saying he was tired.
But maybe who is really tired of this situation is me, even if i love him so much.
Now i'm here, in our bed, while i watch him sleep and i realize tha there's nothing that holds us together anymore, besides my love for him i feel nothing, an absolute emptiness inside me.
And i'm afraid that he too feels this towards me.
While i am lost in my thoughts my phone starts ringing, i take it and see a name that i wouldn't have expected, especially at this time...i mean it's 3 a.m
"Hey Y/n wha-"
"Miss Olsen it's me, Cassie" she says in a trembling voice
"Cassie? what happens? it's three in the morning" suddenly i feel a weight crushing my heart, a bad feeling takes over my body.
"I'm s-sorry to bother y-you but do you think you can come here as soon as possible?" she asks and she seems so worried
"Yeah of course, give me 10 minutes and i'm there okay? Cassie is it about y/n?"
Please say no
"Y-yes S-she is sick and i don't know what to do, she asks about you" she says on the other side of the phone
"Ok fine, i'm coming, you try to stay calm"
Soon after i get out of bed, i quickly put on a jeans and a sweetshirt.
Lizzie's outfit:
I'm about to leave my room but i hear Robbie move in bed and immediately wake up.
"Hey what are you doing? where are you going at this time?" he asks with his voice still sleepy
"Nothing i- there was an emergency and i need to go, you can go back to sleep don't worry"
"Fine, do what you want but don't wake me up again" wow so rude
Without saying anything i take the keys and go to the car, start the engine and drive immediately to y/n's apartment. For the whole trip i can't stay quiet thinking about her, i think i've passed all the red lights risking an accident, but i don't care, i just want to go to y/n.
After some minutes i arrive under the building where her apartment is located, i run quickly up the stairs and knock on the door to find a few seconds later in front of me a Cassie completely destroyed tired and panicked.
"Thank you Miss Olsen" she says with red eyes
"Please Cassie call me Lizzie, anyway where is Y/n?"
"In her room, she has a very high fever and is delirious, i don't know what to do" she says worried
"Ok don't worry i'll handle that"
Cassie walks me to the door of y/n's room, before i get in i hear whines coming from there.
I look at Cassie and she looks at me reading worry in my eyes.
"She's been like this for an hour, i try to leave you a little alone with her tell me if you need anything"
I just nod and then get in and find y/n in a horrible state.
She continues to complain, her skin is pale, she's sweating and shaking at the same time.
I slowly approach her bed and sit on her side, i gently take her hand and with the other i touch her forehead and then immediately remove it as it's hot
"Hey honey i'm here" i say with a gentle voice
"M-mom? M-mom are you h-here? Wh-why you left me alone?