I'm Not Okay
I smile in front of you,
I'm laughing with you.
I can joke around
and be happy with you.
Yes, I can do anything
to hide this pain.
Pretend that everything is fine
even if I'm broken inside.
I'm living in a society-
where I don't belong.
People don't understand me
and don't believe me.
My depression is so deep
like the ocean that I couldn't dive in.
My anxiety is so strong
and is slowly making me frail.
I want to be free,
I don't want to
linger in this situation.
Can someone get me out of here?
How am I able to reach out?
Will someone even attempt to
extend their hand and help me?
Will they hear me screaming inside?
I am not okay,
who's going to believe this?
Are they going to say
that they're also feeling the same way?
I want to end my life,
would they understand this line?
Would they lend me a knife
or help me lessen the pain?
I want to shout out loud
that I'm not really okay!
I wanted at least someone to know
that I'm broken and need to be fixed.