Zeus POV
Marahas akong bumuntong hininga at niluwagan ang necktie na suot ko, I frustratedly sit on a near bench here on field, ginulo ko ang buhok ko at tumingin sa mga students na dumaraan sa harap ko.
I can see every girls looking at my direction but I just ignored them, I don't have time for them. What I saw a while ago in Sarah's condo keep on replaying in my mind.
"damn that bitch." galit kong singhal, she cheated on me, I can't believe this. She's having sex with that campus bully here in our university, I saw it. It wasn't my heart that was hurt, it was my ego as a man. Really?? pipili na nga lang s'ya ng ipapalit sa akin ay yun pang matabang bully na 'yon??
Suminghal ako at aksidente kong natapunan ng tingin ang ang building ng Arts students. There is a woman leaning on the railings, she's holding a book while her left hand is holding a phone, may kausap yata sya. Her hair is tied in a messy bun, she has a beautiful smile and the red uniform of the university suits her complexion. A question was left in my head, who is she?
I didn't notice that I had been staring at her for a while, ibinaba nya na ang hawak nyangcellphone at isinilid iyun sa bulsa ng suot nyang palda. She faced the railings and looked around until our eyes met, damn it! why is my heart beating so fast? She frowned and rolled her eyes on me and then she left.
"D-Did she just rolled her eyes on me??" I whispered in disbelief. Unbelievable.
SHE'S GORGEOUS.
I couldn't believe myself, I just found myself always following the girl I saw before in Art Department.
Zianna Ramos. That's her name, it's suits her well, pretty. Nalaman ko ang pangalan n'ya dahil nung dumaan ako sa room nila ay saktong may orientation sila at nagpapakilala s'ya. I remember it well, she looks brave and eager while presenting their presentation, she's smart.
She's a first year college taking Bachelor of Fine Arts , I'm 3 years ahead of her.
4th year college na ako, taking BS Management. I can't believe na nanghihinayang ako dahil malapit na ay aalis na ako sa paaralang ito.
I didn't have the courage to talk to her or kahit manlang lumapit sakanya, I can't understand myself pagdating sakanya ay nanghihina ako, this isn't me, I'm confident but why do I feel so fcking shy and nervous when she's around!? It's impossible na hindi nya ako kilala, maugong ang pangalan ko sa Campus, of course I'm the son who owns this university, bukod roon ay kilala ako bilang campus crush.
"really Zeus?! that girl ang ipapalit ko sa akin? have your standards for women lowered?? bumaba na ba? I can't believe this!" galit na saad ni Sarah.
She caught me looking at Zianna.
Tamad kong binalingan si Sarah, Why is she angry though? She doesn't have any rights.
"What are you being mad about Sarah? we're already done and that was the moment you fucked another man, and one more thing, my standard didn't lower when I layed my eyes on that girl you're talking about, it gets high. " I said coldly at tinalikuran s'ya.
"DAD, I want to marry Zianna." mariing saad ko, I got to know that her family is our business partner.
"why Zeus? I can't just agree with that, she's very precious, I can't trust you on that." seryosong saad nito.
"i love her." malamig kong saad na ikinatigil ni dad sa pag subo ng pagkain si mommy naman ay napatigil sa paghiwa ng karne.
"w-what? how? you didn't even have time to know her Zeus!" saad ni dad.
"that's my only request dad, I want to marry her." madiin na sinaad ko
"then you have to wait until she graduate." pinal na saad nito.
I graduated college without having any chance to finally introduce myself to her. But even though I finally graduated in college, I always find a way for me to be on her side kahit na hindi n'ya alam. Yeah I know I look like a stalker for keeping her on my watch, but I don't care, I just want to look out on her and to always keep her safe.
Tuwing may susubok na manligaw or lumapit sakanya na lalaki ay agad kong hinaharangan ‘yun, may mga college students din akong inuutusang takutin ang sinumang mangtangkang ligawan or saktan si Zianna. No one should get Zianna's attention but me, I will have her and I'll make sure of that.
I did that for almost 3 years. I've waited for her, malapit na Zianna just wait for me.
One time, maaga akong umalis sa office at dumeretso sa University, mag aalas singko na ’yun at alam kong naka uwi na s'ya pero nagbabakasakali pa rin akong makita ko sya.
And I saw her on the waiting shed, hindi ba s'ya sinundo? I got worried lalabas na sana ako ng kotse ngunit tumigil ako. No, I can't face her, I don't have any strength. I frustratedly punch the steering wheel of my car.
"fck it! damn it Zeus! she needs to go home, mag gagabi na!" galit na saad ko.
I remember his dad is our family friend, it's not impossible na mayroong number si dad sa daddy ni Zianna.
"son, why did you call?" bungad ni dad ng tawagan ko sya.
"I need Zianna Ramos dad's contact number." nakakunot ang noong saad ko habang nakamasid kay Zianna, naka upo lamang siya at binubuklat ang hawak na makakapal nitong libro.
"why?" bakas ang pagtataka sa boses nito.
"please dad, I just need it."
Ibinagay sa akin ni dad ang number nito kahit na kuryoso s'ya sa dahilan ko. Agad kong tinawagan ang numero ng daddy nya at pinasundo si Zianna.
"Please don't tell her na ako ang nagsabi sainyo na sunduin sya sir, thank you." yun ang huling linya ko bago ibinaba ang tawag.
I WAITED for almost 3 years and now we're married but I can't even make her feel special, I can't even tell her how much I love her.
"Sige Zeus! treat her special, love her! Iparamdam mo sa kanyang mahal na mahal mo s'ya pero sisirain ko din sya, papatayin ko sya!" galit na sigaw ni Sarah
Sumugod s'ya sa office ko she heard everything that I planned for my surprise for Zianna.
I angrily stood up from my swivel chair and I immediately strangled her. I didn't like her threatening me. How dare her.
"Don't you fucking dare lay your fucking filthy hands on my wife!" tiim bagang saad ko habang sakal sakal ko pa rin s'ya.
"y-you k-know me Zeus, I-I c-can do t-that in just a s-snap." nakangising saad n'ya.
Galit na binitawan ko s'ya, sumalampak sya sa sahig at habol ang hiningang tumingala sa'kin.
"you crazy bitch." galit na saad ko at tumalikod sankanya upang lumabas sa opisina, humarap ulit ako sa'kanya habang hawak ang doorknob.
" I'll kill her Zeus if you won't comeback with me, my dad's men are always watching her every movement. Just one signal of my hand.." pumitik pa sya sa ere "and she's dead." nababaliw na saad n'ya.
I can't deny that what Sarah said made me scared, I am threatened. I know what she's saying is true, she can do that. She's really crazy.
I am a fucking billionaire pero wala akong magawa para maprotektahan ang asawa ko, I can't just tell my wife that she's in danger because of me, I can't just risk her life, I can't even put Sarah behind the bar because her dad's men are just everywhere, I didn't had the power to fight for my wife because I was scared, just one wrong move and my wife will die. I did the most horrible thing, I hurt Zianna, I hurt my wife, I hurt the woman whom I love the most. I did comeback with Sarah with the desperation of saving my wife.
This is all my fault, maybe if I just waited for her, maybe if I didn't marry her that soon maybe this won't happened, I didn't regret that I married Zianna, but I regret hurting her.
"I love you Zeus, why can't you just love me back?" she's crying, holding my hand begging me to love her back.
If you just know how much I longed for you, if you just know how much iloveyou. You didn't have to beg because I already did love you.
Gustong gusto kong punasan yung luha n'ya, I want to hold her hands too, I wanted to tell her how much I love her, but I just can't. I won't risk her life for me. I won't be selfish.
We're married for 3yrs and I treated her badly, I made her feel worthless. I gave her traumas that I know that will scarred her.
Lumuluha s'ya habang nakatingin sa akin, hawak n'ya ang kabilang pisnging sinampal ni Sarah. I want to be with her side, I wanted to touch her cheeks and check if she's okay but I can't. I feel so fucking worthless, I am a jerk.
I'm sorry baby, I can't help you. I'm sorry iloveyou.
"Fuck it Sarah! Ginawa ko na lahat ng gusto mo! you can't hurt my wife like that!" gigil na saad ko habang hawak ang kaliwang braso n'ya.
"Ouch you're hurting me! ano ba binatawan mo nga ako!" galit na saad n'ya, pabato kong binitawan ang braso n'ya.
"ginagalit mo ako Zeus, sa tingin mo ba hindi ko malalaman na nag hire ka ng mga body guards for her!? sa tingin mo ba hindi ko malalaman na may balak kang sirain kami ng pamilya ko?!" galit na saad n'ya.
I look at her, I don't know what to say. I can't believe it, she knows every movement that I do, my planned to protect my wife is ruined. My planned to dig her father's illegal doing was ruined.
"isang maling galaw mo pa, Zeus. I will really kill your wife. Mawawala ka ng asawa at ikaw mismo ang maglilibing sa kanya." she angrily said.
"fuck you." gigil na saad ko.
"ohh I want that." paungol n'yang saad, galit na sinipa ko ang lamesang nasa kwarto ko.
I WAS DRUNK but I know what I am doing. I kissed her, I kiss my wife with so much love.
"Z-Zeus.." mahinang daing n'ya ng ihiga ko sya sa kama at kinubabawan.
I lick her neck down to the valley of her breast.
"ahh..." her moaned is making me crazy.
Pinunit ko ang suot n'yang dress at sinunggaban ang dibdib nya, napahawak sya sa aking buhok at mas idiniin ako sa dibdib n'ya.
"Z-Zeus ahhh, I like that.. hmm" daing n'ya habang hinahalikan ko ang kabilang dibdib nya habang ang kabila naman ay nilalaro ko.
Bumaba ang halik ko sa ibaba n'ya, inalis ko ang suot n'yang undies at bumungad sa akin ang kaselanan nya.
Dahan dahan kong hinawakan ang magkabilang binti n'ya at saka ibinaba ang ulo ko sa kaselanan nya.
"ahhh hm Zeus ahhh" daing n'ya habang hawak ang buhok ko, hindi ko sya pinansin at pinagpatuloy ang ginagawa ko.
I licked, sucked, and sipped her wetness. Paulit ulit ko iyung ginagawa.
"ahhhh Zeus more please ahhh, harder..." she moaned
"that's it Zian, moan my name, beg for more." saad ko
"ahhhhh!" mahabang daing n'ya ng labasan s'ya, I licked every juices that she released, she taste strawberry and I want more.
Hinubad ko lahat ng suot ko habang nakatingin sakanya, namumungay ang mga mata n'yang nakatingin sa akin. She's the most gorgeous woman that I have ever layed my eyes on.
Kinubabawan ko sya at saka hinalikan at gumanti sya roon.
" I'll go in now." mahinang saad ko habang hinahalikan ang tenga nya.
"hmm go ahh." mahinang saad n'ya.
Napapikit ako at dahan dahang pinasok iyun, damn it she's so tight.
"ahhhh" daing n'ya
"fuck it Zian, you're so tight." I groaned.
Pagkatapos n'yon ay hindi muna ako gumalaw, hinintay kong masanay s'ya sa laki ko. I want to be gentle on her.
Hinalik halikan ko ang mukha nya, ang balikat nya ang tenga nya, hoping that it'll lessen the pain.
Mariin ang hawak n'ya sa balikat ko.
"move now Zeus.." mahinang saad n'ya.
Sa una ay mahina lamang ang aking paggalaw ngunit kalaunan ay bumilis iyun
"ahhh Zeus ahhh f-faster p-please!!" she moaned begging me to move faster, I did what she want.
I move harder, faster, deeper and rougher.
"iloveyou Zeus." huling saad n'ya pagkatapos ng nangyari sa amin
" I love you so damn much wife." mahinang saad ko habang nakatingin sakanya habang payapa nang natutulog.
I MADE LOVE WITH MY WIFE.
That's what I know, I badly want to tell her everything, pagkatapos ng nangyari sa amin ay sinikap kong umiwas, hindi pwedeng malaman ni Sarah iyun. Mapapahamak s'ya. I was thankful that Sarah didn't know about what happened but I should be careful.
"Zeus Iloveyou, mahal na mahal kita p-pakiusap m-mahalin mo naman ako k-kahit kaunti, k-kahit kapiranggot lang, kahit pilit lang pakiusap!" yung babaeng mahal na mahal ko, umiiyak at nagmamakaawa sa harap ko para mahalin ko, nasasaktan ako roon, I was hurt because I can't even say everything that I wanted to say.
Leave wife, leave me. Iwanan mo na ako, umalis kana sa impyernong bahay na ito, iwanan mo na ang demonyo mong asawa. Iligtas mo nalang ang sarili mo, paki usap. Hindi ko na kayang nasasaktan at umiiyak ka dahil sa akin. Tumakbo ka na palayo, pakiusap kaunting kaunti nalang susuko na 'ko.
She left me, my wife left me. Iyun ang gusto ko pero bakit nasasaktan ako?
After my wife left, mas napadali ko ang pagpapabagsak kay Sarah, naibagsak ko ang tatay n'ya. Wala nang naipanakot sa akin si Sarah kaya't hindi ako nahirapan ilabas lahat ng illegal na gawin ng tatay n'ya.
Hinanap ko si Zian, hoping na maaayos kami kahit na alam kong sobra akong naging duwag at gago, hindi ko maintindihan bakit hindi ko sya mahanap, hindi ko maintindihan kahit anong pagpapahalughog ko sa mga bansa ay hindi ko sya mahanap, bakit pakiramdam ko ay may humaharang?
I found out that it's Zian's father who's stopping me from looking on her daughter. That day I begged him to tell me where is my wife, pero wala, wala akong napala.
Walang araw na hindi ko sya hinanap, walang araw na hindi ako nagpapakalasing dahil sa sobrang pangungulila ko sa kanya, bumili ako ng isang beach resort at pinatayuan iyun ng bahay, sa isip ko ay nakaplanong doon kami maninirahan ni Zianna at ng mga magiging anak namin.
I almost went insane missing her, I almost killed myself because of self blame. I hate myself so much, I hurt her, I hurt my Zianna, ikinulong ko s'ya sa impyernong kasal. I'm so sorry.
I didn't treat her right.
It's been almost 6 years since my wife left, I never stop looking for her, I love her so much that I won't lose hope, hope that I'll soon meet her again.
"Pangako, sa pagkikita nating dalawa kukunin kita, I will win you back Zianna." and that's what I promised.
That day I saw her, she looks more matured, she looks more prettier, ang mala anghel n'yang mukha ay hindi nagbago, mas tumapang sya, I'm so proud of her, she became strong, she made it. I'm so proud of her.
“I'll take you back, I know it'll be hard. I promise sasabihin ko sa'yo lahat Zianna, magiging akin ka ulit. Sa pagkakataong ito, ipaparamdam ko sayo ang pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko ng higit labindalawang taon.” I declared that and I know that I really did it, she's mine again and I'll make sure she's mine, forever.