[Landlord] Just register an account Posting time: 2017-01-16 11:48:50
I don't know where to start.
I once had a boyfriend who I chased after. Call him A. When I first met A, I was a freshman. On the school basketball court, he was so shining, he ran and jumped, and just a few three-pointers made the girls scream. He just happened to look I like, so I had a convulsion that day , bought a bottle of mineral water and waited for him next to him. Of course, there were too many girls who wanted to give him water that day, and I didn't squeeze in at all.
I couldn't say a word to him until the end of that day, but that didn't stop him from attracting me. I paid attention to him, and the longer I paid attention, the more I found that I liked him more. A dog like me has no principles. After almost 20 years of living, it was the first time I met a person who was my favorite from start to finish, so I went straight to it.
For the first time in my life, I had no experience in chasing people. I didn’t know how to flirt or play hard to catch. I was so stupid. What a Japanese crash course (can understand island action movies), anyway, try his best to appear in all the occasions he can appear.
I don't care what others think of me. At that age of worrying IQ, I think love is bigger than the sky. If I like you, I will chase you. Whether I can catch up is one thing, but you have to know that I like you. .
Later, I figured out that I was able to catch up with him under ordinary conditions mainly because of my gender advantage. A is curved, I don't know if it is natural or for Bai Yueguang, anyway, it is impossible to like girls if it is curved like mosquito coils. So I won the little girls of Yingyingyanyan all at once.
Oh, I forgot to say, I'm a man. I'm so cute, of course it's a man (?(?)?)
It's amazing to say, A was chased by me out of nowhere, and they've been together for five years by accident. Although I spent most of the past five years, but I was stupid, happy, and very happy.
[1st floor] A big painter: So I entered a Jiyou post
[2nd floor] Xiaofan Fan: Too long to read, let’s divide it
[3rd Floor] Look at me and give you a roll of eyes: What are you talking about, landlord? Who are you dumping? A?
[Landlord] Just register an account. Posting time: 2017-01-16 13:11:55
Don't worry everyone, I just went to have a meal.
Speaking of being in a relationship with him for five years, in fact, I probably unilaterally thought we were in a relationship.
For him, it was to find a nanny, or the kind that was able to sleep well.
He has a younger brother who has played since childhood. He is not related by blood. He seems to be a neighbor. His name is B.
We are both from same university.
A is very kind to B. When it rains, I want to send an umbrella. When B is sick, A will release my pigeons on the grounds of taking care of him. Once, A and I bought air tickets to go to Thailand for the National Day holiday. The day before departure, we said that we could not go. , because of B gastroenteritis. Of course I'm angry, but A said that B has been playing with him since he was a child, like his own younger brother. How can my brother go out to play when his younger brother is sick?
At the time, I thought that what A said was quite reasonable, indicating that he had a sense of responsibility. I never thought that A would never pick me up when it rained. When I was sick, A would just buy some medicine and ask me to drink more hot water. (Hehe, drink hot water...)
Shake my head at that time, and you can definitely hear the sound of the sea.
[1st Floor] Look at me and give you a blank eye: Lord, your head must be filled with four continents and five oceans, right? (Smile jpg.)
[2nd floor] shadowwww: 66666, you look up, landlord, did you see a green light
[3rd floor] The king of pesticides and medicines: so scum, keep it for the Qingming Festival?
[Landlord] Just register an account Post time: 2017-01-16 13:38:10
I found that it was wrong (I still have a little brain, 0.1% of normal people, no more), it was B's birthday. I was a sophomore that year, and I have been with A for almost a year. My birthday is in February. A went home for the New Year and we haven't been together. I took the initiative to call to remind him... I have a vague hunch that he won't remember, maybe it's to make everyone less embarrassed when we meet next time. Maybe for some ridiculous dignity, I foolishly asked people on the phone what gifts they had prepared for me...
Just as you imagined, what I got was a long silence and embarrassment, I know he forgot, I was in a bad mood, so I just hung up after a few words. We had very little contact during that holiday, and I suddenly realized that as long as I didn't look for him, he wouldn't take the initiative to contact me.When school started, he asked me to meet. I thought he was going to say break up, but in fact, I didn't love him so much at that time, it was good to break up, and there would not be so many entanglements and pains later. A gave me a pair of sneakers, saying it was my birthday present. I don't know if he was lucky or not, but he just bought the one I really wanted. So I forgave him very hopelessly, and the anger that I held for a vacation disappeared in an instant. In fact, after thinking about it, even if he gave me a random gadget that day, I would forgive him. There's no way, it just doesn't make sense to love someone.Hey, don't you want to talk about B's birthday, I'm talking too much... B's birthday is in April. I sometimes open a room with A on weekends, ahem, do homework, talk about ideals, and do something else that I don't want to describe. Once he went to take a bath, WeChat kept ringing, and the person who sent WeChat was C, one of his good buddies. C asked him, "What would you think about Xiaoxi like this?" There is no other stream around him. The stream should be me. Since I was mentioned, I couldn't help but look at the chat records. Is it too much? No unlock password)?Well, it's my fault to look at his chat history. Anyway, in the past five years, besides reading his chat history, what else have I done to be sorry to him? Can't remember, probably not...
A is discussing with C how to celebrate B's birthday. As if he was pursuing B, he carefully thought about seven or eight options. For a while, he felt that this was not worthy of B's temperament, and for a while he felt that it was not good. B would not like it. I always thought that A was the kind of indifferent to everyone. , who don't care much about what other people think.
This is the legendary self-deception, which is a bit ridiculous. In fact, he is just indifferent to me, doesn't care about my thoughts, and is very patient with people he likes.
In the end, even C was annoyed by A, so he sent two WeChat messages directly:
"What would Xiaoxi think of you like this?"
"If you like B, just dump Xiaoxi and chase him, don't babble."
How can I describe how I felt at the time, my hands were shaking while holding the phone.The word "like" is particularly dazzling, because it is a bit extravagant for me, A never said that he likes me, but C said it for him easily, but it was only used on others. Maybe my subconscious has long been aware that A doesn't like me very much, but that was the first time I accepted the fact that he didn't like me and liked B.
After understanding this, all of A's previous behaviors can be explained clearly. That is to say, I am stupid. It took me almost a year to see it together. I guess the people around him already knew about it, and everyone felt like a mirror in their hearts.
[1st Floor] A big painter: Damn it, I'm a little pissed off, A this rubbish, how did you stay with him for five years?
[2nd floor] Avant-garde de cat: one is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer
[3rd floor] B-Yuan: Hello Xiaoxi, I am the Yangtze River
[4th floor] Believe it or not, I will beat you: Hello Yangtze River, I am the Yellow River
[5 Floor] Meow Maoo: Upstairs is so boring...
[6th floor] You are the most beautiful: I feel sorry for the landlord, I have done the most sorry thing for A for five years together, but I just peeked at the mobile phone chat records ヾ(д° )ノ゛
[7 Building] Avant-garde de cat: distressed +1
[Landlord] Just register an account Post time: 2017-01-16 14:01:00
How did I stay with him for five years?
good question. Later, B went abroad to exchange, and A was better to me than the first year.
Five years have passed quickly, in a daze, and unknowingly, I came here.
[Landlord] Just register an account. Posting time: 2017-01-16 14:31:21
The day A came out of the shower and saw me sitting beside the TV, dumbfounded, and asked me what was wrong, I said I watched your chat with C Record.
A doesn't like other people touching his things. Chat records are considered private, so he is definitely not happy. But I'm too lazy to explain, I'm happier than him.
Hey, I don't really want to talk about the next paragraph, it's a bit embarrassing...
A didn't say anything, picked up the phone and looked at it, and replied C. The point is that he didn't even want to explain anything to me.
The more I thought about it, the more I felt wronged. I thought about what I did to him. I got up in the morning and walked 15 minutes to Ximen to buy his favorite breakfast and then walked back. I got up and bought it for him even when I didn’t have class. I will write down everything I buy and find a way to buy it for him; once he said that he wanted a limited edition sneaker of a certain brand, but it was too popular to get it. I bought it from a friend for three times the price and ate it myself. Noodles for a month.
There are so many things like this, I can't remember some of them. I tried my best to be nice to him, to make him happy, and I hoped that he would like me a little more, but he wouldn't even give an explanation.
What hurts the most? The details of life hurt the most.
I was originally going to question him, and it was a big deal to quarrel with him, but before I could say anything, I started to cry... The more I cried, the more I couldn't control myself, and finally I cried out of breath. Kind of, can't even say a word clearly, and still quarrel? (Hehe jpg.)
A was stunned. It was the first time that I cried in front of him, with tears running down my nose and tears. I said intermittently as I cried, "You...you don't like...me...just...forget it, break up... "Let's break up."
A brought a piece of paper and wiped my tears and snot. After wiping, he hugged me and patted my back lightly. It was the first time he treated me so tenderly, which made me feel Like my illusion.
A explained: "B is going to exchange abroad next semester, so I want to give him a good birthday."
After that, he kissed my forehead and went to bed with me. Have you ever been hugged and patted on the forehead by someone you like? If you have been there, you can understand why I let this matter pass (the landlord said in a low voice while sitting at the computer desk (._ .)), I felt that he still had a little feeling for me at the time, otherwise I would not be too lazy Comfort me. What's more, B is going abroad soon, no matter how A feels about him, they won't be able to see each other often in the future, even if A only likes me a little now, but I have time and opportunity, I can treat him better, Make him like me more and more.
Facts have proved that there is always an insurmountable gap between ideal and reality. After five years of hard work, I still couldn't compare to B's place in his heart. All the things I thought would touch him only touched me in the end. If someone asks me now if I should try to impress someone who doesn't love you, my answer is no, never. The more you pay, the deeper the injury will often be in the back. People who don't love you won't love you in the end, even if he says he loves you in the end, are you sure it's love or not? Or, are you sure he loves you as a person rather than being a father and mother for him?
As long as I look back and think about it now, I will feel sorry for myself at that time. I was stupid to the end, and it took five years. The worst thing is that this relationship has exhausted my love and love, and exhausted my love for others. Ability.
[1st floor] Avant-garde de cat: Tiger touches the creek
[2nd floor] Believe it or not, I'll beat you: I didn't say you, your heart is so soft... you deserve it...
[3rd Floor] That flower, that person, that dog: I once liked a person who didn't love me. I was a cow and a horse for a few years, and I almost took out my heart to make medicine for him. In the end, I cheated on me with the mistress. , Who didn't love a few scumbags when they were young (sad jpg.)
[4th floor] Dabai is very puzzled: hug upstairs